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On Again, Awkward Again: A Novel

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The laugh-out-loud YA romance by two award-winning and bestselling authors, Erin Entrada Kelly and Kwame Mbalia, that’s perfect for fans of To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before or When Dimple Met Rishi

When Pacy Mercado and Cecil Holloway spot each other during the first week of freshman year, it’s love at first sight. Well, more like love at first fleeting, injury-riddled glance, since the moment is ruined thanks to clumsiness and a criminal case of IBS.

Despite their total lack of game, Pacy and Cecil are drawn to each other. Seven seconds of eye contact turns into days of yearning and stress as they make the mistake of following misguided advice from their friends, dysfunctional families, and strangers on the internet.

But the universe conspires to bring Pacy and Cecil together when they both end up on the WADS committee to plan the freshman dance (that’s Wakeville’s Awesome Décor Society, if you must know).

As they spend more time together, they realize that the other person might be just what they need . . . that is, if they can figure out how to be themselves and embrace the mishaps, mistakes, and hilariously awkward interactions that make up their imperfectly perfect love story.

273 pages, Kindle Edition

First published April 15, 2025

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1,339 reviews44 followers
May 16, 2025
✰ 3 stars ✰

“Everyone had their own person out there, that special someone who felt like an extension of their weird little soul.”


One of my most awkward moments of high school happened during freshman year - a lapse in my no- filter moments that still has me cringing; yes, here be my walk of shame - forever seared into my heart. 😣​ A couple of my classmates and I were in advanced maths, so we shared a class with the sophomores. One class, and oh God, I still remember it, one of the cute boys from tenth grade walked by my desk and said hi to me, and I said Hi back, and Oh, please stop talking - 'You look really clean today.'

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Can you hear the embarrassment????​ 🤣😭🤣

H​e gave kind of a nervous feeble chuckle, as I attempted ​in vain​ to explain that usually he has that baggy jeans/spiked hair persona going for him, and today he was wearing a button-down and was kind of sparkling - or maybe his shirt was that white and bright, so it made his face look even shinier - oh save me... As he walked away with his friend - who ​looked at me strangely during my word-fumble, I remember replaying what I said in my head, thinking, Amina, what were you thinking?​ 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

Just know I don't have any idea what we learned in geometry that day.​ 😶‍🌫️

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ So, yeah, I know all about awkward teen feelings. What Pacita and Cecil went through - two nerds bumbling and fumbling their way to get to the finish line of confessing or even professing the little butterflies fluttering in their hearts for each other - totally relatable.​ 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ But there is something endearing about seeing two naysayers find the chance to feel that 'wishy-washy, fluttery, heart-eyed emoji sensation to completely knock me off track' even if the the path to get there is so much more trouble than either feels worth it - until it is.​ 💟

​​ “I wanted him to kiss me and I also never wanted to see him again.”

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‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ I wasn't too much of a fan of Pacy - she was a bit too overbearing and bossy and judgmental. Don't even get me started on the fire alarm funny business, which fyi, should not have even resorted to snark in response.​ 🤨 But, I respect how authors try to show quirky and not-so perfect characters so that they can learn from experience to see the errors of their mindsets and be more open and receptive to others.​ 🫂

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ Cecil definitely was in a worse spot in how he's struggling with the possibility his parents might separate, so he's not really all that trusting of love atm. But, when your heart speeds up every time you see the girl of your dreams, who inspires you to be brave enough to try new things, then that must be worth the risk - even at​ the cost of his​ own life. 😥​ Okay, well maybe not his life, but it really did make me rethink the dangers of kissing - and lipstick!​ 💋

But life has its bite. The struggle was real, and so too was the charm of that first crush that may not hit on first sight, but "love at second sight... that's another story".

“There’s no one in the universe who makes me feel the way she does, and I want to feel that feeling, always.”

