A poignant, tenacious memoir by musician Greta Morgan about rediscovering her artistic voice after losing her ability to sing.
In 2019, Greta Morgan was on the rise. She had toured with Vampire Weekend, collaborated with Jenny Lewis, and garnered critical acclaim with her own musical projects. But in March 2020, after contracting COVID-19, she was diagnosed with spasmodic dysphonia, a neurological disorder with no known cure that left her unable to sing. Her once crystalline voice now reduced to a hush, she saw her career come to an abrupt standstill.
Beyond the physical ramifications, what does it mean to cultivate a true voice? Morgan’s loss launches her into a journey of grief and self-discovery, forcing her to broaden her artistic horizons and reconstruct her sense of self. Her narrative takes us on a whirlwind tour of music studios, band buses, and celebrity-filled backstage parties, but it also takes us to the red canyons of Utah and the spacious wilderness of the American southwest. In these vast landscapes, she finds unexpected community. In the silence, she learns how to listen to parts of herself she has neglected.
Questioning the purpose of creativity and what defines artistic passion, The Lost Voice is a raw and intimate portrait of grief, self-discovery, and the choice to keep living and creating.
The Lost Voice is my most anticipated release of the year. Greta Morgan’s voice was deeply influential in my high school years as I formed my first band — a group of four friends, of various musical experience, that wouldn’t go anywhere besides the front room of a two story house in the suburbs. Then, after more than a decade of playing The Hush Sound on repeat, it was as if Greta followed me into adulthood by joining one of my favorite bands, Vampire Weekend.
It’s strange to think about someone you’ve never met and how much their voice can affect your life. Greta’s soft whispers and bellowing roars never left my heart, despite the ebb and flow of what I might be listening to at the time.
Fast forward to the last few years. Finding out about Greta’s diagnosis and the uncertainty of it, to watch someone deal with loss from afar; it was a strange thing. These artists often seem larger than life, performing for audiences I could never imagine being in front of. But to see her stripped of that, robbed of her voice, it became a special thing to watch her journey of healing and rediscovery of self.
The Lost Voice is more than a memoir of a neurologist disease. It is a history of Greta Morgan’s musical career, love life, family, friendships, and how all of those different aspects of her life led to beautiful moments of miraculous healing and a reclamation of self.
This book will teach you something about yourself, if you let it. It will stare you straight in the face and force you to look at all the imperfections you wish you could bury. It will grab you by your chin, lift your gaze to meet it, and sing you a soft — sometimes shaky — refrain of healing and validation.
“How do you know the gift you are meant to offer the world? Whatever you secretly dream of doing and, simultaneously, are terrified of doing—that’s it.”
I received an eARC of The Lost Voice by Greta Morgan in exchange for an honest review. Here are my thoughts!
🎙️Greta Morgan was on top of the world in 2019 - a musician who was touring with Vampire Weekend and gaining critical acclaim with her own original work, but her life as she knew it came to a halt when, after contracting covid, she developed a neurological disorder known as spasmodic dysphonia. This essentially stole Greta’s voice, and with it, her life and sense of purpose. The Lost Voice is Greta’s memoir - a look at how her career began, moved forward, and was forced to change lanes unexpectedly. While much of it is Greta’s own personal journey, she also asks readers to question their understanding of what exactly art, passion, and creativity are.🎙️
Y’all I’ve put off this review for a couple months now, because two halves of myself are at war with one another. There’s the half of me that is constantly reading and regularly posting book reviews, and then there’s the part of me that has been a fan of Greta’s for practically half of my life and has written an entire 200k novel inspired by one of her songs. Both parts of me are valid, yet they are so at odds.
So, yeah. I’m torn on how to rate this book - let alone review it. Which means you’re getting two ratings and two reviews from me - choose what kind of reader you are to determine which review makes the most sense for you!
📖 Avid Reader & Nonfan Review 📖
The Lost Voice is a memoir that just didn’t quite work for me. While Greta’s overall story is an interesting and compelling one, this book just felt a bit muddled. Greta clearly has talent in short form writing - the poetry of her musical career being evidence of this - but the novel felt kind of long winded and repetitive.
I fear that in an effort to be honest and meaningful in this memoir we lost out on some of the beauty that should also be found in storytelling. It all felt a bit too rigid and formulaic, which felt so at odds with a life so rooted in art and music. All in all this was not a bad read, but not one I would go out of my way to recommend either so it gets a solid three stars.
🎵 Greta Morgan Fan Review 🎵
I have been a fan of Greta Morgan since the (relatively) early days of The Hush Sound, falling in love from the moment I heard Wine Red on a Warped Tour sample album. When all my friends were buying tickets to see P!ATD, I was sweating buckets in building without AC in the dead of summer so I could hear songs from Goodbye Blues live. When The Hush Sound broke up I continued to follow Greta’s career to her other musical projects. I literally walked down the aisle to one of her songs when I got married. And I, like so many others, was heartbroken by the news of her lost voice.
