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We Can Never Leave
Sweet Tooth meets The Raven Boys in this queer young adult contemporary fantasy about what it means to belong from H.E. Edgmon.
You can never go home…
Every day, all across the world, inhuman creatures are waking up with no memory of who they are or where they came from–and the Caravan exists to help them. The traveling community is made up of these very creatures and their families who’ve acclimated to this new existence by finding refuge in each other. That is, until the morning five teenage travelers wake to find their community has disappeared around them overnight.
Those left: a half-human who only just ran back to the Caravan with their tail between their legs, two brothers–one who can’t seem to stay out of trouble and the other who’s never been brave enough to get in it, a venomous girl with blood on her hands and a heart of gold, and the Caravan’s newest addition, a disquieting shadow in the shape of a boy. They’ll have to work together to figure out what happened the night of the disappearance, but each one of the forsaken five is white-knuckling their own secrets. And with each truth forced to light, it becomes clear this isn’t really about what happened to their people–it’s about what happened to them.
You can never go home…
Every day, all across the world, inhuman creatures are waking up with no memory of who they are or where they came from–and the Caravan exists to help them. The traveling community is made up of these very creatures and their families who’ve acclimated to this new existence by finding refuge in each other. That is, until the morning five teenage travelers wake to find their community has disappeared around them overnight.
Those left: a half-human who only just ran back to the Caravan with their tail between their legs, two brothers–one who can’t seem to stay out of trouble and the other who’s never been brave enough to get in it, a venomous girl with blood on her hands and a heart of gold, and the Caravan’s newest addition, a disquieting shadow in the shape of a boy. They’ll have to work together to figure out what happened the night of the disappearance, but each one of the forsaken five is white-knuckling their own secrets. And with each truth forced to light, it becomes clear this isn’t really about what happened to their people–it’s about what happened to them.
306 pages, Hardcover
First published June 10, 2025
About the author
H.E. Edgmon
14 books881 followersH.E. Edgmon (he/they) is a high school and college dropout, a militant queer, and an author of books both irreverent and radicalizing. His stories will always center the perspective of Indigenous people, trans people, and survivors of trauma. At present, he’s probably biting off more than he can chew, emulating the aesthetic of Dwayne from The Lost Boys (1987), and living out the found family trope in Brooklyn. Online, he can most often be found on Twitter @heedgmon.
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May 8, 2025
You Can Leave… but you might just want to come back. 🐾🌀
We Can Never Leave by H.E. Edgmon is a shape-shifter of a novel, equal parts fantasy, mystery, and found-family feels, all wrapped in a queer coming-of-age tale that howls with heart.
I'll admit it: I'm not usually one to sink my teeth into fantasy (Sweet Tooth pun very much intended), but this one lured me in like a siren song... or maybe a shadow-boy with secrets. The concept is killer: inhuman creatures with no memory of their origins, all banding together in a roaming community called the Caravan. But when five teens wake to find the entire Caravan gone without a trace, things get vanish-y real fast.
What follows is a story that unfolds like a deck of tarot cards, each chapter flipping between different characters and timelines. With multiple POVs and frequent flashbacks, it was sometimes hard to keep track of who was who and when was when. I’m not usually a fan of that format, and yeah, I got a little tangled in the narrative threads. But the mystery at the heart of it all, what happened to the Caravan, and what’s each character hiding? Kept me curious to the last page.
Each character in the forsaken five carries their own emotional luggage (no light packing here), and their secrets unravel slowly, like a tail curling out of a hiding spot. There’s venom and vulnerability, troublemakers and truth-seekers, and one especially eerie shadow who gives off big unsettling energy. The book does a solid job of exploring themes like identity, trauma, and belonging, all while being delightfully weird and wildly original.
Overall, while the story structure threw me off at times, the idea itself had claws. This is one Caravan ride that may leave you disoriented, but not unmoved.
👁️ 👁️ 👁️ out of 5 – for the slow reveal of truth and hidden identities.
We Can Never Leave by H.E. Edgmon is a shape-shifter of a novel, equal parts fantasy, mystery, and found-family feels, all wrapped in a queer coming-of-age tale that howls with heart.
I'll admit it: I'm not usually one to sink my teeth into fantasy (Sweet Tooth pun very much intended), but this one lured me in like a siren song... or maybe a shadow-boy with secrets. The concept is killer: inhuman creatures with no memory of their origins, all banding together in a roaming community called the Caravan. But when five teens wake to find the entire Caravan gone without a trace, things get vanish-y real fast.
What follows is a story that unfolds like a deck of tarot cards, each chapter flipping between different characters and timelines. With multiple POVs and frequent flashbacks, it was sometimes hard to keep track of who was who and when was when. I’m not usually a fan of that format, and yeah, I got a little tangled in the narrative threads. But the mystery at the heart of it all, what happened to the Caravan, and what’s each character hiding? Kept me curious to the last page.
Each character in the forsaken five carries their own emotional luggage (no light packing here), and their secrets unravel slowly, like a tail curling out of a hiding spot. There’s venom and vulnerability, troublemakers and truth-seekers, and one especially eerie shadow who gives off big unsettling energy. The book does a solid job of exploring themes like identity, trauma, and belonging, all while being delightfully weird and wildly original.
Overall, while the story structure threw me off at times, the idea itself had claws. This is one Caravan ride that may leave you disoriented, but not unmoved.
👁️ 👁️ 👁️ out of 5 – for the slow reveal of truth and hidden identities.
December 26, 2024
I received a free copy of, We Can Never Leave, by H.E. Edgmon, from the publisher and Netgalley in exchange for an honest review. Five half humans are left to figure out what happened to everyone else, but they all have their own secrets. Im not normally a fan of fantasy, but this was different.
May 22, 2025
Special thanks to NetGalley and the publisher for a free, electronic ARC of this novel received in exchange for an honest review.
Expected publication date: June 10, 2025
H.E. Edgmon’s newest YA, contemporary fantasy novel, “We Can Never Leave” is evocative, heartbreaking and page-turning.
The Caravan is a collection of misfits- individuals that the human world has rejected, due to their eccentric appearances or mystical powers. With very little memories of what happened to them and how they got there, the Caravan is a found family for those who are seeking a safe place to land. One day, five teenagers from the Caravan wake up and discover that everyone else is gone. Completely abandoned, with nothing but their strong dislike for each other, the five teenagers decide to set out in search of the only home they’ve ever known only to discover that home is not necessarily a place, but the people you surround yourself with.
“We Can Never Leave” has a very cool magical component, with half-animal, half-human creatures and teenagers with the ability to set fires and turn into shadows all described with powerful and poetic language. “Leave” is atmospheric and character driven, with all of the protagonists narrating their own stories, both before they were abandoned and afterward.
All of the main characters are edgy and awkward, set apart from their peers due to their uniquely strange appearance or abilities but, due to being sensitive, moody teenagers, they don’t necessarily get along with each other, either. I loved the complicated and angsty relationships that the main characters had, and I enjoyed experiencing their extreme ups and downs, only made more intense by their ability to, literally, cause chaos and destruction.
I was intrigued by the Caravan and how they “collected” their members and, although Edgmon did provide some background, I wanted more, more, more. I hope that Edgmon brings these characters to life again in a prequel, or perhaps takes each character and creates an individual story for each of them, delving more in-depth into their upbringings before and after the Caravan came around. For me, this was the most interesting part and there was not enough detail to satisfy my unending curiousity.
Edgmon makes a connection with readers through their honest and authentic portrayal of the main characters. As the plot unfolds, it is obvious that something mysterious hides just below the surface, but the final, jaw-dropping twist doesn’t come into play until the final pages and it packs a heck of a punch.
“Leave” is the only novel I’ve read by Edgmon, but it has definitely left an impression. I really hope to see more not only from Edgmon, but from this world of Caravan misfits.
Expected publication date: June 10, 2025
H.E. Edgmon’s newest YA, contemporary fantasy novel, “We Can Never Leave” is evocative, heartbreaking and page-turning.