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ I would not go so far as to say that it was laugh out loud to see the fumbles and the awk-weird situations and emotions they were forced to face head-on, but it was very honest. It was actually heartbreaking to see how fate intervened in the most unimaginable of ways, making it impossible for them to even share one decent smooth interaction together.​ 🥺

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ As a kid, who would find it funny to be caught in compromising situations as the ones Pacy and Cecil had to endure, let alone second-hand embarrassment that was palpable through the pages. 🥲​ The ending is where the On Again, Awkward Again lost its points for me, in how their love story reached a breaking and boiling point till it eventually cooled down to a bucket of feels.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ The authors did a decent job in portraying their distinctive personalities with different familial diverse backgrounds, and a healthy dose of older-younger sibling dynamics that young kids would definitely relate to​ of that romantic propaganda that captures so many hapless souls' conflicting and contrary emotions. 👍🏻​ Whether it was a cringe-y kissing powerpoint or Tangerine Dream that you can never go wrong with, in their own way, they enriched their view on love and braved the way for them to take a shot at it, too.​ 🫶🏻🫶🏻

You never forget your first crush or the flutters, so getting to experience it again in a​ reflective and somewhat amusing way with Pacy and Cecil made it a nostalgic ​read for me.​ 💓
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179 reviews1 follower
December 22, 2024
I think I've read too many YA stories that I found this wasn't the more "traditional YA" story since this is the story of two 9th graders. There were many moments throughout that I was confused and thought I was reading a middle grade crush story just because of the way they were treating crushes, the way classes and the subject material is described, etc. I understand the wholesome concept of trying to create the most awkward story so it makes the story relatable but I felt like the authors took it TOO far in the sense that I felt the characters were merely characters more than people I envision or can relate to. Regardless, this story did have its good moments like the conversational dialogue that had its funny moments but not enough to want me to keep reading sadly.
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November 19, 2025
This is one of Book Riot’s Best Books of 2025:

Geek out with this younger YA book, which follows two high school freshmen learning how to navigate school, friendship, family drama, and falling in love for the very first time. Pacy and Cecil meet on their first day of school, but neither has it together enough to fess up to their feelings. Both are forced into helping plan the freshman dance, and no matter how much they try to deny what's going on, the sparks only get brighter. The dynamic writing duo behind this book has created two memorable characters who will have you weighing in on their ongoing battle: Star Wars or Star Trek?

- Kelly Jensen
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43 reviews
June 23, 2025
9th graders, Pacy and Cecil, are two kids just trying to figure it all out as they begin their high school experience. They’ve never met, nor are they remotely interested in meeting anyone new/even considering dating a person (blech!). That is… until it’s crush at first sight with a chance meeting in the nurse’s office. The two must navigate their personal flaws and insecurities, while determining how they feel about each other and what they’re willing to go through for a relationship.

Unfortunately, this book entirely missed the mark for me. It was clearly written by those born pre-1990 based on the gazillion pop-culture references used throughout the text. Star Wars vs Star Trek hasn’t been a thing I’ve actually heard debated since I was in elementary school, thus the idea of a YA understanding that in modern day (or considering Cole Sprouse attractive/knowing who he is??) is incredibly unbelievable. The whole thing is out of touch with the new generation and reads like a parent trying to be hip with the kids. Unfortunately Pacy was too unlikeable to even be redeemed by the ending really, and it felt like the story got rushed/thrown together in the end (also Cecil’s IBS was basically irrelevant the whole time considering his allergies were the real kicker, so what was the point?). I think there was a lot of potential that showed in the text and could imagine that maybe a couple kids in certain schools may appreciate the references, but (even though I am no longer in the age range) this one honestly just didn’t quite click with what I see as modern interests of the youth of 2025.

On a more positive note, I really appreciate the concept of romance-comedy sort of book for YA and can recognize that every student has their quirks/differences, which was clearly successfully displayed here. Two authors for dual perspectives is such a cool strategy and I could see this being a neat writing strategy to mess around with in the classroom even. There is just the inevitable struggle for a bit of disjointedness that can come from it.
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969 reviews168 followers
November 13, 2025
Welcome Back!

This past week, I have had a lot of work to complete at my desk or in my home office, just in terms of cleaning and doing some Notion updates. Just a lot of small things, so I decided to look through Libby and try to find something really interesting to listen to while doing these tasks. I landed on two different audiobooks that were both available now. I settled on trying out On Again, Awkward Again, and if I started it and did not enjoy it, I would DNF the book, but I ended up listening to the whole thing!

SPOILERS AHEAD

Pacy and Cecil are in high school; they meet during their first year, but it’s not like the smooth rom-com type of meeting. It’s more of a situation where they know they have found someone they can connect with, but they are struggling to actually form that connection. But the universe pushes them together by having them both on the same committee at school. With all this newfound time together and the awkwardness between them, can they actually become friends or even something more?