All of this is to say - when I saw that Greta would be releasing a memoir I knew that I would be reading it. The second I saw ARCs available to be requested I immediately threw my hat in the ring. I was lucky enough to get a copy of The Lost Voice and immediately dove in to Greta’s novel, ready to learn more about this artist who has meant so much to me.
I gained so much insight from this book. Deeper explanations of lyrics and band break ups, but also just so much of Greta’s personal life - the highs and the lows. Greta’s willingness to be so open with her readers was breathtaking and I’m in awe of the courage that must have taken. I also appreciated how this book not only taught me about Greta, but also encouraged me to consider how I treat my own talent and creativity.
Overall I really loved this one and am giving it five stars. And (somewhat selfishly) I can not WAIT to see what else Greta Morgan is going to create and do with her amazing talent.
“Echo. We all are connected A lighthouse a voyage For history's sake, Will you please take notice?” -Echo by The Hush Sound
Thank you so much to NetGalley and HarperCollins for the ARC of this memoir.
As a lover of The Hush Sound, I went into this book knowing that reading Greta Morgan’s words, like her earlier lyrics in that band, would leave me breathless. Her story did just that.
Greta shares her journey through becoming a musician, her experiences in the music industry, and redefining herself in a self-driven and spiritual way, all while dealing with the loss of her voice, through a rare medical condition.
This memoir is not just inspiring, but thought provoking. Greta is on a journey to heal not just her voice, but her emotional and mental well-being. She shares unique experiences that aren’t defined in traditional medicine but these things made her story much more personal and meaningful.
From her new-found connection to nature during the pandemic to the close female relationships she nurtures, you really gain a new perspective and appreciation for Greta Morgan and who she is.
I have been a Greta fan for many many years and I am glad she decided to share her memoir with us all. Greta’s creativity and poetic skills are showcased in this beautiful, hopeful and raw book. I am honestly sad to be done with it and will definitely be rereading and thinking about this book for a while.
It was fun to think back to all of her amazing projects and accomplishments and gain added context to what she was living through when I first listened to these songs.
It was really awesome as a reader to feel like you were on a journey with the author. It felt like we watched her learn and shift her perspective in real time. How amazing and brave and beautiful.
This book would be comforting and compelling to anyone, it discusses grief and loss in a really lovely way. Also, anyone (all of us) who lived through the pandemic and have suffered a global trauma can apply loss and change from their own lives to the realizations Greta makes and shares in this book.
I highly recommend everyone to read this book and go listen to some of Greta’s music because it is amazing! ☀️
Beautiful. Powerful. Moving. I've been a fan of the Author for nearly 2 decades, and am proud to have her book as inspiring to me as her music has been. This is a phenomenal read for any fan of The Hush Sound, Gold Motel, Springtime Carnivore, or Vampire Weekend, and is written in a way that is also welcoming to those who might not be as familiar with the songs or people being referenced. I found myself using elements from this book as journal prompts, and moments for a lot of self-reflection alongside Greta's journey. I laughed, I cried, I gasped at some shocking behind the scenes moments, but overall reading this has empowered me to reflect on my community, on my relationship with my family, and in savoring all of the elements that bring me joy every day.
Mixing witty storytelling with an enticing prose, The Lost Voice is a beautiful story of finding oneself after loss. The coherent timeline and thrilling anecdotes about the music industry makes this memoir a fast-paced and unforgettable read.
"I biked slowly, barely faster than walking, while looking up thousand of feet at the canyon walls, which blazed in hyper saturated colors of copper, blood, ochre, sandstone.
Most of my life had involved gazing down--at the phone, at the piano, at the audience. All that gazing down can convince a person that they're in command, the center of the universe. Gazing up felt like a necessary reminder of how comforting it is to be the small one, how riveting to dance with forces far greater than myself." -Greta Morgan
I was both excited and scared to read this book. The phrase "Never meet your heroes" is around for a reason, after all. However, I'm happy to report that after reading this memoir, I am an even bigger fan of Greta's music. I truly appreciate her honesty and candor.
When I first saw this book, I already loved the cover. It made me think of both a throat and a canyon. I figured it reminded me of a canyon because I'm a Utahn. Little did I know that Greta also has a love for Utah! (Now I love the cover even more. Kudos to the artist!) Greta's journey to find her authentic self in Zion was truly inspiring. I felt like I was there with her.