The Caravan is a collection of misfits- individuals that the human world has rejected, due to their eccentric appearances or mystical powers. With very little memories of what happened to them and how they got there, the Caravan is a found family for those who are seeking a safe place to land. One day, five teenagers from the Caravan wake up and discover that everyone else is gone. Completely abandoned, with nothing but their strong dislike for each other, the five teenagers decide to set out in search of the only home they’ve ever known only to discover that home is not necessarily a place, but the people you surround yourself with.
“We Can Never Leave” has a very cool magical component, with half-animal, half-human creatures and teenagers with the ability to set fires and turn into shadows all described with powerful and poetic language. “Leave” is atmospheric and character driven, with all of the protagonists narrating their own stories, both before they were abandoned and afterward.
All of the main characters are edgy and awkward, set apart from their peers due to their uniquely strange appearance or abilities but, due to being sensitive, moody teenagers, they don’t necessarily get along with each other, either. I loved the complicated and angsty relationships that the main characters had, and I enjoyed experiencing their extreme ups and downs, only made more intense by their ability to, literally, cause chaos and destruction.
I was intrigued by the Caravan and how they “collected” their members and, although Edgmon did provide some background, I wanted more, more, more. I hope that Edgmon brings these characters to life again in a prequel, or perhaps takes each character and creates an individual story for each of them, delving more in-depth into their upbringings before and after the Caravan came around. For me, this was the most interesting part and there was not enough detail to satisfy my unending curiousity.
Edgmon makes a connection with readers through their honest and authentic portrayal of the main characters. As the plot unfolds, it is obvious that something mysterious hides just below the surface, but the final, jaw-dropping twist doesn’t come into play until the final pages and it packs a heck of a punch.
“Leave” is the only novel I’ve read by Edgmon, but it has definitely left an impression. I really hope to see more not only from Edgmon, but from this world of Caravan misfits.
December 11, 2025
✰ 2.5 stars ✰
I went back and reread the Author's Note, which pretty much sums up what to expect before reading: not the usual love letter to traumatized teens, but rather the opposite of it. That this is in no way intended to be a happy story for it is for those who cannot escape from the prejudice or the confines of their lives. 💔
Which is a sad thing to reflect on. In a world where they're already facing so much discrimination, why would one want to write let alone read a book that offers no respite nor hope for the victimized brutality they face? Does that not defeat the purpose of their existence? Or maybe my interpretation is a warped one onto itself...
But, if the writing has to explain to me what the purpose of the story is with self inserted guidance by breaking the fourth wall continuously and annoyingly, doesn't that defeat the purpose let alone take away the readers own ability to discern for themselves what's going on? It subterfuges the mystery and suspense entirely, almost as it is a justification for the way the plot proceeds. 🤨
“Some questions are easier to carry when they aren’t weighed down by the burden of their answers.”
Although, yes, the reveal is gut-wrenching and that's what troubles me for all the metaphorical symbolism that occurs, how it ties together to those certain characters that We Can Never Leave behind who we are or where we came from, because what was lost is so much scarier and painful than what awaits. 😥 It was a stab to my heart with a knife so sharp, tragically wielded by one at the mercy of the most despicable, deplorable, vile parents that I felt sick!
In fairness, we were warned beforehand if you can stomach it, only proceed, but my stomach literally turned. 😬 All that deep rooted rage and anger - learning where it came from - it felt totally understandable in the wake of that truth emerging, disgusting freak of parents!!!! Argh!!!!
It is a suspenseful horror mystery of the weirdest twisted kind that sadly offered no explanation behind the suspicious and questionable actions of the Caravan. If it was all instinctual or spiritual, which does tie into being trapped, but is it a metaphor of queer representation? That what is seen as being different is a curse, but willingly trapped, because no one accepts them on the outside? 😢
“This isn’t fair.”
“No—but it is what we are.”
So yes, expecting these five teens misfit with their own brand of mystical powers to walk off into the sunset, guns ablazing maybe was too much to hope for. But I should have felt like so much was left unexplained, a fruitless, pointless journey that left no conclusive feeling. One that was capsized by meandering backstories with various perspectives that in the end offered very little conclusive understanding.
And still, my rational mind argues that who said there had to be one, when the modus operandi was as such from the very start?? 🥺When all hints suggested the answer would remain vague till the end?? Is that a convenient way to escape the lack of rationality to the plot, or that the overall message is so much more than it is? So much of my own thoughts are contrary to each other, I can't help but be troubled by my experience with it. 😔
“This is a book about haunted houses, except the houses are bodies and the hauntings are the lies children tell and are told.”
I went back and reread the Author's Note, which pretty much sums up what to expect before reading: not the usual love letter to traumatized teens, but rather the opposite of it. That this is in no way intended to be a happy story for it is for those who cannot escape from the prejudice or the confines of their lives. 💔
Which is a sad thing to reflect on. In a world where they're already facing so much discrimination, why would one want to write let alone read a book that offers no respite nor hope for the victimized brutality they face? Does that not defeat the purpose of their existence? Or maybe my interpretation is a warped one onto itself...
But, if the writing has to explain to me what the purpose of the story is with self inserted guidance by breaking the fourth wall continuously and annoyingly, doesn't that defeat the purpose let alone take away the readers own ability to discern for themselves what's going on? It subterfuges the mystery and suspense entirely, almost as it is a justification for the way the plot proceeds. 🤨
“Some questions are easier to carry when they aren’t weighed down by the burden of their answers.”
Although, yes, the reveal is gut-wrenching and that's what troubles me for all the metaphorical symbolism that occurs, how it ties together to those certain characters that We Can Never Leave behind who we are or where we came from, because what was lost is so much scarier and painful than what awaits. 😥 It was a stab to my heart with a knife so sharp, tragically wielded by one at the mercy of the most despicable, deplorable, vile parents that I felt sick!
In fairness, we were warned beforehand if you can stomach it, only proceed, but my stomach literally turned. 😬 All that deep rooted rage and anger - learning where it came from - it felt totally understandable in the wake of that truth emerging, disgusting freak of parents!!!! Argh!!!!
It is a suspenseful horror mystery of the weirdest twisted kind that sadly offered no explanation behind the suspicious and questionable actions of the Caravan. If it was all instinctual or spiritual, which does tie into being trapped, but is it a metaphor of queer representation? That what is seen as being different is a curse, but willingly trapped, because no one accepts them on the outside? 😢
“This isn’t fair.”
“No—but it is what we are.”
So yes, expecting these five teens misfit with their own brand of mystical powers to walk off into the sunset, guns ablazing maybe was too much to hope for. But I should have felt like so much was left unexplained, a fruitless, pointless journey that left no conclusive feeling. One that was capsized by meandering backstories with various perspectives that in the end offered very little conclusive understanding.
And still, my rational mind argues that who said there had to be one, when the modus operandi was as such from the very start?? 🥺When all hints suggested the answer would remain vague till the end?? Is that a convenient way to escape the lack of rationality to the plot, or that the overall message is so much more than it is? So much of my own thoughts are contrary to each other, I can't help but be troubled by my experience with it. 😔
July 24, 2025
Fever Dream
📖 Bookish Thoughts
This book was a fever dream. I received an ALC and listened to about half before borrowing the ebook from Libby to continue with immersive reading.
There are a lot of POVs, and with dual timelines on top of that, it was hard to keep track of who was who. All of the MCs were a bit unlikeable, but somehow I couldn’t stop reading. This is definitely a character-driven story rather than a plot-driven one, and while it was well written, it was also genuinely confusing at times.
I did love the queer rep and the strong found family themes.
🎧 Audio Score: 4 stars (Vico Ortiz was fantastic!)
🎙️ Narration Style: Solo
📅 Pub Date: June 10, 2025
Thank you to RBMedia and NetGalley for the advanced listening copy. All thoughts are my own.
📖 Bookish Thoughts
This book was a fever dream. I received an ALC and listened to about half before borrowing the ebook from Libby to continue with immersive reading.
