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Sandy
My entire life has been a lie, hiding my true identity to please parents who would never think I was worthy, regardless. Longing for something unattainable, I meet someone who not only accepts my secrets, but embraces them. The first time someone actually reciprocates my love, and he’s a sociopath. Of course, that would be my luck. Do I accept him as he accepts me? Can I commit to someone so toxic? Is he my only shot at the kind of future I’ve always wanted?
Breeze
The plan was simple. Fuck the man that was fucking my woman and let her “catch” us. No one plays me for a fool, they would both learn the error of their ways. How the hell was I supposed to know he was the one thing my chaotic heart needed to feel grounded? Never believing love was something meant for me, now that I knew what it felt like, I would stop at nothing to keep it. To keep him. Nothing.
My entire life has been a lie, hiding my true identity to please parents who would never think I was worthy, regardless. Longing for something unattainable, I meet someone who not only accepts my secrets, but embraces them. The first time someone actually reciprocates my love, and he’s a sociopath. Of course, that would be my luck. Do I accept him as he accepts me? Can I commit to someone so toxic? Is he my only shot at the kind of future I’ve always wanted?
Breeze
The plan was simple. Fuck the man that was fucking my woman and let her “catch” us. No one plays me for a fool, they would both learn the error of their ways. How the hell was I supposed to know he was the one thing my chaotic heart needed to feel grounded? Never believing love was something meant for me, now that I knew what it felt like, I would stop at nothing to keep it. To keep him. Nothing.
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445 pages, Kindle Edition
Published August 28, 2024
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December 22, 2024Similar authors for dirty MM romance for me are;
K Webster
Kate Rivenhall / Kate Riven
Josh Hunter
I’m only 56% in but I am feeling sorry for the crazy MMC-1 Breeze. Yes, he accidentally over dosed the other MMC-2 Sandy (yes I know how stupid that sounds lol), but still Breeze is going nuts over Sandy and all Sandy does and thinks is “me me me, woas me!”. Yes, Breeze has k!lled someone, but had Sandy not been rejecting him over a silly mistake, lol just kidding. If Sandy had just given Breeze a second chance then the OM wouldn’t have ended up de@d, is all I’m saying.
Breeze had a really bad childhood, while Sandy whines about having to hide his sexuality because his parents weren’t accepting. But from what the story has told us so far is that Sandy was still living that life. He lived in another state from his elderly parents who wouldn’t have known anyway! Also, Sandy in my opinion didn’t really try all that hard to get his family to accept him. Sandy is a coward.
While I try not to compare people’s sob stories, for the purpose of my issues with these characters I will. Breeze has unresolved PTSD from the murder of his parent that he witnessed as a child, and seems to have been left alone to deal with it all on his own ever since. Alongside a healthy dose of abandonment issues. He has now fixated on Sandy after two weeks of “friendship”, and is going out of his mind trying to keep him. While Sandy is now playing mind games to make his ego feel better about himself. To boost his own confidence.
I hate mind games. Do you think it’s okay to play mind games with someone who is clearly incapable of normal interactions? It’s like playing mind games with someone you know is mentally disabled. Would you feel sympathy or respect for someone who does that? NO! So Sandy who had some valid reasons at one point in this story, has now lost ALL credibility with me. If you are truly afraid of someone you don’t provoke them! YOU DON’T POKE A BEAR!! You don’t keep having sex with them! And that is what Sandy is doing now. Granted it’s the authors way of the character doing mental gymnastics to accept his relationship with a crazy person, but I don’t care. There had to have been a better way to get this couple together. Like in “Crazy Bitch” by this author, it was all about care, consistency, commitment, and pleasure that won over the MMC to his abductor/r@pist/FMC. More of that would have been better than this mental trap.
71% UPDATE
I’m over Sandy. He is beyond annoying. Whiny, insecure, selfish, self centered, still a coward. Honestly this book has been more about him coming out of the closet then it has been about this couple finding their way to be together after betrayal and extreme toxicity. I seriously wish the murderously crazy MMC-1 Breeze would get someone else to fixate on. This whole book is so one sided in Sandy’s favor and he is not worth this much attention at all. Ugh.
