I received an ARC of this book for free and chose to leave this review.
This book left me conflicted.
I like dystopian media and f f romances (including age gap), but this book hit super odd to me. It gave me vibes of The Hunger Games and The 100 (tv show, not book).
Mini synopsis: Parent-less Yara is caught stealing meds for her illegal additional sister, and other children who are not given access to healthcare. In this dystopian world, criminals of any sort are given a gruesome fate. After being physically tested, and branded, she loses all sense of autonomy and is selected to be a test subject under the magnetic and brilliant Ada Wilder. Yara must figure out who to trust in a world rife of manipulation, lies, and cameras everywhere.
In the trigger warnings the author mentions a morally grey romance. Morally grey is teacher/student, boss/employee,etc. I personally like those. This is so beyond that, and to a point that it sometimes made me uncomfortable. Did I like the relationship in certain tender moments, sure, but the circumstances also meant that I hated those moments too (if that was the author’s intention, then bravo, but just speaking from my own perspective here).
Not really spoilers, but not really not spoilers (just vague alluding…):
Notable to note, the author is British, so some of the vernacular was foreign to me as an American (and even at times read a bit stilted), which makes me think that my American perspective of this would differ from that of someone with more British sensibilities, but the power dynamics in the intended romance felt all sorts of wrong… even when there were moments of consent, it almost doesn’t even matter since one doesn’t even have bodily autonomy anymore to give it and the other holds all of the control. Also every thing that happened in this power dynamic just felt like something too far to overcome to come back around to potential lovers (which felt crazy to begin with). Tbh, I think I would have enjoyed this book more if it wasn’t a romance. The romance created a lot of uneasy tension for me (and not in the good angsty way).
Some of the plot points felt also a little too convenient in the way they happened/wrapped up. It also felt odd that the premise was for Yara to do sneaky stuff in a place where cameras are everywhere and more specifically trained on her. While in some scenarios she had a tactic for dealing with it, there was a lot that the cameras just happened to miss? And also wouldn’t the monitoring system freak out if one of her methods to evade was utilized?
More things I had questions about… there is use of signing… some used in secret and some used very very publicly. At first I thought it was a secret set of signing, but then other people knew it? But then how could it evade detection?
The world building was interesting and had lots of depth and detail , but I also felt that I wasn’t super grounded with the characters and the age gap wasn’t super clear to me, and without the picture on the cover, it was hard to visualize the protagonist.
I sound super critical, but there were things that I liked and I will probably still read the follow-up. I support sapphic romances and love the rep of women in STEM. Congrats to the author for completing their debut novel!