Overall, I did enjoy the story, and although it is on the shorter side (which I do not think is a bad thing at all), this story still felt slightly too long. I think Pacy and Cecil were great characters, and we really got to know them as people within the story, but I think this could have been slightly shorter. I think if it was the timeline of events, could have been slightly moved up, and it would have made the story feel a bit more cohesive and definitely would have made me feel more invested. Now I am onto my second pick!

Goodreads Rating: 3 Stars
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1,458 reviews25 followers
April 3, 2025
Thanks to @netgalley and @abramskids for the advance Kindle copy of this book. It’s out on 4.15.25! All opinions are my own.

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️/5. I loved this awkward teen romance. It’s absolutely spot on. Pacy and Cecil have a chance run-in at the nurse’s office, and they both feel a spark. Pacy doesn’t want to admit it, but Cecil is smitten. He’s just… very awkward. They end up on a committee together, and slowly grow into something with a ton of laughs and groans along the way. This is perfectly suited for readers in grades 6+. Completely clean.
65 reviews
June 11, 2025
Laugh-out-loud funny at the same time that this book covers serious and relatable topics - for any teen or former teen - with cultural relevancy. Whether it's Cecil narrating about his IBS openly, Pacy refusing to succumb to the "Borg" of high school students, both dealing with family tension or cringe-worthy cultural appropriation, the book is refreshingly honest at the same time that it's heartwarming. I listened to it on audio, and the narrators also brought special life to the story.
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8,384 reviews425 followers
May 15, 2025
This was a really cute interracial YA romance that had fab disability rep (anxiety and IBS), was good on audio and perfect for fans of books like Chronically Dolores, You started it or Time and time again. Many thanks to NetGalley and the publisher for an early digital copy in exchange for my honest review!
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93 reviews7 followers
May 23, 2025
@mbalia1 and @erinentrada are hilarious! This book had so many 🤣 mixed in with teenage puppy love! I was always ready to read what was gonna happen next. I also love how relatable it is! I incorporated a cool STEM/STEAM lesson that coincides with the a certain character included in the online workbook for students! But again, I loved all of the awkwardly musical love moments of this book and I will be recommending it to my students in the media center. #schoollibrarian #kwamembalia #erinentradakelly #youngadultfiction #love #onehitwonder #hiphop #teens #puppylove
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16 reviews
May 10, 2025
Very cute book! Reminded me of my crush in the 9th grade… if only it worked out 😔
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August 13, 2025
I was really excited about this one because I love Erin Entrada Kelly! Sadly, I felt that it read very much like middle grade and I found Pacy to lean towards "not like other girls." It still had its fun moments, and I'll certainly recommend it at my library. I think it'd be a great book for a pre-teen reader who wants to read romance but isn't quite ready for YA.
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1,047 reviews34 followers
April 21, 2025
When Pacy Mercado and Cecil Holloway lock eyes during the first week of freshman year, it’s almost magical—until it’s ruined by a spectacular fall, a rogue cafeteria tray, and an unfortunately timed bout of IBS. So… maybe not quite love at first sight. But close.

Despite zero flirting skills and a whole lot of cringe, something clicks. One awkward glance turns into weeks of pining, overthinking, and catastrophically bad advice from well-meaning friends, eccentric families, and the deepest corners of the internet.

Fate—or maybe just the school counselor—throws them together on the WADS committee (that’s Wakeville’s Awesome Décor Society, thank you very much), where glitter, glue guns, and awkward small talk reign supreme.

As they navigate dance planning disasters, viral mishaps, and a parade of uncomfortable feelings, Pacy and Cecil begin to realize that their messy, unfiltered selves might just be exactly what the other’s been looking for. If they can survive the chaos, this might just be the start of something imperfectly perfect.

I laughed out loud the entire time I read this book. This is a perfect upper MS/Lower YA for kids looking for a romance book. These characters were so relatable. First crush, nosy siblings, parents/grandparents butting in. Just trying to navigate the waters of romance is not easy for Pacy & Cecil! The awkwardness of each character comes through with the authors' words. I love that this was a tag team effort!
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388 reviews8 followers
March 16, 2025
There were a lot of fun ideas in this book, but for me personally, they didn't come together very well, in my opinion.

On one hand, it definitely makes sense that these are both insecure and awkward teenagers who aren't good communicators and don't have great coping skills yet. This is good and realistic for teenagers, and in general that's not what I'm complaining about. Cecil is a well-written and interesting character; he's clearly struggling with a lot of problems both physically and also emotionally.