75% UPDATE
Chapter 39 is so unnecessary. Why is Breeze k!lling such random ass people!?! Ugh.
I’m DNF’ing for now. I’ve lost interest in this couple. I was really rooting for them but the book started as a betrayal revenge bi-awakening story and has devolved into a coming out of the closet, gratuitous murders, erotica. I feel like it lost the plot like twenty chapters ago. The constant flip flopping of Sandy, will he won’t he break up with the crazy murderer Breeze, got old at 45%. And here we are at 75% still not having progressed at all. Sandy keeps bonding with everyone he meets and claims to “never have had a friend like this before”, just like he did with Breeze in the beginning but he only wants to have sex with Breeze. The same guy Sandy is so desperate to get away from. Besides that, their only encounters are always sexual after the first betrayal at the beginning of the book. So too much time is wasted on Sandy figuring out his in or out of the closet status and next to none on this couple getting together. Breeze is having a one sided relationship with his blowup doll Sandy and that is not enough for me to continue this pointless story right now. 12-21-2024
K Webster
Kate Rivenhall / Kate Riven
Josh Hunter
I’m only 56% in but I am feeling sorry for the crazy MMC-1 Breeze. Yes, he accidentally over dosed the other MMC-2 Sandy (yes I know how stupid that sounds lol), but still Breeze is going nuts over Sandy and all Sandy does and thinks is “me me me, woas me!”. Yes, Breeze has k!lled someone, but had Sandy not been rejecting him over a silly mistake, lol just kidding. If Sandy had just given Breeze a second chance then the OM wouldn’t have ended up de@d, is all I’m saying.
Breeze had a really bad childhood, while Sandy whines about having to hide his sexuality because his parents weren’t accepting. But from what the story has told us so far is that Sandy was still living that life. He lived in another state from his elderly parents who wouldn’t have known anyway! Also, Sandy in my opinion didn’t really try all that hard to get his family to accept him. Sandy is a coward.
While I try not to compare people’s sob stories, for the purpose of my issues with these characters I will. Breeze has unresolved PTSD from the murder of his parent that he witnessed as a child, and seems to have been left alone to deal with it all on his own ever since. Alongside a healthy dose of abandonment issues. He has now fixated on Sandy after two weeks of “friendship”, and is going out of his mind trying to keep him. While Sandy is now playing mind games to make his ego feel better about himself. To boost his own confidence.
I hate mind games. Do you think it’s okay to play mind games with someone who is clearly incapable of normal interactions? It’s like playing mind games with someone you know is mentally disabled. Would you feel sympathy or respect for someone who does that? NO! So Sandy who had some valid reasons at one point in this story, has now lost ALL credibility with me. If you are truly afraid of someone you don’t provoke them! YOU DON’T POKE A BEAR!! You don’t keep having sex with them! And that is what Sandy is doing now. Granted it’s the authors way of the character doing mental gymnastics to accept his relationship with a crazy person, but I don’t care. There had to have been a better way to get this couple together. Like in “Crazy Bitch” by this author, it was all about care, consistency, commitment, and pleasure that won over the MMC to his abductor/r@pist/FMC. More of that would have been better than this mental trap.
71% UPDATE
I’m over Sandy. He is beyond annoying. Whiny, insecure, selfish, self centered, still a coward. Honestly this book has been more about him coming out of the closet then it has been about this couple finding their way to be together after betrayal and extreme toxicity. I seriously wish the murderously crazy MMC-1 Breeze would get someone else to fixate on. This whole book is so one sided in Sandy’s favor and he is not worth this much attention at all. Ugh.
75% UPDATE
Chapter 39 is so unnecessary. Why is Breeze k!lling such random ass people!?! Ugh.