There are a lot of POVs, and with dual timelines on top of that, it was hard to keep track of who was who. All of the MCs were a bit unlikeable, but somehow I couldn’t stop reading. This is definitely a character-driven story rather than a plot-driven one, and while it was well written, it was also genuinely confusing at times.
I did love the queer rep and the strong found family themes.
🎧 Audio Score: 4 stars (Vico Ortiz was fantastic!)
🎙️ Narration Style: Solo
📅 Pub Date: June 10, 2025
Thank you to RBMedia and NetGalley for the advanced listening copy. All thoughts are my own.
January 17, 2025
I just do not think that this book was for me. The writing was good, but I got very lost in all of the points of views. It was bouncing from character to character every chapter and it got mixed up for me. I thought they all had good thoughts and complexities to them, but it felt very difficult to concentrate on each person and the overarching plot. I found myself skimming often, and could not invest myself into the book like I initially thought I would be able to. The idea was really good, I loved the outcasts, but I felt like it got too mixed up in the end.
I appreciate the publisher reaching out to me in exchange for an honest review.
I appreciate the publisher reaching out to me in exchange for an honest review.
December 30, 2024
I received an e-arc of this novel from netgalley and the publisher.
I don't know how I feel about this book. Starting with the writing style, this book had very poetic descriptions, lots of metaphors and what not. Personally, I felt like some of these descriptions were borderline incomprehensible, but I feel like a lot of readers tend to gravitate towards poetic writing, so this is more of a me problem. As for the plot... well, there barely is one. You get a little plot at the beginning and a little plot at the end, but most of this book is just the characters meandering around and arguing. Speaking of characters, they were quite unlikable, but I still liked reading about them. However, they are quite stagnant throughout the narrative. Since there was so little plot, I figured there would be a lot of character growth, but we don't really see any of that until about the 70% mark. The narrative mostly goes back and forth between present day when the characters are just arguing and fighting and the past where we get vague snippets of the characters traumatic pasts. We don't really learn that much about the character's pasts, the caravan, or the plot itself. I did like the few answers that were given, but I was just left with way too many questions to really feel satisfied. Also, I did not like the Felix chapters. For some reason, the "author" decides to speak to the reader in the Felix chapters. I don't know why. It just felt super condescending. For example. "This whole thing is reeking of a religious cult. Have you picked up on that yet?" (chapter 8) and "Okay, pause. Hello again, reader. I imagine you might be having some thoughts right now." (chapter 18). Each of these interjections took me out of the moment and, again, felt so condescending. It felt like the author doesn't think the readers are smart enough to pick up on subtext so they decided to actively address the reader and be like "hey, btw, did you pick up on that subtext earlier???" Now I just feel like I'm ranting. Anyway, this book was fine, I guess? Not much plot, not many answers, and not much character growth. But despite all that, it was still a pretty good reading experience.
I don't know how I feel about this book. Starting with the writing style, this book had very poetic descriptions, lots of metaphors and what not. Personally, I felt like some of these descriptions were borderline incomprehensible, but I feel like a lot of readers tend to gravitate towards poetic writing, so this is more of a me problem. As for the plot... well, there barely is one. You get a little plot at the beginning and a little plot at the end, but most of this book is just the characters meandering around and arguing. Speaking of characters, they were quite unlikable, but I still liked reading about them. However, they are quite stagnant throughout the narrative. Since there was so little plot, I figured there would be a lot of character growth, but we don't really see any of that until about the 70% mark. The narrative mostly goes back and forth between present day when the characters are just arguing and fighting and the past where we get vague snippets of the characters traumatic pasts. We don't really learn that much about the character's pasts, the caravan, or the plot itself. I did like the few answers that were given, but I was just left with way too many questions to really feel satisfied. Also, I did not like the Felix chapters. For some reason, the "author" decides to speak to the reader in the Felix chapters. I don't know why. It just felt super condescending. For example. "This whole thing is reeking of a religious cult. Have you picked up on that yet?" (chapter 8) and "Okay, pause. Hello again, reader. I imagine you might be having some thoughts right now." (chapter 18). Each of these interjections took me out of the moment and, again, felt so condescending. It felt like the author doesn't think the readers are smart enough to pick up on subtext so they decided to actively address the reader and be like "hey, btw, did you pick up on that subtext earlier???" Now I just feel like I'm ranting. Anyway, this book was fine, I guess? Not much plot, not many answers, and not much character growth. But despite all that, it was still a pretty good reading experience.
January 8, 2025
this book is so confusing the narrator has to keep pausing the story to blatantly tell you information and it’s STILL confusing
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August 11, 2025🎵 hey siri play nettles by ethel cain
(bird x hugo are so nettles to me idc)
i can't quite decide how i feel about this one but i think the rating is hovering around a 3.7.
🏕 "perhaps time does not exist in the cavernous white-barked wood."
my favorite thing about this book is the vibe. it's a road-trip horror/thriller fantasy ya novel, which is kind of a wild combination, but it works really well. there's a creeping sense of eldritch dread interspersed with gorgeous descriptions of the american wilderness. southwest rock formations and brokenhearted deer boys. colorado skies and leaving and coming back different. arguments in the rv and little brothers with something to hide.
in said rv, we're suffocating under the tension, fear, and hatred that has been building for years between our pov characters.
⭐️ bird, golden child of the magical clan, north star to many, runaway and returnee and basically in a constant state of crisis. possibly hugo's soulmate. (also canonically went to a hozier concert)
🦌 hugo, violent antler-headed boy with a dark past, fiercely protective over his little brother felix, with constant fiery rage always bubbling under the surface of his mind.possibly definitely still a little (or a lot) in love with bird.
🐍 cal, venomous thrift store sapphic who wishes everyone wasn't so damn obsessed with bird. or maybe it's just her.
❤️🩹 felix, hugo's little brother and a gentle soul in a world of rough edges, finds strength in his softness, has unprecedented faith in their little group and in the world.
🌑 eamon, shadowy new guy with no memories (or so he claims), may or may not hold the secret to the clan's founding.
the characters in this book aren't exactly likable. they were morally grey and lethal but they're still teenagers and they're by and large ruled by instability, by emotion. i didn't fault them for that - in fact i found it interesting. if anything, this book was paced rather quickly, and i would've preferred to dive deeper into the psyche of these characters and the layers of this world. the quick clip at which we got through the story made me get it felt like it was over just a bit too quickly, especially because so much of it was flashbacks. i just wanted more.
but the worst part about this book was far and away the occasional 4th wall breaks during the felix sections. the narrator felt like an anxious protrusion of the author's worry that the readers would not understand very obvious subtext. no, i don't want to be reassured that we'll find out the secrets "in time" and that you have "good reason" to keep it from me. i just want to enjoy the story!!! and yes, i know that the characters are horrible and violent, and no, i do not care that there's "no one to root for"!!! that is how these kinds of books work, h. e. edgmon!!!!
🦴 "eventually, he will have time to ask how he knows it is the aspens that stand white like great bleached bones instead of bark, they wear their bare skin, and that, like people, the outermost layers of their flesh are dead."
besides those complaints, this was a really unique and interesting take on a magical-kids kind of story. i liked that we delved into the consequences of being shunned by society and the trauma that this type of isolated upbringing results in. i liked dealing with a character that "ran away." i liked how each character subverted their tropes at least a little bit. i liked the complex portrayal of the brotherly relationship between hugo and felix. i would definitely recommend this book, especially if you're looking for fast-paced thriller/fantasy with queer mcs. but i just couldn't quite bring myself to love this book, and i really wish i could.
and i just want to say that i did guess the twist. it was pretty damn obvious if you were paying attention to what the 4th-wall-breaking narrator was so adamant about pretending to hide... but it was a good twist anyways! and i want to read more of edgmon's work. their writing, while not always outstanding, definitely made me stop and think. there are some beautiful moments in it, and i want to explore it more.
🌅 "the rusted copper of sunset has fully drained away to the other side of the world, revealing the veiny underbelly of the desert night sky, mulberry purple and swollen with unshed blood. a million white stars cast the only light besides the flashlight in felix's hand, like an intricate web of cross-sectioned arteries keeping this place alive."