Pacy, in my opinion, is different, unfortunately -- I'm sorry to say that I found her too unlikable. It made it hard to root for her even when she was doing the understandably-awkward messing-up that both characters do throughout the book. I think my problem with Pacy is that she never really... "learns how to be a better person." It feels like she just sort of learns how to be more confident in herself.... Which is a perfectly-good lesson, but the problem is, the whole rest of the book she's actually pretty judgmental and unkind and she doesn't really outgrow any of that by the end of the book. On page 217 her friend tells her that she's being judgmental and dismissive, and she basically says, "yep!" and they keep fighting and she never actually stops to think, "huh, maybe I shouldn't judge people by whether I think they're Borglike," but that doesn't really happen.

It also made me start rolling my eyes and thinking, 'ugh, you're fine,' during her unreliable-narrator "I WILL NEVER FALL IN LOVE NOT LIKE THE CONFORMISTS..... until I.... Just Meet The Right Man....." rants. It feels like a "I'm not like other girls! Other Girls like romance and I like 500,000,000,000 pop culture references" thing. I don't get the impression I was supposed to think any of that even while also understanding that Pacy was an unreliable narrator.

I also personally don't connect well to books that use endless and endless (and ENDLESS. AND ENDLESS.) amounts of pop culture references while expecting me to know what they all are and not providing much context or description in case I don't. On page 237, Pacy sits next to a picture of rapper Flavor Flav... and that's all that's said. He doesn't get any description at all, no details of his clothes or size or expression or anything. How am I supposed to know what Flavor Flav looks like if I didn't by coincidence happen to be born in 1990 and am old enough to have watched Flavor of Love back in 2006 or whatever?

Who is this book for, probably for a YA/teen audience, right? Therefore, not for people who were watching shows like that in 2006? Come on, don't make me do the work of imagining that stuff, the authors should write the descriptions and not leave out readers who don't know who Flavor Flav is. But they didn't.

So, yeah. This book has some cute and charming moments and there are times when the main couple's awkward chemistry really worked, but, IMO, most of the time, it didn't.
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3,988 reviews609 followers
January 5, 2025
E ARC provided by Edelweiss Plus

Pacy, who lives in a cozy apartment with her aunt and mother who work in an Asian market, is obsessed with Star Trek and is rather klutzy. Her friend Brigida despairs of her; she's forever doing things like telling her French teacher she should be able to pick "Jean-Luc" as a name because "gender is a spectrum" and bashing her lip on the water fountain. Cecil is worried about starting high school because he has frequent bouts of IBS and is given a hard time up his upcycled wardrobe, although he has his best friend Robbie who has his back. When Pacy and Cecil meet in the nurse's office, both teens are intrigued, but clueless as to how to talk to someone they have a crush on. Both end up on the decorating committee for the freshman formal, and do indeed hit it off. Pacy is concerned when her pretty and socially NOT awkward sister Gigi talks to Cecil, but when Pacy and Cecil end up in the principal's office after Pacy pulls the fire alarm (she really thought there was a fire!), the two have a good excuse to spend time together as they work to find a new venue for the dance. The course of true love never runs smooth, and these two have more challenges than most. Cecil has not one but two allergic reactions; after the first, Pacy calls his father, and ends up seeing his family's unusual bed and breakfast. Because this is a Young Adult book, the two have a misunderstanding that leads to them breaking up, but because they are so singularly suited to each other, it's not a spoiler to reveal that they do end the book together.
Strengths: I'm a huge fan of young adult books that can be read by middle school students without them learning a lot of health class information they might not already know, and this was one of those books. Pacy and Cecil are engaging, geeky characters who are fairly comfortable in their own skin until they start to doubt that someone can be attracted to them. That's an emotion that is not confined just to Geek Americans! This is a fun romp, silly at times, but blissfully free of Serious Issues. I imagine that it was great fun for Kelly and Mbalia to write together.
Weaknesses: Pacy and Cecil definitely seem more like 1990s teens than 2024 teens. The flavors of essential geekdom are constantly changing, and I haven't seen a student who cares about Star Trek in at least four years.
What I really think: This is a bit of a departure for both of these authors, and it was fun to see what they created together. Readers who want books about awkward high school romantic experiences, like Lubar's Let Sleeping Freshman Lie and Quatch's Not Here to Be Liked will enjoy this sweet geek fest.
140 reviews
February 6, 2025
I won a copy of this ARC as part of a book festival sweepstakes. It’s my first one and I was super excited. Thank you to the publishers. Now that that’s out of the way …

I have never had a title more accurately embody a book than this one. On again Awkward again was so very awkward lol in a good way. This is a middle grade YA and I still started chuckling in the first chapter and found that to be a pretty consistent response through out the entirety of the book. This is of course meant for a different age group so it took me a bit longer to get through than normal and I had to be intentional but I never regretted reading once I picked it up.