I’m DNF’ing for now. I’ve lost interest in this couple. I was really rooting for them but the book started as a betrayal revenge bi-awakening story and has devolved into a coming out of the closet, gratuitous murders, erotica. I feel like it lost the plot like twenty chapters ago. The constant flip flopping of Sandy, will he won’t he break up with the crazy murderer Breeze, got old at 45%. And here we are at 75% still not having progressed at all. Sandy keeps bonding with everyone he meets and claims to “never have had a friend like this before”, just like he did with Breeze in the beginning but he only wants to have sex with Breeze. The same guy Sandy is so desperate to get away from. Besides that, their only encounters are always sexual after the first betrayal at the beginning of the book. So too much time is wasted on Sandy figuring out his in or out of the closet status and next to none on this couple getting together. Breeze is having a one sided relationship with his blowup doll Sandy and that is not enough for me to continue this pointless story right now. 12-21-2024
May 1, 2025
Yeah alright. I thought I would leave a review since I actually finished the book. Which surprisingly is the only good thing I can say about this novel. Despite it's length, it was easy reading, flew through it.
Onto the bad, where I will try to be as concise as possible. You know that saying about throwing spaghetti at the wall to see what sticks. Well that is this book in a nutshell, except the spaghetti is only half cooked.
My main issue is that the MCs seem to fall in love off page in the beginning chapters of the book. Unfortunately this made the rest of the book feel rather bizarre. These characters are continuously saying "I love you" but it's just so unbelievable. I really think if the author replaced the word "love" with "need" this book would have made more sense.
I think the author wants you to see Sandy as the "normal" one, however i think he's just as crazy as Breeze. This book really suffered with highly repetitive inner monologue from Sandy. He constantly cycles through the reasons he shouldnt be with Breeze but arrives at the same conclusion - he loves him and will continue to do nothing about it. It's really frustrating to spend so much time in an apathetic and cowardice POV.
You could have removed the middle 70% if this book and I wouldnt have noticed. The only development that occurs is that Sandy starts wearing corsets.
Now onto the stuff that feels kinda problematic - sex scenes. There is not a SINGLE use of lube throughout this book. There is a throwaway line in the beginning about Sandy being "trained" to have anal sex without lube. So for every encounter following they just raw dog it, no condom, no prep. For a book that is so gratuitous, the Author really avoided describing anal sex, to the point where it started to feel less like a kinky choice and more like actual homophobia. Breeze refers to Sandy's asshole as a "pussy", he penetates him without any foreplay or lube. Honestly I was thinking to myself "is Sandy intersex? Does he have a vagina? Because that would make more sense than whatever the fuck I'm reading".
Additionally there are a lot of inconsistencies that were hard to ignore. for e.g Tabitha - an important side character - talks about how the reason she cheated on breeze was that she grew up with 5 brothers and needs attention. A bit later Sandy is woeing about how he needs men to like him, and Tabitha says she "can't relate"??? The author took the one thing that gave Tabitha some personality and flip-flopped on it.
So yeah, terrible book.
Onto the bad, where I will try to be as concise as possible. You know that saying about throwing spaghetti at the wall to see what sticks. Well that is this book in a nutshell, except the spaghetti is only half cooked.
My main issue is that the MCs seem to fall in love off page in the beginning chapters of the book. Unfortunately this made the rest of the book feel rather bizarre. These characters are continuously saying "I love you" but it's just so unbelievable. I really think if the author replaced the word "love" with "need" this book would have made more sense.
I think the author wants you to see Sandy as the "normal" one, however i think he's just as crazy as Breeze. This book really suffered with highly repetitive inner monologue from Sandy. He constantly cycles through the reasons he shouldnt be with Breeze but arrives at the same conclusion - he loves him and will continue to do nothing about it. It's really frustrating to spend so much time in an apathetic and cowardice POV.
You could have removed the middle 70% if this book and I wouldnt have noticed. The only development that occurs is that Sandy starts wearing corsets.
Now onto the stuff that feels kinda problematic - sex scenes. There is not a SINGLE use of lube throughout this book. There is a throwaway line in the beginning about Sandy being "trained" to have anal sex without lube. So for every encounter following they just raw dog it, no condom, no prep. For a book that is so gratuitous, the Author really avoided describing anal sex, to the point where it started to feel less like a kinky choice and more like actual homophobia. Breeze refers to Sandy's asshole as a "pussy", he penetates him without any foreplay or lube. Honestly I was thinking to myself "is Sandy intersex? Does he have a vagina? Because that would make more sense than whatever the fuck I'm reading".