(bird x hugo are so nettles to me idc)
i can't quite decide how i feel about this one but i think the rating is hovering around a 3.7.
🏕 "perhaps time does not exist in the cavernous white-barked wood."
my favorite thing about this book is the vibe. it's a road-trip horror/thriller fantasy ya novel, which is kind of a wild combination, but it works really well. there's a creeping sense of eldritch dread interspersed with gorgeous descriptions of the american wilderness. southwest rock formations and brokenhearted deer boys. colorado skies and leaving and coming back different. arguments in the rv and little brothers with something to hide.
in said rv, we're suffocating under the tension, fear, and hatred that has been building for years between our pov characters.
⭐️ bird, golden child of the magical clan, north star to many, runaway and returnee and basically in a constant state of crisis. possibly hugo's soulmate. (also canonically went to a hozier concert)
🦌 hugo, violent antler-headed boy with a dark past, fiercely protective over his little brother felix, with constant fiery rage always bubbling under the surface of his mind.
🐍 cal, venomous thrift store sapphic who wishes everyone wasn't so damn obsessed with bird. or maybe it's just her.
❤️🩹 felix, hugo's little brother and a gentle soul in a world of rough edges, finds strength in his softness, has unprecedented faith in their little group and in the world.
🌑 eamon, shadowy new guy with no memories (or so he claims), may or may not hold the secret to the clan's founding.
the characters in this book aren't exactly likable. they were morally grey and lethal but they're still teenagers and they're by and large ruled by instability, by emotion. i didn't fault them for that - in fact i found it interesting. if anything, this book was paced rather quickly, and i would've preferred to dive deeper into the psyche of these characters and the layers of this world. the quick clip at which we got through the story made me get it felt like it was over just a bit too quickly, especially because so much of it was flashbacks. i just wanted more.
but the worst part about this book was far and away the occasional 4th wall breaks during the felix sections. the narrator felt like an anxious protrusion of the author's worry that the readers would not understand very obvious subtext. no, i don't want to be reassured that we'll find out the secrets "in time" and that you have "good reason" to keep it from me. i just want to enjoy the story!!! and yes, i know that the characters are horrible and violent, and no, i do not care that there's "no one to root for"!!! that is how these kinds of books work, h. e. edgmon!!!!
🦴 "eventually, he will have time to ask how he knows it is the aspens that stand white like great bleached bones instead of bark, they wear their bare skin, and that, like people, the outermost layers of their flesh are dead."
besides those complaints, this was a really unique and interesting take on a magical-kids kind of story. i liked that we delved into the consequences of being shunned by society and the trauma that this type of isolated upbringing results in. i liked dealing with a character that "ran away." i liked how each character subverted their tropes at least a little bit. i liked the complex portrayal of the brotherly relationship between hugo and felix. i would definitely recommend this book, especially if you're looking for fast-paced thriller/fantasy with queer mcs. but i just couldn't quite bring myself to love this book, and i really wish i could.
and i just want to say that i did guess the twist. it was pretty damn obvious if you were paying attention to what the 4th-wall-breaking narrator was so adamant about pretending to hide... but it was a good twist anyways! and i want to read more of edgmon's work. their writing, while not always outstanding, definitely made me stop and think. there are some beautiful moments in it, and i want to explore it more.
🌅 "the rusted copper of sunset has fully drained away to the other side of the world, revealing the veiny underbelly of the desert night sky, mulberry purple and swollen with unshed blood. a million white stars cast the only light besides the flashlight in felix's hand, like an intricate web of cross-sectioned arteries keeping this place alive."
May 25, 2025
A group of kids wake up in the morning and find their campsite empty of all adults. They aren't typical teens, they have traits both their personality and physically of animals. They woke up one day and were just, suddenly, part animal and part human with no memory of any time before. So these missing adults are a really big deal in their world - they provide money, guidance, and community. They decide to pack up their RV and head to the only place they know their adults might have gone - to another group in WA just like them.
But this group of kids are a mess with each other. The story tried to say that these kids had known each other for a while but they seemed to barely know each other. One of their party, Hugo, was nothing short of a bully and he said awful, horrible, hateful things to them the whole time.
I liked the idea of this story. The premise was interesting and the curiosity as to what was going on drove me until about the 50% mark, But by then, there had been multiple weird occurrences with not a single one of them even trying to figure out what was going on. They were just drama. They were just Hugo flying off the handle and being mean to everyone. It was so hard to read and so hard to keep going, knowing they had no defense against him and that he would just do it again and again, hurt them over and over. By 75%, there was still no progress and their arguing and hurting each other just wasn't fun anymore. I wish I'd liked this one more but I couldn't take how awful they were to each other with no real guidance of a plot or exploring the mystery until the last 10%.
A huge thank you to the author and publisher for providing an e-ARC via Netgalley. This does not affect my opinion regarding the book.
But this group of kids are a mess with each other. The story tried to say that these kids had known each other for a while but they seemed to barely know each other. One of their party, Hugo, was nothing short of a bully and he said awful, horrible, hateful things to them the whole time.
I liked the idea of this story. The premise was interesting and the curiosity as to what was going on drove me until about the 50% mark, But by then, there had been multiple weird occurrences with not a single one of them even trying to figure out what was going on. They were just drama. They were just Hugo flying off the handle and being mean to everyone. It was so hard to read and so hard to keep going, knowing they had no defense against him and that he would just do it again and again, hurt them over and over. By 75%, there was still no progress and their arguing and hurting each other just wasn't fun anymore. I wish I'd liked this one more but I couldn't take how awful they were to each other with no real guidance of a plot or exploring the mystery until the last 10%.
A huge thank you to the author and publisher for providing an e-ARC via Netgalley. This does not affect my opinion regarding the book.
February 21, 2025
i think this book was right up my alley with the queer rep and outcasts, characters of which i always favor in literally anything, and i truly did like all the characters, but it felt confusing sometimes with the many povs, although i understand that it’s crucial for the layout of the story.
it was different for me as someone trying to branch out into more fantasy books, and i honestly had a good time. i dont have much bad to say, maybe it felt a tiny bit dull at times but other than that i enjoyed it!
thank you netgalley and st. martin’s press for the arc in exchange for my honest review!!
it was different for me as someone trying to branch out into more fantasy books, and i honestly had a good time. i dont have much bad to say, maybe it felt a tiny bit dull at times but other than that i enjoyed it!
thank you netgalley and st. martin’s press for the arc in exchange for my honest review!!
September 8, 2025
I can't say that this book was for me. I thought it would be. Sounded like story along the lines of Sweettooth. It wasn't though. It started out promising but it didn't take long for it to wear on me. There was just too much teenage angst and a lot of confusing back and forth on timelines. I slogged along and around three quarters through, I just gave up. I didn't care anymore. I did like the descriptive writing. There were some very poetic parts in there that I reread a couple of times over, savoring it on my lips. Still couldn't save the book though.
June 10, 2025
Safety info, content warnings and tropes down below.
I’m not quite sure what to say about this one. I loved the whole premise, the characters were interesting and pretty distinct, the writing was solid, and I adored the narration. Yet, the actual execution of the story itself was lacking. I’m not sure I can explain exactly how or why. While I can see why the author set up the story like they did, the confusing effect of the timeline and mystery went beyond giving that exact effect, and instead it seemed to sort of lose its way. I was more confused than I was supposed to be, I think.
There was certainly lots to love, and the concept is really clever. It just didn’t quite pull it off. Sometimes I just felt dumb, so maybe it’s entirely a me-thing.
Felix was my favorite character. It was a lot of fun to get his POV plenty throughout. Surprisingly, the ending actually made me cry. I wasn’t expecting that.
Maybe eyeball reading this book would improve some of the confusion, but the narration was a big part of my enjoyment, so I’m not sure what’s ‘best’. I certainly recommend listening to the book narrated by the talented Vico Ortiz if you’re planning on reading this book.
Thank you to NetGalley and RBmedia for this audio ARC.