There were a few times it felt like the scenes were doing too much. The allergic reaction at the garden and all the snot descriptions was a lot. Then the lady pointing the carrots, I didn’t understand that one at all.

This book did make me question if I liked it so much because I saw myself lol. Past and present lol. However aren’t we all just “adult” teenagers pretending we know how to do life ?

Their budding romance kind of came on quickly considering how adamant both were about being anti romance. So that wasn’t as smooth as I would have liked. The relationship itself also escalated pretty quickly at the end however, I think a pretty good argument could be made that that’s exactly what it’s like in high school sometimes lol

I only was thrown off briefly by a couple of scenes. For example - trying to avoid spoilers so I’ll be vague- The note that was passed at the end on page 247 I believe. It said “he took the note I read”. For the life of me I couldn’t figure out when he had previously read a note. I must have missed something but that’s okay. Also is there a typo on pg. 124 or was that on purpose “bBnadryl”?
Last, I stalled in tripped over reading in my head every time b&b boy was mentioned. It was just really hard to say in my head. I didn’t care for it and felt that was over done (the entire b and b concept). However, it wasn’t a Major issue by any means.

Another review mentioned it read like teens from the 90s and I’d agree. Besides the b and b. Their personalities as well. However, I didn’t see that as a negative.

I told my husband about some of my favorite quotes and he was laughing as well and hadn’t read the book.

Overall , I’d recommend this book. It’s funny, a light read, and has several good messages in it. The main one being , be your normal weird self and it will all work out as long as you are a little intentional with what you want. Also, remember everyone else is just trying to do the same.
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830 reviews16 followers
April 22, 2025
Freshman year is starting off with a bang. Literally, as both Pacita “Pacy” Mercado (who busted her lip open while attempting to drink from a water fountain) and Cecil Holloway (who is having another IBS flareup) find themselves in the nurse’s office on the first week of school. Is it love at first sight? Maybe. But can a Star Trek fan actually fall in love with a Star Wars fan? You’ll have to read to find out. Told in alternating chapters, readers join Pacy and Cecil as they bumble through getting to know each other and accepting that they may actually be experiencing their first crush, even if they were adamant they were never going to date anyone, all while also attempting to plan the freshman school dance. What could possibly go wrong? Both authors nail the cringeworthy awkwardness of the early high school years, where wanting to be unique and also to fit in is an impossibly fine line to navigate. Both teens have overly helpful, well meaning relatives and friends giving them horrible relationship advice, which causes Pacy and Cecil to lose their way for a bit. But the overarching theme is about embracing your quirkiness and finding people who will accept you for who you are. Pacy is Filipino American, Cecil is Black. Both of their heritages play supporting character roles within the novel.

This is definitely a YA book with teen readers in mind! Adult readers may find that Pacy and Cecil overreact to every little roadblock and fumble in their plans, but their characters felt like authentic high school freshmen. It’s also legitimately funny; I laughed out loud multiple times while reading it. There’s a scene when Cecil is at Pacy’s apartment and an embarrassing video plays on his cellphone that is romantic comedy perfection. While modern teens may not get all of the late 90s/early 00s references, I can only hope that this book will lead a new generation to become fans of Pacey Witter and the time period’s hip hop music. Link to complete review: https://ysbookreviews.wordpress.com/2...
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1,585 reviews31 followers
April 18, 2025
10/10 would recommend.

Pacy and Cecil are adorable and both authors absolutely nailed the awkwardness of early high school. I legit laughed out loud while reading multiple times. This doesn't mean that tough topics aren't covered (absent parent, divorce, IBS, severe allergies), but the overarching theme is about embracing your own quirky self and finding people who accept you for who you are. And maybe that Star Trek and Star Wars fans CAN actually get along.