Additionally there are a lot of inconsistencies that were hard to ignore. for e.g Tabitha - an important side character - talks about how the reason she cheated on breeze was that she grew up with 5 brothers and needs attention. A bit later Sandy is woeing about how he needs men to like him, and Tabitha says she "can't relate"??? The author took the one thing that gave Tabitha some personality and flip-flopped on it.
So yeah, terrible book.
August 25, 2026
Originally reviewed on StoryGraph: 2.5 ⭐️ rounded down
I genuinely cannot remember why this book was on my TBR, but I had a trial of KU and decided to give it a shot. I probably should have just remained curious. I actually liked the premise of it and haven’t read an MM book before where one MMC sleeps with the other MMC for revenge for a cheating girlfriend and I think there was potential for this to be good.
Right from the beginning, I couldn’t really understand Breeze’s motivations. Yes, obviously he wanted to stick it to Tabitha by having sex with the guy she was having an affair with, but sleeping with a man for the first time felt a little weird and didn’t make sense with his character. Then after the fact when he figures out he actually wants to be with Sandy, he just immediately goes balls to the wall 100% in with him. I definitely don't think that every queer character needs to have a whole coming out or a complex about being gay, but it just didn't fit with Breeze's personality.
I don't like dub-con and while this was under the umbrella, it didn't totally ruin the book for me. Don't get me wrong, I didn't love it and I don't excuse it, but I believe Sandy would have had sex with Breeze without the drugs. I definitely understand where Sandy was coming from and felt like he was in the right for not forgiving or being with Breeze immediately.
I didn't really buy into the instalove. Breeze and Sandy had a friendship, have sex one time where Breeze almost kills Sandy, they end it, but yet Sandy is totally in love with Breeze to the point he can't get over him. I'm not a fan of the trope, but especially with this book, they weren't even really together, so it felt like the author just wanted them to be in love without putting any effort into showing them falling in love or making it believable. It might have helped if we'd gotten to see more of the friendship and them growing closer.
I did like the forced proximity of them living and working on a project together. It made for some moments where they had to interact even though Sandy was trying to ignore and move on from Breeze. It made sense with the plot and wasn't just thrown in to make the trope fit. I also liked Sandy's journey of being comfortable with who he is and dressing in a way that feels authentic to him.
The book did feel a bit long and repetitive with Sandy constantly thinking about how he wanted to be with Breeze and feeling like he was the only one for him, but also being unwilling to forgive Breeze for what he did. I understood where he was coming from, but it was too much back and forth. I just don't like an indecisive character that keeps waffling.
Then even when they're together and engaged, Sandy keeps one foot out of the relationship the whole time. I know he didn't technically accept the proposal and didn't feel safe breaking up with him, but it just made the book drag. The book was long anyway, but it made it feel much longer. How can I get invested in the relationship if one of the characters doesn't even want to be in it?
I don't mind an over-the-top possessive MMC that murders people for touching their man, but it has to be done right. In this book, it was just kind of goofy. I understand Breeze killing Chris because he was actively trying to get with Sandy and was a little pushy with trying to get Sandy to sleep with him and move on from Breeze. But murdering a man for buying Sandy a drink was just dumb and made me not take the book seriously. Then having Sandy beat up a guy for hitting on Breeze just to show that they're both crazy jealous and Sandy understands why Breeze did what he did was so unnecessary. It didn't make sense for the character and I feel like the author just threw it in to put the MMCs on equal footing since neither of them can control their jealousy.
But what really annoyed me is that not only was Breeze never caught for the murders, Sandy never found out. It just felt unfinished and that the author forgot to bring it back up. I can get over the fact that Sandy didn’t figure it out and Breeze didn't tell him if it was mentioned in the book and felt intentional. If Breeze even thought about how he was scared Sandy would ever find out or promised to himself to be better and stop killing people to keep Sandy, I could have accepted that because then it would have at least felt like a complete plotline.
I didn't buy the relationship in the end for a single second. It 100% felt like Sandy only got back together with Breeze to keep him from attacking other people or killing himself. I got the impression that Sandy felt trapped and settled because he felt like he couldn't do better even though he just came out.