It's crazy but I, too, lost my voice during a production. It wasn't on stage with Vampire Weekend, but during a community ASL production of The Hunchback of Notre Dame. I also had to drop out of my church choir. I couldn't sing 'You Are the Moon' to my children. I couldn't belt out 'Medicine Man' in the car. I just listened to 'Brand New Kind of Blue' and cried.
My ENT couldn't figure it out, but provided good physical therapy. After a year, I finally figured it out--it turned out that not only was living in a mold-infested basement bad for me, but taking my ADHD and bipolar medications at night was causing acid reflux. (Because some idiots thought Strattera could be habit forming and covered the pill in a bittering agent.) I know Greta's situation was worse, but when her friend Daisy talked about having to destroy her illusions about her identity and "being in the magic" of self discovery, I could absolutely relate.
I have also lost many loved ones to suicide. (Heavens, I think there's been 5 now.)
I always love seeing how Christ walks with everyone through their journeys. I have no doubt He was with Greta as well.
❤️
P.S. I will never get over the fact that I was too broke to see The Hush Sound at the Depot in SLC in the early 00s. I hope that one day I can see Greta perform live as she is my favorite singer!
Probably my most anticipated read of the year. I’ve been a fan of Greta’s music for 20 years now. It’s moved with me and marked so many different chapters of my life; The Hush Sound from middle school through high school, Gold Motel from high school to college, and Springtime Carnivore as I became an adult.
So, let’s talk about this book. Who are you when you lose the very thing that defines your identity? Morgan (going back to formal for the review, haha) recounts her story as a successful musician, losing her voice due to a neurological condition in the wake of covid, and wading through grief to her path towards acceptance. There are some beautiful passages in the book, no surprise given how poetic her lyrics are. But what struck me most was how her journey of grief and self (re) discovery prompted me to reflect on my own life just as deeply.
I’ll leave it with a quote: “Most of my life had involved gazing down-at the phone, at the piano, at the audience. All that gazing down can convince a person that they're in command, the center of the universe. Gazing up felt like a necessary reminder of how comforting it is to be the small one, how riveting to dance with forces far greater than myself.”
As someone who lost their "voice" and the plot of their life, this was one of the most healing tomes I've read. Honestly, everything falling the f apart is one of the best things that could happen to us and so few books actually show that. This is not just a memoir or a story but an actual guide for how to live Right Now, even through this.
I was so moved by this book that I finished it in a few days. While this memoir officially covers the author’s journey from musical wunderkind to full-out star in Vampire Weekend, it is also an incredible story of grief and exploration that would be relatable to anyone. I can’t recommend this book enough.
So hard to hear about the pain Greta went through but so very thankful to know even more about one of my favorite artists. I hope everyone gives this book a chance as jt deserves to be read and shared. Thank you Greta, for your voice, your music, and this memoir.
I discovered Greta Morgan about 17 years ago when my best friend introduced me to her first band The Hush Sound. I was immediately taken in by her and the crew. I was 15 when I saw The Hush Sound the first time and I remember anxiously meeting Greta and the rest of the crew that night and just feeling like I'd had the best night of my entire life. Over the next few years, I followed Greta around as The Hush Sound wound down and then she started up Gold Motel, which allowed me the chance to know Greta a little more personally. Over the years Greta has always been so insanely generous with me, and her music has gotten me through some really difficult times, so of course when she announced her diagnosis on her Facebook page, I was beyond devastated for her and for the world who would not get to hear that voice I had fallen in love with so many years before. When she announced this book I immediately pre-ordered it, because no matter where life takes Greta next, I am a lifelong fan and will always support her in any way that I can. Greta writing a book that flows so easily and pulls you so deeply in is no surprise, because she is a brilliant song writer. She wrote this book like she writes songs, melodic, flows, enchanting and heartbreaking, vulnerable and raw. Greta has laid her heart out in these pages, and it is truly a treasured gift that she has shared something so deeply emotional with us her fans, but also for the world. Maybe you have never heard of her before, but you are suffering your own loss of identity. I worry constantly in this current climate that we live in that my identity could be taken from me because I work as a Public Servant and could lose my job because of politicians in DC playing with everyday people's lives-and I do not know who I would be without this job. Greta did actually go through the process of losing who she was and what she thought she was meant to do in life, and through these pages she details her grieving process and offers the things that she learned along the way, offering hope and guidance to her readers-that even when it feels like everything is falling apart and your entire trajectory in life has been knocked down, there is hope. Even when things feel so beyond unbelievable and you ask yourself why me, you later see why things had to happen the way they did. Doesn't make the grief any easier in the interim, but Greta shows that we can all rise above it and heal in our own ways. Thank you, Greta.