And honestly, this is what YA books should be like. Pacy and Cecil are freshman in high school. Both have never been kissed, they don't know how to flirt or ask someone out. They get flustered talking to their crush. Little inconveniences are life ending events. Both of them (and their friends) act like authentic young teenagers. Too much of YA publishing is filled with "YA" books featuring 18/19 year old protagonists that act like they're in their mid 20s, written for adult readers. We need more YA that's actually written FOR teens.

There are a lot of 90s/early 00s references which I adored, though I'm not sure how many teens reading this in 2025 will get. But if this encourages a whole new generation of teens to fall in love with Pacey Witter (IYKYK), I'm totally here for it.

ARC provided by Amulet Books in exchange for an honest review.
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May 26, 2025
5.25.25. 7/8. More juvenile. No cursing, sx, drugs. Super clean. Most awk book I've ever read. Rough dialogue. Better like Star Trek.

Present-Day NC town

Both Pacy and Cecil (hs freshman) want nothing to do with love. For Pacy, it represents giving in to a teenage romantic propaganda. Or as she puts it, assimilation into the Borg. Cecil, meanwhile, wants to focus on anything but love: his djembe drumming, his family's failing motel, his parents' faltering relationship. Who's got time for romance. But when, when Pacy is in the nurse for a busted, profusely bleeding lip, Cecil walks in. Sure, he's on an emergency trip to the bathroom because of an IBS flair-up, but still, it's love at first sight. Or so they think. Problem is, they're both so awkward, that they end up convincing themselves that the universe wants them apart. But that's hard to do when you're working together to plan the most romantic dance of the year: the freshman formal. Sure, the question is whether they'll get together, but the better question is, how awk can a book be? Very.

Most awk scene: Cecil in Pacy's room sees her notebook w/ his name in hearts. Boots up how to kiss video, drops phone, she and parents walk in, drops phone, loudly plays steps to kissing, and he grabs phone and runs out. awk.
1,219 reviews
February 21, 2025
A fun romance for early high school and middle school students.

9th graders Pacy and Cecil are not expecting any romance until they bump into each other in the nurse's office. Pacy is there with an injury due to her clumsiness and Cecil is there due to his IBS and it's love at first for them. Since neither of them has had any dating experience, they are both like a fish out of water trying to flirt, date, and kiss making things very awkward, and it escalates after they serve on the small freshman dance committee together. In addition, Cecil's parents are having marriage difficulties as they are working on trying to open a new hotel. Can these two awkward teens get it together?

There aren't many good romances for this age group, and this was cute and laugh-out-loud funny at times, and I hope these two can collaborate again for another rom-com! This book demonstrates you can have a condition like IBS and have humor instead of a depressing book that adults love and want students reading, but they don't to. This one will be an easy sell, so I better purchase several copies.
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3,027 reviews114 followers
November 24, 2024
A lower YA romance that proves this age needs more representation in publishing!
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Pacey Mercado and Cecil Holloway don’t believe or want romance in their life, but when they see each other for the first time in the nurse’s office, it’s love at first sight for them both. Now they have to learn how to navigate first love, romantic gestures, flirting and more when they’re both very awkward individuals. Taking advice from others, both Pacey and Cecil make mistake after mistake in trying to win one another’s affection while also serving on the school dance committee together.
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This was so adorable and unique! I can’t think of many lower YA romance books except for Kasie West’s titles, which are always checked out. We need more representation in this area, as well as more collaboration between Kwame & Erin because this was romcom gold! I laughed out loud many times. This novel releases April 15!

CW: divorce, bullying, mental health issues, medical content, allergic reaction
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26 reviews
December 18, 2025
Wow, this was genuinely one of the best books that I’ve read in a while. This book literally reassured why I love YA books. It’s clever, it’s emotional, it’s witty, and most importantly—it’s awkward. Kelly and Mbalia embody their characters perfectly when showcasing the awkward nature of teenage love. Pacy was unique and weird in her own way and Cecil brought that balance out of her with his own interesting personality. I’ve never been a fan of characters breaking the fourth wall, but this story did it in a way that made such a pet peeve of mine irrelevant. I think what this story did really well was leaning heavily onto that “awkward” aspect while making it work for their characters. It never felt overwhelming, just enough that you wonder if Pacy and Cecil would eventually get together. Overall, this story had me blushing far more times than I expected. One thing I can definitely say was that Pacy’s story was far more engaging to me than Cecil’s. What a ride this book was.
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December 28, 2025
This originally appeared at The Irresponsible Reader as part of a quick takes post to catch up. The point of these posts is to be pithy, not thorough (as I typically strive for).
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It delivers on the premise precisely. It’s sort of a variation on Rowell’s Elenor & Park, but done in a way that probably won’t get anyone annoyed by the depictions of the various ethnicities depicted.

