(Thank you to Netgalley for this arc in exchange for an honest review)
I was really looking forward for this book—a rivals to lovers dynamic within the space of a cooking class, an academic high achiever who has to learn that perhaps not everything revolves around school, and a fraught mother-daughter relationship that slowly heals via the power of grandmother's recipes. It had so many ingredients (pun intended) I loved, but unfortunately did not all come together in the end.
My main issue with the book revolved around Eliza, and her character arc unlearning her bias and judgement against non-AP/honors kids in her school. This bias bleeds into her relationship. with Wesley, to whom she directs insults (mainly internally, but sometimes externally) about his lack of academic achievement, seemingly justified by the narrative because he acted like an asshole to her. However, Wesley's one-time snide comment was honestly very tame, and nowhere near the level to justify Eliza's behavior toward him. There was such a lack of introspection regarding this issue on Eliza's part that was difficult to read from.
I do acknowledge that this character arc was completely intentional and we do see Eliza learn from her past behavior, but the overall arc and lesson she needed to go through felt very superficial, especially in comparison to other topics broached by the story. There was many passages that.I thought highlighted poignant, nuanced ideas regarding being a child of immigrants (the shame of the not knowing your heritage language, the difficulty in trying to practice when you feel so limited in expression, and the guilt of not feeling grief over the death of loved ones living in your heritage country). I liked the conflict we got with Eliza and her best friends; Eliza was once again a little insufferable in being unable to put herself in someone else's shoes, but I really liked the argument when it was pointed out how they began to talk past each other, which made it difficult to facilitate trust. It felt like a very natural portrayal of how childhood friends can realize they are growing apart. Finally, I liked the passages where we got to explore Eliza grappling with not really having a passion, not in the way that Wesley has cooking. She just pursues what she is good at, which is so common for academic high achievers. Essentially, the book introduced a lot of ideas (albeit to a smaller extent) that were interesting and nuanced, and thus it made the central character arc for Eliza, of her having to learn that perhaps non-honors kids are not dumb and may have talents elsewhere, very shallow in comparison. Academic elitism is certainly a worthwhile topic to tangle and interrogate, but I think it would have been more worthwhile to explore the more subtle ways it can manifest in circles and in your thoughts, even when you are actively trying not to be biased, instead of the more outright judgement that is portrayed in this story.
I think the author is very strong at writing the more expository, reflective sections in the novel, which is where the aforementioned ideas were brought up. However, sometimes the narrative and dialogue felt stilted, boggled by unnecessary details. To give credit where credit is due, though, there were definitely times where I laughed out loud or thought scenes with the Eliza and Wesley were cute.
Overall, this was a very promising story. I truly appreciated the message it was trying to convey, and I just wish it was able to follow through on my expectations :(