Blanket spoiler warning ⬇️
⚠️ Tropes & content tags ⚠️
Teenagers
Fantasy
Queer fiction
Nonbinary character?
Mystery
Themes of faith
Neurodivergent character
Non-hunam characters
Trans character
Everyone is crushing on everyone
Mystery
Thriller
⚠️ Content warning ⚠️
Graphic violence
Themes of religion
Accidental misgendering
Details of MC being kept hidden and abused as a child
Mild and brief sexual content
Underage drinking
MC deadnamed on page
Death of pet fish (on page)
Mention of suicidal ideation
Brief mention of cannibalism
Vague references to maybe-murder/suicide
⚠️Book safety ⚠️
Cheating: N/A
Other person drama: N/A
Breakup: N/A
POV: 3rd person, multi
Genre: Queer mystery thriller
Pairing: N/A
Strict roles or versatile: N/A
Main characters’ age: Varied, teenagers
Series: Standalone
Kindle Unlimited: No
Pages: 320
Happy ending: No, somewhat open
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I’m not quite sure what to say about this one. I loved the whole premise, the characters were interesting and pretty distinct, the writing was solid, and I adored the narration. Yet, the actual execution of the story itself was lacking. I’m not sure I can explain exactly how or why. While I can see why the author set up the story like they did, the confusing effect of the timeline and mystery went beyond giving that exact effect, and instead it seemed to sort of lose its way. I was more confused than I was supposed to be, I think.
There was certainly lots to love, and the concept is really clever. It just didn’t quite pull it off. Sometimes I just felt dumb, so maybe it’s entirely a me-thing.
Felix was my favorite character. It was a lot of fun to get his POV plenty throughout. Surprisingly, the ending actually made me cry. I wasn’t expecting that.
Maybe eyeball reading this book would improve some of the confusion, but the narration was a big part of my enjoyment, so I’m not sure what’s ‘best’. I certainly recommend listening to the book narrated by the talented Vico Ortiz if you’re planning on reading this book.
Thank you to NetGalley and RBmedia for this audio ARC.
Blanket spoiler warning ⬇️
⚠️ Tropes & content tags ⚠️
Teenagers
Fantasy
Queer fiction
Nonbinary character?
Mystery
Themes of faith
Neurodivergent character
Non-hunam characters
Trans character
Everyone is crushing on everyone
Mystery
Thriller
⚠️ Content warning ⚠️
Graphic violence
Themes of religion
Accidental misgendering
Details of MC being kept hidden and abused as a child
Mild and brief sexual content
Underage drinking
MC deadnamed on page
Death of pet fish (on page)
Mention of suicidal ideation
Brief mention of cannibalism
Vague references to maybe-murder/suicide
⚠️Book safety ⚠️
Cheating: N/A
Other person drama: N/A
Breakup: N/A
POV: 3rd person, multi
Genre: Queer mystery thriller
Pairing: N/A
Strict roles or versatile: N/A
Main characters’ age: Varied, teenagers
Series: Standalone
Kindle Unlimited: No
Pages: 320
Happy ending: No, somewhat open
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July 28, 2026
Nothing could have prepared me for that ending.
This is one of those books made better by not knowing anything going in so just know: it's quick, fast paced and a total trip. If you need to understand everything early on maybe skip this one, you will be left guessing until the very end.
This is one of those books made better by not knowing anything going in so just know: it's quick, fast paced and a total trip. If you need to understand everything early on maybe skip this one, you will be left guessing until the very end.
January 4, 2025
~~Thank you to NetGalley and St. Martin's Press for the ARC!~~
This one just . . . confused and bored me, to say the least.
The beginning was strong, with the adult disappearance set up and showcasing the group dynamics (i.e., everyone hating each other), but so much of the middle chunk is dedicated so much to poetic writing that made visualizing the scene very difficult for me. I can tell that there is something meaningful wrapped up in the pretty prose, themes regarding gender, sexuality, outcasts, humanity, etc., but nothing properly is given time to breath and explain. Plus, the rules of the Caravan and the society aren't fully explored and the whole issue just drops in on itself by the end.
I can be all for unlikable characters, especially when they're deeply traumatized like our leads here, but it just doesn't work for me here. It really doesn't help that the five separate POVs are being torn between the past and future in a little over 300 pages; so much is rushed through or not explained enough in order for me to clearly understand all these kids and their motivations. Besides the brief flashback snippets, we don't know anything about these characters other than they argue constantly, which makes them so stagnant and boring. The book keeps saying there's sexual tension / soul mate connection between Bird and Hugo, but I never thought that at all. Cal could have been more interesting if she was given the proper time, Eamon was barely there and felt borderline invisible, and Felix - the whole thing with him should have been properly developed more before the end; that's all I'll say.
There actually is something that elicited some passion in me, but all for the wrong reasons. In a couple chapters in Felix's POV, Edgmon, disguised as the narrator, straight up condescendingly explains the point of the story, and not so subtly foreshadows the ending, to the reader. I know people think YA readers are dumb and don't understand literary analysis, but I never would expect that attitude straight from a YA author. This really got on my nerves so much because I despise authors who look down on their reader base like that.
All in all, while it may be a well-intentioned book, the lack of story and character development really dragged it down. I'm probably gonna read whatever Edgmon outs out next, though.
This one just . . . confused and bored me, to say the least.
The beginning was strong, with the adult disappearance set up and showcasing the group dynamics (i.e., everyone hating each other), but so much of the middle chunk is dedicated so much to poetic writing that made visualizing the scene very difficult for me. I can tell that there is something meaningful wrapped up in the pretty prose, themes regarding gender, sexuality, outcasts, humanity, etc., but nothing properly is given time to breath and explain. Plus, the rules of the Caravan and the society aren't fully explored and the whole issue just drops in on itself by the end.
I can be all for unlikable characters, especially when they're deeply traumatized like our leads here, but it just doesn't work for me here. It really doesn't help that the five separate POVs are being torn between the past and future in a little over 300 pages; so much is rushed through or not explained enough in order for me to clearly understand all these kids and their motivations. Besides the brief flashback snippets, we don't know anything about these characters other than they argue constantly, which makes them so stagnant and boring. The book keeps saying there's sexual tension / soul mate connection between Bird and Hugo, but I never thought that at all. Cal could have been more interesting if she was given the proper time, Eamon was barely there and felt borderline invisible, and Felix - the whole thing with him should have been properly developed more before the end; that's all I'll say.
There actually is something that elicited some passion in me, but all for the wrong reasons. In a couple chapters in Felix's POV, Edgmon, disguised as the narrator, straight up condescendingly explains the point of the story, and not so subtly foreshadows the ending, to the reader. I know people think YA readers are dumb and don't understand literary analysis, but I never would expect that attitude straight from a YA author. This really got on my nerves so much because I despise authors who look down on their reader base like that.
All in all, while it may be a well-intentioned book, the lack of story and character development really dragged it down. I'm probably gonna read whatever Edgmon outs out next, though.
December 13, 2024
Queer rep, young adult, contemporary fantasy! A perfect mix! This novel leaves you reeling and wanting to see more!
Secrets, found family, and an interesting mystery! I loved seeing how this story unfolded and the characters all will steal your heart!
5⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Secrets, found family, and an interesting mystery! I loved seeing how this story unfolded and the characters all will steal your heart!
5⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
August 9, 2025
I have received this ARC from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
We Can Never Leave was wild, weird, and unique. In this, you will meet Cal, Eamon, Bird, Hugo, and Felix. They were either born into the Caravan lifestyle or found and brought in. You could leave on your own, or there might be other ways to go as well.
Now the Caravan definitely gives off cult vibes throughout the book. As to what kind of cult, well, that's where the mystery lies. Either way, one day these five kids wake up and find everyone has disappeared. Which is definitely weird and they freak out. Together, they are a hot mess and try to kill each other with words and such... many times.
There was also so much tension between them. Heck, at one point I stopped trying to figure out who was sexually attracted to whom. Mostly because it just seemed like everyone liked everyone in some kind of way. Other than that, I still had so many questions that needed to be answered. For example, where is everyone? Why aren't their cellphones working? Why are non-human things whispering to them? And what am I exactly missing here?
