Harper's a better person than me because Caleb would have had to GOOOOOOO. No way in hell do I catch you in bed with your best friend that you've been in love with for years and there's an ending where we all stick around.
Nope. No amount of therapy or faith in you would result in that outcome.
Okay. Starting from the beginning.
Harper and Luca. Two jocks. Both so eager to find their person but held back by past trauma.
Harper - a history of failed relationships, being cheated on and being outright told he's just 'not a keeper.'
Luca - a history of unrequited love with his now married best friend, who won't love him, won't let him go and the resultant on/off depressive episodes from it fucking with him.
I adored these two from the jump. They communicated SO FUCKING WELL, even when things were scary. Nothing left to chance.
Let's be friends who have a good time together.
Let's not just be friends with benefits. Let's date. I want to date you.
Let's not just date. Let's be boyfriends. I want to be with you and only you.
So imagine my shock(and everlasting excitement) when shit hit the fan and they couldn't communicate for shit.
I loved how their own issues and past trauma worked collaboratively to land them in a mess so tangled they couldn't see their way out of it.
And they were so happy, too! Right before shit went south, they'd slowly opened up to each other until they both started to think, wait. Maybe he's the one?
Sexually things had always been great between them.
Out of bed, it was a hesitant, 'Oh my God, does he like me?' but inside it? Whew.
It was all, 'Come on my face, lick it off and then feed it to me.'
But they'd finally, fucking finally found their footing emotionally, too. I swear, I thought a proposal (and enthusiastic assent) was imminent.
And then Harper found Luca in bed with Caleb. Half naked. Dick poking out of his boxers. Cum stains on the sheets.
So, yeah.
What followed was the most confusingly enjoyable protracted fight. I loved their sweet fluffy falling in love stage, but I LOVEDDDDDD their angsty 'oh my God, how could you?' stage even more.
It helped that both sides were valid.
Without a singular doubt in my mind, I don't think Harper overreacted.
"I'm furious and hurt, and this is dredging up every failed relationship I've ever had."
And while I KNOW what it looked like, I truly, truly empathized with Luca's disbelief that Harper jumped to that conclusion.
It was a damning scene. On both sides. But what it ended up doing was show both that much as they'd been living with their heads in the clouds, they BOTH still had the issues they came into the relationship with.
They hadn't been secretly fixed by love. They still had to do the painful work. If they could find it in each other to forgive. Or heck, even to listen.
Just getting to that point took like a month. I'm a huge fan of the fact that this happened early enough in the book that they had time to actually work through things on a seemingly normal timeline, and not simply brush things under the rug because the book only had 15% left to go and they needed to get it together so they could have some happy times before it ended lol.
I loved the explosive anger, the betrayal, the walking out, the silent treatment, the tears, the fear, the desperation, the desolation.
I even loved Harper's friends trying to convince him that the cum stains could have been yogurt 😂😂🤣😂🤣🤣
I loved them falling apart on their own, and failing to stay away from each other, I loved them falling apart together.
I loved them having to face their demons. I wanted to cry for Harper and his disappointment. I wanted to cry for Luca and his.
I loved almost everything about this.
EXCEPT CALEB.
I wished he'd die. And no, I'm not even sorry for saying it. Still wish it. Will forever wish it.
Hell, I wish there's a cameo of him getting hit by a bus in one of the next books. Final destination type death.
In SPITE of his existence (and refusal to just stop being, in general) my two babies managed to fix things. Enough to decide that they wanted to be together and THEN keep doing the work to ensure they stayed together.
Again. Can't express how much I loved that their problems didn't just magically go away.
EXCEPT CALEB. I wish he'd gone away.
Still do. Praying on his death.
I was actually going to rate this 4*, on account of how there's a glaring ommission- Caleb's gruesome on-page death, but I figure, no.
I'm not letting him win.
Fuck Caleb.