Two geeky kids (in their own ways) who see beyond the geekiness to the great person (not ignoring it, but embracing it and the person exhibiting it). They’re drawn to each other, enjoy each other, and you can’t help but hope for a Happily Ever After (or at least a Happily-‘Til-Graduation).

The narration was great. I really loved the way they brought the characters to life.
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2,256 reviews44 followers
June 13, 2025
First crush and all the emotions and happenings that go along with it transcend in this book. I enjoyed it from a standpoint of enjoying both Cecil and Pacey (and loving how slightly nerdy they were) and watching their interest in each other unfold.

Another thing I enjoyed, which I wish we had seen more of (it was a plot line that felt dropped), was a depiction of IBS or Irritable Bowel Syndrome. I struggle with that myself so man could I RELATE to Cecil's traitorous stomach. It was a bummer that about midway through the book, we stopped hearing about his stomach. Because when I am stressed out it activates my IBS even more. LOL

Young teen readers will really enjoy this book and I'm excited to have something to recommend! (though a big deal is made about a first kiss.....so gauge the audience ;)
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862 reviews18 followers
June 29, 2025
If you’re looking for a quirky YA novel about freshman year at a Raleigh, NC high school that’s filled with memorable characters and is laugh out loud funny, this is it! Fifteen-year-old, Pacita Mercado is a lovable clutz and Startrek nerd who falls hard for Cecil Holloway, a Star Wars geek with impeccable fashion sense and serious designer skills. They are thrown together on a committee to plan a freshman dance and are totally unprepared for their first crush; so there’s plenty of awkward to go around, in a wholesome and totally believable way. Co-authors, Erin Estrada Kelly and Kwame Mbalia have collaborated to create completely original characters with extended families that jump off the page into your hearts. The hilarious dialogue and wacky plot twists kept me entertained, and I finished it in one day. Movie script to come, I hope?
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6,928 reviews69 followers
December 20, 2025
5 stars. Jennifer Aquino and James Fouhey excellent on audio, bringing Pacy and Cecil to life in all their adorable dorkiness. 2 oddball freshmen adorably meet, nice to bridge the gap between MG & YA.
Random thoughts:
Move before your bowel moves without you
Romantic propaganda
Extracurricular activities agenda
Love at first sight or second sight?
What happens when a Star Wars and a Star Trek nerd get together?
Adorkable
Looking for a new dance venue, speaking in Klingon and roaring in Wookie
Thinking to smooth their burgeoning romance they separately decide they should be less oddball and more normal for their first date. Bet we know how that goes when all wisdom says to be yourself.
To make a good thing, you may just need to embrace the imperfections
A big problem needs a big fix
Last 15 minutes of the book they started calling Bridgitta Brigida - strange?
Great ending
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236 reviews2 followers
March 7, 2025
This is such a CUTE book!!! I am not always a meet cute person, but throughout this book I smiled and giggled. I truly feel that no matter your age, you can relate to the awkwardness and cringey moments that come with a first crush. Also, I absolutely love the nerdiness of the main characters, Pacy and Cecil. As a lover of TNG, I appreciated all the Trek references, but there are plenty of nerdoms represented if that is not your thing.

As a HS English teacher, I can say that I think this book should be in every middle school and high school library. I have already passed this copy on to our school's media coordinator, and I will definitely have a copy in my classroom library.

Thank you to the publisher for the ARC. All opinions are entirely my own.
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8,537 reviews150 followers
May 19, 2025
It's so real and relatable. According to Pacita, love at first sight is romantic propaganda- at least that's what she tells the nurse when she's there to nurse a busted lip because she's accident-prone. That is until Cecil catches Pacita's eye when he's in the nurse's office with a flair up of his IBS.

But then they get to meet again, this time on a weird committee their freshman year. But they do have some of the beginnings of a relationship even when everyone else wants to tell them certain things about being in relationships while also Pacita and Cecil navigating their own families and friendships.

It's a romantic comedy set against the backdrop of freshman year. It's fun in an offbeat and regular kind of way.
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