That last one was important because it felt like I wasn't getting the whole picture until the very end of the book. Which, yes, that twist was amazing and I'm annoyed with myself for not figuring it out before the big reveal. Sure, the drama between everyone in this travelling group was annoying. It was just constant and nothing seemed to get resolved.
In the end, one can only hope that certain people ran away from a certain person. That's it.
"Their denial is almost infectious. He knows they cannot see their world is drowning, because they don't want to. They believe everything is okay, and so it must be."
We Can Never Leave was wild, weird, and unique. In this, you will meet Cal, Eamon, Bird, Hugo, and Felix. They were either born into the Caravan lifestyle or found and brought in. You could leave on your own, or there might be other ways to go as well.
Now the Caravan definitely gives off cult vibes throughout the book. As to what kind of cult, well, that's where the mystery lies. Either way, one day these five kids wake up and find everyone has disappeared. Which is definitely weird and they freak out. Together, they are a hot mess and try to kill each other with words and such... many times.
There was also so much tension between them. Heck, at one point I stopped trying to figure out who was sexually attracted to whom. Mostly because it just seemed like everyone liked everyone in some kind of way. Other than that, I still had so many questions that needed to be answered. For example, where is everyone? Why aren't their cellphones working? Why are non-human things whispering to them? And what am I exactly missing here?
That last one was important because it felt like I wasn't getting the whole picture until the very end of the book. Which, yes, that twist was amazing and I'm annoyed with myself for not figuring it out before the big reveal. Sure, the drama between everyone in this travelling group was annoying. It was just constant and nothing seemed to get resolved.
In the end, one can only hope that certain people ran away from a certain person. That's it.
June 5, 2025
We Can Never Leave follows a group of teens who wake up to their whole camp missing and proceed to take a road trip where everyone hates each other but not really but maybe they do. There are some fantastical/paranormal aspects to the story that never felt well explained to me. The chapters jump around in time and sequence. I wanted a bit more solid ground to stand on as much of the book is vague. There were parts and sections that I liked and wanted more in that vein. The last about 20% was the part that kept my attention the most and I wish we could have had a bit more of the fallout and aftermath of the situation.
*Thank you to Wednesday Books and NetGalley for the eARC and Ariel for buddy reading with me :) All thoughts are my own*
*Thank you to Wednesday Books and NetGalley for the eARC and Ariel for buddy reading with me :) All thoughts are my own*
June 11, 2025
We Can Never Leave by H.E. Edgmon was confusing to me with the changing timelines and too many POVs. When the pieces started coming together, I started to enjoy it more but the fighting between characters soured my experience again. There were some choices that the narrator made, one specific character’s voice, that got on my nerves. ALC was provided by RB Media /Recorded Books via NetGalley. I received an audiobook listening copy for free and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
August 18, 2025
We Can Never Leave is a YA fantasy horror told from multiple limited third person POVs. There's magic and a hint of first love romance. The characters are interesting. Hugo was especially well done, and I looked forward to his chapters most. The LGBTQIA representation was mostly done well, though it was heavy-handed, and there's an entire chapter based on deciding which bathroom to use that I felt was really unnecessary. I wish Bird was more likeable, but their treatment of everyone in this book was cruel. They have so many damaged relationships that they don't even attempt to heal.
The narrative style of this novel is a bit experimental in that it chooses one character of the limited third person POVs to also feature an interjection from an omniscient narrator who deliberately and directly tells the reader that they are withholding information. This is problematic because it instantly reveals too much in the refusal to share details about that character's reliability. It is much more off-putting than simply leaving a detail out of the narrative, and I do not think it was effective as perhaps intended.
Further, the cult allegory was not cult coded, it was equally heavy-handed, practically screaming THIS IS A RELIGIOUS CULT all caps, no cap.
The situations in this story are dark. There's a weird form of cannibalism, lots of child abuse, and violence. I wouldn't recommend this to readers under maybe 15.
Overall, the I felt interested in the characters and their outcomes, but the narration style was often too obvious to the detriment of the storytelling.
Thanks to NetGalley and Wednesday Books for the ARC!
The narrative style of this novel is a bit experimental in that it chooses one character of the limited third person POVs to also feature an interjection from an omniscient narrator who deliberately and directly tells the reader that they are withholding information. This is problematic because it instantly reveals too much in the refusal to share details about that character's reliability. It is much more off-putting than simply leaving a detail out of the narrative, and I do not think it was effective as perhaps intended.
Further, the cult allegory was not cult coded, it was equally heavy-handed, practically screaming THIS IS A RELIGIOUS CULT all caps, no cap.
The situations in this story are dark. There's a weird form of cannibalism, lots of child abuse, and violence. I wouldn't recommend this to readers under maybe 15.
Overall, the I felt interested in the characters and their outcomes, but the narration style was often too obvious to the detriment of the storytelling.
Thanks to NetGalley and Wednesday Books for the ARC!
June 10, 2025
The Caravan. A place for monstrous, inhuman creatures to find a home with others just like them; a traveling found family. At least, until one morning when five teenagers with a complicated history wake up to find that everyone else in the Caravan has disappeared overnight. It's up to them to work together to try to solve the mystery of what happened, but the truth but be something none of them are ready to face.
This is a super complicated book for me to review, just like all of H.E. Edgmon's books have tended to be. I think it always comes down to a case of "this is a perfect book - for someone else" or "this book is amazing - for my students." The reality is that I didn't vibe with it at all, and found myself downright frustrated right by at times to the point that I probably would have DNF'ed it if I were reading it for myself. The perspective shifts so often that it was hard to get attached to any one character, and none of them are particularly likable - or have any revealing chapters that make them overly redeemable, sadly. But, I know a lot of my students who absolutely WILL dig this book, who will pick it up and devour it in a single sitting because it's just so quirky and dark. It has a wide diversity of characters that has always appealed to my classroom readers, and that is more meaningful than any opinion I might personally have as a reader.
(Vico Ortiz is perfect as a narrator and I would like to hear them narrate all of the things from now on please. Catching the edits between the audiobook and the ebook were also delightful!)
This is a super complicated book for me to review, just like all of H.E. Edgmon's books have tended to be. I think it always comes down to a case of "this is a perfect book - for someone else" or "this book is amazing - for my students." The reality is that I didn't vibe with it at all, and found myself downright frustrated right by at times to the point that I probably would have DNF'ed it if I were reading it for myself. The perspective shifts so often that it was hard to get attached to any one character, and none of them are particularly likable - or have any revealing chapters that make them overly redeemable, sadly. But, I know a lot of my students who absolutely WILL dig this book, who will pick it up and devour it in a single sitting because it's just so quirky and dark. It has a wide diversity of characters that has always appealed to my classroom readers, and that is more meaningful than any opinion I might personally have as a reader.
(Vico Ortiz is perfect as a narrator and I would like to hear them narrate all of the things from now on please. Catching the edits between the audiobook and the ebook were also delightful!)
June 22, 2025
CW: gaslighting, emotional abuse, child abuse, child death, animal death, kidnapping, panic attack, religious bigotry, abandonment, toxic relationship
My thanks to Netgalley for the eARC, which I received in exchange for an honest review. This has not impacted my final rating.
Five teens, abandoned. Their parents and guardians, vanished. To find the adults, the mysterious members of the Caravan, they must delve into themselves and their pasts to understand where they came from - and where they are going.
I have never been especially drawn to magical realism. I find it often features language that leans a bit further on the poetic spectrum than I prefer with situations that, when presented inconcretely, leave me floundering to follow the plot. Unfortunately, this book definitely features both of those aspects. I found the language beautiful, but ultimately a bit opaque. While the focus on the characters' past was interesting to me, the present situations felt insubstantial.
While I enjoyed the diversity of the characters' backstories, personalities, and sexualities, I didn't find any of them drawing me in. I never really found a "favorite" to root for.