First I feel the need/desire to include a little of my background here: I started listening to the Hush Sound back in 2006. I saw that they were touring for Panic at the Disco and decided to check out their music. I saw them perform as headliners in December that year and even bought VIP tickets so I was able to meet them! I was completely starstruck as this was my first "celebrity" encounter. Over the next several years, I saw them again multiple times as both openers and headliners. After their breakup, I continued to follow Greta's solo ventures. In total, I've seen her perform, with the Hush Sound or her other musical forays, twenty times! Over the years, I met the band/Greta multiple times, even getting to be on the guest list for one show. I went from being an awestruck teenager meeting her idols to Greta literally recognizing me/knowing me by name whenever I'd see her. All that is to say this book felt quite personal to me. I'll be honest and say I was a little hesitant/worried to read it because of this. What if I didn't enjoy it or found it boring? That would make it awkward for me to review. Luckily that is far from the case. I greatly enjoyed reading a memoir that I felt personally connected to. It was like a walk down memory lane reading those early chapters. I obviously love Greta's writing when it comes to her lyrics and I think she is just a good writer in prose. Okay so maybe I am bit biased with rating this but I really did enjoy reading this. From the book signing. I'm glad to have been there then and now <3 Grade: A
I loved this memoir. And I read a lot of memoirs. Greta Morgan leads us down her path through the 2000s /2010s indie music scene, with cameos from some of my favorite bands and musicians, painting a picture of the music industry as well as overnight fame, and the ups and downs of dealing with demanding labels and conflicting personalities of bandmates. That is all entertaining and fascinating, but it was the grief of losing Greta’s voice that nearly overcame her and how she has found the strength, light and ultimately a new kind of voice that really struck me about this book. Having recently unexpectedly lost my father, I related to her loss of a piece of herself that makes her whole, and the need to find a way to find meaning and keep going. A true singer songwriter, the writing has a poetry to it that makes it a truly gorgeous read. Loved it. Doesn’t matter if you know Greta’s music or if you even listen to much music. This memoir feels soulfully universal.
I've been a fan of Greta's ever since I found The Hush Sound's MySpace page back in 2006 and I've followed her career through the years. I loved her work with Gold Motel, Katy Goodman, and her solo career under Springtime Carnivore.
The Lost Voice is a well-written memoir that shows a different side to Greta that is deeply personal. I enjoyed reading about how her life has influenced her music and learning the history behind so much of her work has made me appreciate her work even more.
I hope she continues in her healing journey and keeps writing beautiful lyrics and melodies. We're all rooting for you!
4.5 rounded up — 4 for the writing, 5 for what it meant to me to read it
First book since having my daughter that I read cover-to-cover. As a teen I was a HUGE fan of The Hush Sound, so naturally I couldn't put it down. The insights that I got into one of my favorite groups was invaluable, but even more, I loved getting to hear Greta's story and her growth after they broke up. (Also better insight as to why they broke up as well!)
Heartbreaking, but also hopeful, and I look forward to following along her path going forward 💕
I absolutely loved this book! I have known Greta and her family for a long time and am not surprised how well she was able to accept and appreciate her journey. It takes a very strong person to be able to pivot when times get rough. I was very interested in the medical research and treatments for her condition, but the mental health side is truly inspirational! Her writing is beautiful and I am hoping she gifts us with another book! Read it!
I loved this book! I read it and then listened to the audible version. It is beautifully written and the story of Greta’s experiences - both good and bad - is fascinating. She is such a talented musician and writer - I loved how she wove together her life as a singer and musician, her family life, her travels and, sadly, her health issues. I highly recommend this book!
I didn't really know who Greta Morgan was before reading this book. It is a beautiful story about her life in the music industry and her experience losing her voice. She eventually finds herself in multiple ways while moving about in nature and coming to terms with what her voice means and how to proceed with the illness that she has.
I did not expect this book to resonate with me the way it did. As someone who really isn’t that into music, I expected to be bored. But this book is about much more than singing.
Greta, thank you for continuing to share your voice with the world. This resonated with me so much more than I ever thought it would and I loved every bit of it.
A fantastic read that is at once very relatable but also transportative. It moves so seamlessly that you get lost (no pun intended) from page one to the other end!
Absolutely loved this book. Incredibly well written and paced. The prose is beautiful and took me on a sincere journey of discovering what it means in having to pivot away from how you defined and valued yourself into a new life that might even be deeper and more profound. As artists we're all trying to find and express the true versions of ourselves and this journey is often complicated and circuitous. Greta articulates her route in a way that is poetic and engaging. I especially enjoyed scenes of her living in the desert and the profound effect it had on her as I've recently grown to love the desert and understand its power, and also know how hard it can be to articulate. She does a wonderful job of this. Highly recommend this book.
Tender and heartfelt. Definitely a good read for anyone dealing with a major life change or just looking to find a bit more about that creative spark we all have within us.