I didn't love the writing as a whole. Some of the phrases were just weird and they were repeated so many times. The author kept using the phrase "his eyelids thinned". Just say their eyes narrowed. I kept picturing the character's eyelids going transparent. I know this is a personal thing, but I just don't like when there's an over abundance of exclamation marks in a character's inner monologue. It just makes me cringe. I can deal with a few, but when it's constant, it gets on my nerves and it's all I can see. It seemed like characters were coughing in every scene as well. I don't know if it was to break up dialogue, but I was like, are all these people sick or something? I didn't like getting Tabitha's POV, especially at 90%. It was just unnecessary and didn't add enough to the book to justify it being thrown in so late.
I think some of the components were there for this to be a really good book, but the length, character choices, and ending dragged it down quite a bit. I wouldn’t recommend this book unless you really like an over-the-top possessive and toxic couple. I probably wouldn't read another book by this author.
I genuinely cannot remember why this book was on my TBR, but I had a trial of KU and decided to give it a shot. I probably should have just remained curious. I actually liked the premise of it and haven’t read an MM book before where one MMC sleeps with the other MMC for revenge for a cheating girlfriend and I think there was potential for this to be good.
Right from the beginning, I couldn’t really understand Breeze’s motivations. Yes, obviously he wanted to stick it to Tabitha by having sex with the guy she was having an affair with, but sleeping with a man for the first time felt a little weird and didn’t make sense with his character. Then after the fact when he figures out he actually wants to be with Sandy, he just immediately goes balls to the wall 100% in with him. I definitely don't think that every queer character needs to have a whole coming out or a complex about being gay, but it just didn't fit with Breeze's personality.
I don't like dub-con and while this was under the umbrella, it didn't totally ruin the book for me. Don't get me wrong, I didn't love it and I don't excuse it, but I believe Sandy would have had sex with Breeze without the drugs. I definitely understand where Sandy was coming from and felt like he was in the right for not forgiving or being with Breeze immediately.
I didn't really buy into the instalove. Breeze and Sandy had a friendship, have sex one time where Breeze almost kills Sandy, they end it, but yet Sandy is totally in love with Breeze to the point he can't get over him. I'm not a fan of the trope, but especially with this book, they weren't even really together, so it felt like the author just wanted them to be in love without putting any effort into showing them falling in love or making it believable. It might have helped if we'd gotten to see more of the friendship and them growing closer.
I did like the forced proximity of them living and working on a project together. It made for some moments where they had to interact even though Sandy was trying to ignore and move on from Breeze. It made sense with the plot and wasn't just thrown in to make the trope fit. I also liked Sandy's journey of being comfortable with who he is and dressing in a way that feels authentic to him.
The book did feel a bit long and repetitive with Sandy constantly thinking about how he wanted to be with Breeze and feeling like he was the only one for him, but also being unwilling to forgive Breeze for what he did. I understood where he was coming from, but it was too much back and forth. I just don't like an indecisive character that keeps waffling.
Then even when they're together and engaged, Sandy keeps one foot out of the relationship the whole time. I know he didn't technically accept the proposal and didn't feel safe breaking up with him, but it just made the book drag. The book was long anyway, but it made it feel much longer. How can I get invested in the relationship if one of the characters doesn't even want to be in it?
I don't mind an over-the-top possessive MMC that murders people for touching their man, but it has to be done right. In this book, it was just kind of goofy. I understand Breeze killing Chris because he was actively trying to get with Sandy and was a little pushy with trying to get Sandy to sleep with him and move on from Breeze. But murdering a man for buying Sandy a drink was just dumb and made me not take the book seriously. Then having Sandy beat up a guy for hitting on Breeze just to show that they're both crazy jealous and Sandy understands why Breeze did what he did was so unnecessary. It didn't make sense for the character and I feel like the author just threw it in to put the MMCs on equal footing since neither of them can control their jealousy.