I deeply respect Edgmon's motives in writing this book, to process religious trauma and to offer a life raft to those who might need one. Luckily, I am not one of those people. Unluckily, that meant I didn't feel much connection to the story or the format in which it was told.
We Can Never Leave is an inventive, explorative, dark character study that was not for me.
My thanks to Netgalley for the eARC, which I received in exchange for an honest review. This has not impacted my final rating.
Five teens, abandoned. Their parents and guardians, vanished. To find the adults, the mysterious members of the Caravan, they must delve into themselves and their pasts to understand where they came from - and where they are going.
I have never been especially drawn to magical realism. I find it often features language that leans a bit further on the poetic spectrum than I prefer with situations that, when presented inconcretely, leave me floundering to follow the plot. Unfortunately, this book definitely features both of those aspects. I found the language beautiful, but ultimately a bit opaque. While the focus on the characters' past was interesting to me, the present situations felt insubstantial.
While I enjoyed the diversity of the characters' backstories, personalities, and sexualities, I didn't find any of them drawing me in. I never really found a "favorite" to root for.
I deeply respect Edgmon's motives in writing this book, to process religious trauma and to offer a life raft to those who might need one. Luckily, I am not one of those people. Unluckily, that meant I didn't feel much connection to the story or the format in which it was told.
We Can Never Leave is an inventive, explorative, dark character study that was not for me.
June 5, 2025
I'm a fan of H.E. Edgmon's books, and have read their two prior YA duologies. This was definitely along the same veins of nebulous and vague with symbolism and characters with messy trauma to unpack. This book follows five teenagers as they've been caught up in a toxic cult-like "sanctuary" for nonhumans. The chapters bounce around quite a bit and I found it hard to follow at times, and while I think it was intentional to have more questions than answers throughout the book, I think I would have enjoyed more solid background and establishing of the characters. As the reader, we discover things as the characters do, and even then the discoveries bring up more questions. I think it goes out what it sets to do, which is an examination of teens experiencing religious trauma and not having the tools to process or understand what's going on, and the narrative reflects that. Overall, a quick read and the last few chapters did tie up into a fitting conclusion of this tale.
A huge thank you to the publisher for sending me an eARC in exchange for my honest thoughts as well as Colleen for buddy reading this with me!
A huge thank you to the publisher for sending me an eARC in exchange for my honest thoughts as well as Colleen for buddy reading this with me!
Did Not Finish
June 14, 2025DNF @ 25%
This one was kind of gross in a way that could have got me really invested if I'd liked the characters even a little bit- and I say that as someone who loves an unlikeable main character 9 times out of 10. There's maybe a possibility that the mystery would've become more interesting for me with more context, but the barrage of characters with their rapid POVs and overwhelming exposition really made it hard to feel anything but unmoored in this world. I like the concept of a magical look at something like a religious community, or the separation that comes from living on a reservation- two things I've definitely seen people say this book is drawing on- but it's just not playing out for me.
This one was kind of gross in a way that could have got me really invested if I'd liked the characters even a little bit- and I say that as someone who loves an unlikeable main character 9 times out of 10. There's maybe a possibility that the mystery would've become more interesting for me with more context, but the barrage of characters with their rapid POVs and overwhelming exposition really made it hard to feel anything but unmoored in this world. I like the concept of a magical look at something like a religious community, or the separation that comes from living on a reservation- two things I've definitely seen people say this book is drawing on- but it's just not playing out for me.
December 27, 2024
This book confused me to no end.
And, unsurprisingly, I loved it.
PLOT SUMMARY:
When five teenagers awaken from sleep to find their found-family–a caravan comprised of “freaks” of nature–missing, they take to the road in search of them. But, as time wears on, and these five teenagers butt-heads and find common ground, they begin to realize that the mystery surrounding the Caravan is far darker than they had anticipated…
PLOT REVIEW:
Sometimes, you find a book that is so deeply confusing and full of careful thought that you can’t help but shout “WHAT?!” through huge crocodile tears.
We Can Never Leave is that book for me.
It’s a touching story about gender, sexuality, and the complicated feeling of belonging. I loved these aspects of the book. Many novels are touching on these sorts of subjects, but H.E. Edgmon took such care in representing them that I felt truly grateful.
But.
This book is about a Caravan (cult, to be more clear) with buried secrets and mysterious ways. I would have loved to learn more about this society and how, exactly, they “find” their members. However, that aspect of the story was never really resolved or fully touched on. We see the gruesome acts of the members directed towards their children, but we are never told WHY this is happening.
What is their motivation? Why do they do what they do? Where are they getting all of their members?
I would have loved to learn more about these subjects.
While that may be the case, I still immensely enjoyed each plot point of our characters. They were nuanced and very intentional.
Bonus, the ending actually left me surprised! Something that rarely happens.
CHARACTERS:
It is a rare book that is able to create such unique characters with multiple defining qualities.
Even better, it takes a super special book to make me hate and love MCs equally and interchangeably.
The most interesting character in this book?
Eamon, for sure. He was the most fascinating to me. And his ending was quite shocking and left me reeling.
Bird was also a very intriguing person. They have a very deep story with nuances and difficulties that make them both relatable and understandable. Their struggles with gender and acceptance were also deeply touching and most likely helped young teens relate to them a lot more.
Felix and Hugo were my least favorite characters, but I still loved them all the same. I realize that makes no sense, but it was truly impossible for me to hate anyone in this book. They are each what they were raised to be. Can we blame any of them for their actions, no matter how horrible?
Even Cal, who was my favorite character out of the five, I hated and loved in intervals. She’s deeply complicated and snarky, with a heart of gold and hidden desires even she seems unaware of.
Even better, all of these characters are Queer in one way or another. We have such broad representation, and I love seeing that in books for teens. We need more books like this, and I hope that we start to get them.
OVERALL THOUGHTS:
Confusing, Queer, and so emotionally gripping that I want to scream and cry into the abyss that is life….
Huge thanks to NetGalley for allowing me to review this ARC!
And, unsurprisingly, I loved it.
PLOT SUMMARY:
When five teenagers awaken from sleep to find their found-family–a caravan comprised of “freaks” of nature–missing, they take to the road in search of them. But, as time wears on, and these five teenagers butt-heads and find common ground, they begin to realize that the mystery surrounding the Caravan is far darker than they had anticipated…
PLOT REVIEW:
Sometimes, you find a book that is so deeply confusing and full of careful thought that you can’t help but shout “WHAT?!” through huge crocodile tears.
We Can Never Leave is that book for me.
It’s a touching story about gender, sexuality, and the complicated feeling of belonging. I loved these aspects of the book. Many novels are touching on these sorts of subjects, but H.E. Edgmon took such care in representing them that I felt truly grateful.
But.
This book is about a Caravan (cult, to be more clear) with buried secrets and mysterious ways. I would have loved to learn more about this society and how, exactly, they “find” their members. However, that aspect of the story was never really resolved or fully touched on. We see the gruesome acts of the members directed towards their children, but we are never told WHY this is happening.
What is their motivation? Why do they do what they do? Where are they getting all of their members?
I would have loved to learn more about these subjects.
While that may be the case, I still immensely enjoyed each plot point of our characters. They were nuanced and very intentional.
Bonus, the ending actually left me surprised! Something that rarely happens.
CHARACTERS:
It is a rare book that is able to create such unique characters with multiple defining qualities.
Even better, it takes a super special book to make me hate and love MCs equally and interchangeably.
The most interesting character in this book?
Eamon, for sure. He was the most fascinating to me. And his ending was quite shocking and left me reeling.
Bird was also a very intriguing person. They have a very deep story with nuances and difficulties that make them both relatable and understandable. Their struggles with gender and acceptance were also deeply touching and most likely helped young teens relate to them a lot more.
Felix and Hugo were my least favorite characters, but I still loved them all the same. I realize that makes no sense, but it was truly impossible for me to hate anyone in this book. They are each what they were raised to be. Can we blame any of them for their actions, no matter how horrible?
