Tropes: second chances, long distance, forced proximity, fake dating
Feels: 3/5
Steam*: 4/5
Kinks: no
Angst: low
HEA: yes
Pairing: MM
Triggers/potential icks/content themes: break ups, long distance, homophobic family on Cullen's side
Houston and Cullen played college football together. For 2 years, they were best friends. Then the next two years they were hookups turned boyfriends. But they weren't out and it was all sneaking around. And they both wanted professional football careers and thought they would be separated on different teams and there were issues about coming out. They didn't choose each other back then, they broke up, they cut off all contact. They both went on to play professionally. Houston's career was cut short with the knee injury. And now he's getting into coaching.
They meet up randomly in a airport lounge and have a bathroom hook up. It's just sex. They just walk away after and don't interact for many months. Cullen freaks out of it after their hook up and gets messy in a gay bar and gets outed. He's a PR nightmare now. He gets traded to Houston's old team in Denver, where Houston lives, same team Houston's brother plays on. So they are in each other's orbit. Cullen ends up staying at Houston's while he doesn't have a place yet and then an awkward photo makes them have to pretend to be boyfriends to save Cullen's reputation from getting any worse.
They fake date for many months while hooking up. But they've already planned an off-season break up, and it's looming over their heads and their careers are taking them to different states. Are they going to walk away this time like they did in college?
This book really frustrated and disappointed me. I've seen Riley get too generic before and this book was a bit generic. This book had a bunch of potential. Riley has written some great books I've enjoyed in the past. Neve writes compelling characters and fantastic smut, her extracurricular activities series is so yummy. But there wasn't enough feelings in this, the guys were too casual. They kept talking about their future break up and about it just being sex. And they really kept it that way, for a long time.
At the 75% mark, there had been occasional hints of feelings between them, but it honestly comes off a little bit like it's just their old friendship peeking through and sexual attraction. And honestly I need there to be more feelings for this to be compelling. They both seem like they could break up this fake dating thing and be okay with it at this point, no skin off their backs. And I want them to be wrecked for each other.
They showed moments of promise like Cullen's internal monologue mentioned that at various milestones in Houston's life/career, Cullen had knee jerk emotional reactions and freaked out creating some of his PR disasters. But Houston never found out about that, he didn't realize that Cullen suffered emotionally while they were apart, so it was wasted potential of an emotional moment and depth.
At 83%, Houston in his internal monologue comments on being in love with Cullen. But he's just saying it, he's not showing it in his actions or interactions with Cullen.
At 85%. There's finally a moment of non-sexual affection, where Houston after a bad game he was coaching skips his family and walks straight into Cullen's arms and hugs him. That was the first of very few moments of non-sexual affection in this book. But then two pages later it's "nobody dicks me down like you, I'm going to miss the sex when we do our breakup"
They were both still putting up very believable fronts that they weren't having big feelings for each other and would be okay with their breakup, and will just miss the sex at the 90% mark. They weren't choosing each other. And even when they did eventually choose each other, they chose to put other things first and do long distance for another year or so. And then, yeah one of them made a career sacrifice for the other so they could be in the same state. I know you could say, "hey it's realistic that they had a tough time and had to do long distance and didn't have it too conveniently wrapped up". But my problem is the lack of choosing each other and the whole lack of emotion other than sex between them throughout the book, so it was like they limped to their happily ever after and didn't put in a lot of effort into their relationship.
Some notable moments:
"My eyes shot open as a draft of cold air hit my back, and I twisted around to see a flash of Cullen’s naked skin a second before he yanked the shower door open and barreled inside. His open palm connected solidly with my chest, forcing me back against the cold tile wall, then slid up and gripped my neck, thumb stroking over my Adam’s apple. I could have resisted, could have shoved him away, but I didn’t. Didn’t want to, and as his lips crushed against mine, my heart beat a wild, matching tempo."
"I fucked around, played some video games, and then hung all the framed photographs of myself I’d gotten to give Houston a hard time. I’d turned his place into a Cullen Atwood shrine, and I couldn’t wait to see the look on his face when he got home."
"“You want to start a football camp with me?” “I do.” “I do, too.” “I think we just got married. Where’s my ring, motherfucker?”"
*FYI, I rate steam based on a combination of quality & quantity. I note kink separate from steam because I don't want to underrate steamy reads that don't have much kink."