But what really annoyed me is that not only was Breeze never caught for the murders, Sandy never found out. It just felt unfinished and that the author forgot to bring it back up. I can get over the fact that Sandy didn’t figure it out and Breeze didn't tell him if it was mentioned in the book and felt intentional. If Breeze even thought about how he was scared Sandy would ever find out or promised to himself to be better and stop killing people to keep Sandy, I could have accepted that because then it would have at least felt like a complete plotline.
I didn't buy the relationship in the end for a single second. It 100% felt like Sandy only got back together with Breeze to keep him from attacking other people or killing himself. I got the impression that Sandy felt trapped and settled because he felt like he couldn't do better even though he just came out.
I didn't love the writing as a whole. Some of the phrases were just weird and they were repeated so many times. The author kept using the phrase "his eyelids thinned". Just say their eyes narrowed. I kept picturing the character's eyelids going transparent. I know this is a personal thing, but I just don't like when there's an over abundance of exclamation marks in a character's inner monologue. It just makes me cringe. I can deal with a few, but when it's constant, it gets on my nerves and it's all I can see. It seemed like characters were coughing in every scene as well. I don't know if it was to break up dialogue, but I was like, are all these people sick or something? I didn't like getting Tabitha's POV, especially at 90%. It was just unnecessary and didn't add enough to the book to justify it being thrown in so late.
I think some of the components were there for this to be a really good book, but the length, character choices, and ending dragged it down quite a bit. I wouldn’t recommend this book unless you really like an over-the-top possessive and toxic couple. I probably wouldn't read another book by this author.
December 14, 2025
ToD 53%
Writing style not for me. The direction the plot goes is not for me. The odd stage direction, instead of saying the character walked across the room or ate something... lifted my foot, bent my knee, lowered my foot, took a stride...
Emotionally & logically, the characters acted/reacted outside of the human condition. All shock value.
Writing style not for me. The direction the plot goes is not for me. The odd stage direction, instead of saying the character walked across the room or ate something... lifted my foot, bent my knee, lowered my foot, took a stride...
Emotionally & logically, the characters acted/reacted outside of the human condition. All shock value.
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March 10, 2025Dnf @ 39%
May 9, 2025
Toxic Love
Read this book in a day.
I honestly don't know what to say as Breeze was very unhinged and it's a toxic happily ever after ending.
Spicy level is a 5🌶
Read this book in a day.
I honestly don't know what to say as Breeze was very unhinged and it's a toxic happily ever after ending.
Spicy level is a 5🌶
August 4, 2025
DNF @ 18%. It’s disjointed, weird and one of the MCs is about to drug the other. Absolutely nothing I can find to recommend this.
December 29, 2025
pretty unhinged.
August 19, 2026
Genre: dark romance MM
POV: dual 1st person
Spice: 🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️
Tropes: MM, bi-awakening, drugging, suicide attempts, mental health issues, touch him & die
HEA: yes
Plot/story/writing style: Breeze just wanted revenge, and not because he was hurt. Sandy was just collateral damage, or he was supposed to be. After friends become lovers, and there is some internal struggle with sexuality being accepted after years of being told otherwise, but the foundation was already established and broken. Sandy couldn’t trust Breeze but that didn’t mean Breeze took no for an answer. While the entire time the sex was insane, the two weren’t on the same page and that’s a recipe for disaster. Plans were opposite even when they were supposed to be together and what happens when the sociopath had decided on a course of action? Spoiler: things go south. The characters were built great, the story was engaging and the angst only made the storyline deeper.
POV: dual 1st person
Spice: 🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️
Tropes: MM, bi-awakening, drugging, suicide attempts, mental health issues, touch him & die
HEA: yes
Plot/story/writing style: Breeze just wanted revenge, and not because he was hurt. Sandy was just collateral damage, or he was supposed to be. After friends become lovers, and there is some internal struggle with sexuality being accepted after years of being told otherwise, but the foundation was already established and broken. Sandy couldn’t trust Breeze but that didn’t mean Breeze took no for an answer. While the entire time the sex was insane, the two weren’t on the same page and that’s a recipe for disaster. Plans were opposite even when they were supposed to be together and what happens when the sociopath had decided on a course of action? Spoiler: things go south. The characters were built great, the story was engaging and the angst only made the storyline deeper.
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