Even Cal, who was my favorite character out of the five, I hated and loved in intervals. She’s deeply complicated and snarky, with a heart of gold and hidden desires even she seems unaware of.
Even better, all of these characters are Queer in one way or another. We have such broad representation, and I love seeing that in books for teens. We need more books like this, and I hope that we start to get them.
OVERALL THOUGHTS:
Confusing, Queer, and so emotionally gripping that I want to scream and cry into the abyss that is life….
Huge thanks to NetGalley for allowing me to review this ARC!
December 17, 2025
i spent half the book confused and the other half wanting to drive all the characters off of a cliff
August 16, 2025
Strange so very strange. I thought I might could get into it during some parts, but ultimately no. F…I g bizarre. I hate that it was kids killing and just so out of control. Just not my comfort zone reading anything like this and I enjoy some pretty vast span of books. I finished it though
July 21, 2025
What the hell was that ending? Will there be a sequel? OMG
I really loved this part fantasy, part mystery, part horror weird ass book.
I really loved this part fantasy, part mystery, part horror weird ass book.
September 27, 2025
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4.5 Stars
✩°｡💽 🎧✮- anything by adrianne lenker
We Can Never Leave by H.E. Edgmon is a haunting, lyrical novel following five teens navigating the ruins of their found family. From Edgmon's evocative writing to the raw emotion that characterized this story, it was evident to me that this book was phenomenal. Edgmon expertly weaves fantasy and supernatural elements to create a story that is unique and genre-defying. The book begins by introducing readers to the vividly rendered environment of the Caravan, a place for outcasts with animal features. Our protagonists, Bird, Eamon, Felix, Hugo, and Cal, wake up one morning to find that everyone else has disappeared. Forced to reconcile with each other's differences and confront their complicated relationships, the five set out on a road trip in search of their community.
This book dealt with religious trauma along with themes such as love, anger, and trauma in a metaphorical and mesmerizing way. We Can Never Leave is not a story about hurting people coming together to heal or find happiness. Instead, it's about hurting people who hurt each other, whose anger causes new wounds and digs deeper graves for fallen dreams. While I love a good story about healing, I was always searching for a YA novel that explored pain in the sense that, rather than time healing wounds, those wounds festered. Watching the characters confront or avoid their traumatic experiences, and the way it haunted them, was heartbreaking. But it also spoke a truth that deeply resonated with me: sometimes, rather than time healing wounds, we learn to carry them differently. There was no easy, happy resolution to the character's trauma, which exemplifies the often complex and complicated nature of trauma.
I adored how every character was complex, from Bird's desire to escape the Caravan, Felix's want to keep his found family together, Hugo's rage and heartache, Cal's struggle with isolation, and Eamon, as a new member of the Caravan, exploring his new relationships. Edgmon explores how trauma can come in many forms, whether it be an environment, an individual, or a community. There are several metaphorical motifs that make this book almost poetic, in the layers that one can uncover. From the atmospheric storytelling to the complex characters, this is definitely one of my favourite reads of the year!
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"The last thing Hugo sees before claws dig into his arms and drag him into consciousness is the light filtering through the trees, decorating his somnolent limbo in dappled specters. The first thing he sees on the other side are the wild eyes of ichor that he would know anywhere, in any shade of life or in death itself."
-Hugo
"Everything about Hugo is so intimately familiar that there is no world where they ever look at him and feel the ghost of a threat. Even wearing his new cloak of rage, he will never pose a danger to them."
-Bird
"The boy who had never known what it meant to be wanted without also being wrecked resigned himself to burn and burn and burn forever."
-Hugo
"This is a book about haunted houses, except the houses are bodies and the hauntings are the lies children tell and are told. This is a book about how dangerous it can be to dream when you grow up sleeping with something under your bed. This is not a book about an exorcism, because these houses cannot be saved by anything short of burning to the ground."
-Felix
"You're supposed to love me enough to let me go."
"You . . . you were supposed to love me enough to stay."
"I loved you enough that I would have forgiven you, if you had to."
-Hugo and Bird
"And so I can't look at you, and we can't talk about it, and there is no second chance, because I am fighting like hell not to let myself love you to the point of ruin."
-Hugo
4.5 Stars
✩°｡💽 🎧✮- anything by adrianne lenker
We Can Never Leave by H.E. Edgmon is a haunting, lyrical novel following five teens navigating the ruins of their found family. From Edgmon's evocative writing to the raw emotion that characterized this story, it was evident to me that this book was phenomenal. Edgmon expertly weaves fantasy and supernatural elements to create a story that is unique and genre-defying. The book begins by introducing readers to the vividly rendered environment of the Caravan, a place for outcasts with animal features. Our protagonists, Bird, Eamon, Felix, Hugo, and Cal, wake up one morning to find that everyone else has disappeared. Forced to reconcile with each other's differences and confront their complicated relationships, the five set out on a road trip in search of their community.
This book dealt with religious trauma along with themes such as love, anger, and trauma in a metaphorical and mesmerizing way. We Can Never Leave is not a story about hurting people coming together to heal or find happiness. Instead, it's about hurting people who hurt each other, whose anger causes new wounds and digs deeper graves for fallen dreams. While I love a good story about healing, I was always searching for a YA novel that explored pain in the sense that, rather than time healing wounds, those wounds festered. Watching the characters confront or avoid their traumatic experiences, and the way it haunted them, was heartbreaking. But it also spoke a truth that deeply resonated with me: sometimes, rather than time healing wounds, we learn to carry them differently. There was no easy, happy resolution to the character's trauma, which exemplifies the often complex and complicated nature of trauma.
I adored how every character was complex, from Bird's desire to escape the Caravan, Felix's want to keep his found family together, Hugo's rage and heartache, Cal's struggle with isolation, and Eamon, as a new member of the Caravan, exploring his new relationships. Edgmon explores how trauma can come in many forms, whether it be an environment, an individual, or a community. There are several metaphorical motifs that make this book almost poetic, in the layers that one can uncover. From the atmospheric storytelling to the complex characters, this is definitely one of my favourite reads of the year!
⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ quotes ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪
"The last thing Hugo sees before claws dig into his arms and drag him into consciousness is the light filtering through the trees, decorating his somnolent limbo in dappled specters. The first thing he sees on the other side are the wild eyes of ichor that he would know anywhere, in any shade of life or in death itself."
-Hugo
"Everything about Hugo is so intimately familiar that there is no world where they ever look at him and feel the ghost of a threat. Even wearing his new cloak of rage, he will never pose a danger to them."
-Bird
"The boy who had never known what it meant to be wanted without also being wrecked resigned himself to burn and burn and burn forever."
-Hugo
"This is a book about haunted houses, except the houses are bodies and the hauntings are the lies children tell and are told. This is a book about how dangerous it can be to dream when you grow up sleeping with something under your bed. This is not a book about an exorcism, because these houses cannot be saved by anything short of burning to the ground."
-Felix
"You're supposed to love me enough to let me go."
"You . . . you were supposed to love me enough to stay."
"I loved you enough that I would have forgiven you, if you had to."
-Hugo and Bird
"And so I can't look at you, and we can't talk about it, and there is no second chance, because I am fighting like hell not to let myself love you to the point of ruin."
-Hugo
January 26, 2025
If you like your fantasy to be mainly character driven as opposed to plot, you might love it. It does feature multiple POV + flashbacks, found family, and queer characters!
This one probably just wasn't for me. The majority of the book is written as the different POV arguing with each other, and each POV sorta blended with the last. They are all rather unlikeable, and honestly, I think they all hate each other as well. There was essentially no plot, just a long journey and lots of tension from the constant arguing. I wanted to love this one, but it's just not my preferred type of fantasy. I truly appreciate the opportunity to read and review!
This one probably just wasn't for me. The majority of the book is written as the different POV arguing with each other, and each POV sorta blended with the last. They are all rather unlikeable, and honestly, I think they all hate each other as well. There was essentially no plot, just a long journey and lots of tension from the constant arguing. I wanted to love this one, but it's just not my preferred type of fantasy. I truly appreciate the opportunity to read and review!
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