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207 pages, Paperback
First published May 7, 2014










This was one of those books that was beautifully painful. I hated every minute of the pain and loss. But when I come out on the other side, I was so grateful that I read this little gem. Please don't let the heavy subject matter scare you away. It was totally worth it.
Andy and Seth have been friends for as long as they can remember. They grew up with each other and are as close as brothers. Emily moved to their neighborhood and they took her into their duo and they became a trio. When Emily and Andy started dating, Seth took a backseat. His feelings for Emily were put on hold. He could never express them for fear of loosing his two best friends.
When Andy was in college, he was diagnosed with cancer. He got treatment and he got better. He and Emily became closer. As he went through college and law school, he continued with his remission. Until one day the cancer came back. The doctors gave him a few months at best. Andy makes it his mission to do everything in his power to make sure that Emily is cared for when he is gone.
As the end draws near, Andy, Emily and Seth take off to a beach house to spend their remaining time living life to the fullest.
Andy has made peace with his fate. He wants to spend his remaining days with those he is closest to.
His heart breaks for the future that will never be. He knows that Seth can care for Emily now that he can not.
Emily can't cope with Andy's rapid decline. She does everything she can to remember the good times. Andy tries to get her to focus on the positives.
There are no words for the pain that Emily must cope with.
As time moves on, Emily finds herself pulling away from everyone.
Emily is strong, but with Seth she is stronger.
Months later, they are still grieving and learning lessons
Emily must decide if she is willing to take a risk with Seth.
This book wrecked me! There were numerous times where I had to stop and grab the tissues. The author did an amazing job of bringing these wonderful characters to life. The narrative was told through all three main characters points of view. It was absolutely gut wrenching. I don't want to give away the ending but It was a satisfying ending for me.
I usually read books with less sad and more sex. This one was definitely on the mild end sexually but I didn't even notice. The rest of the story was so well done that I really didn't miss it. When we finally do get some steam, it is glossed over. I will say, normally I would deduct for that, but this time, I just didn't care. I loved this book so much. There is something about knowing you are going to die and dealing with it at such a young age that just rips your heart out. Life can be so cruel.
I would gladly advise you to grab your tissues and read this one. I had to remind myself that this was a fictional book and no-one actually died. I was that sucked in. Well done!


Death. It is the only certain thing in life
I had nothing else to fight with because it had taken everything. ...
I couldn't save myself, but I could make sure the people I loved were taken care of.
This became less about what I was losing, and more about what I could gain.
"I love you, Em. I love you so fucking much," I wihispered. She craweld back into my arms and began to cry. i told myself I'd be strong, that I'd never let her see me cry, but there was nothing I could do right now then to stop the tears as they rolled down my cheeks.
"I'll always love you, Andy. Forever."
Life was a game and the end result was death. There was no way around that. No restarting things because you were playing it badly. You had one shot, and that was it.
You can't choose who you fall in love with, but you can choose whether you act on those feelings. And I chose not to.
Friendships like ours were rare. They didn't come along often, so when they did you had to make the most of them. The uniqueness of ours was we were like three pieces to a puzzle; it didn't feel right if one was missing.
It was hopeless. It was standing in a rainstorm and pretending you weren't getting wet.