Reviewer: Sarah Newton-John (Upwork) BA (Hons), Grad Dip Librarianship
This compelling fictional memoir is an astonishing blend of lively, sophisticated human observation and harrowing psychological hardship. With intelligence and sensitivity, the author reveals shocking themes in her family: childhood abuse, reluctant adoption and adult hypocrisy among other concerns, sprinkled with joyous moments of liberation, such as with her diving hobby and summer jobs. The story of Agnes is shaped from a number of retrospective angles, covering the end of a second marriage, a resilient faith, newfound creativity with words and soulful friendships.
Our heroine is an Australian, now a Spanish resident, and the book spans 60 years of her life within (and apart from) her dysfunctional family. You may think many families might be described as “dysfunctional” but as Agnes, aged 62, retraces her steps to discover the truth behind her teenage amnesia and adult emotional patterns, the Keen family will be set apart, on the far end of the spectrum of dysfunction.
With two brothers, neither of whom are kindred spirits, Agnes grows up on Sydney’s well to do North Shore with the guilt of a fatal accident on her conscience, blamed by her “monster” negligent mother. Relationships with a series of “other” families figure in her young life and she is able to form some important friendships with kids, teachers and parents until her family spoils things again. Agnes has low self-esteem as a consequence of the neglect and bullying she receives at home. There is, however, the heartbeat of a strong, sensible and thankfully rebellious woman behind the vulnerability and eagerness to please.
Agnes experiences the theatre and acting, modelling in commercials as a bonny redhead, and a period of nursing where she encounters both positive and negative personalities. She finds herself in real estate and has the chutzpah to take risks that pay off. She builds herself financial security and obviously shines in her professional life where her honesty and drive are valued.
Agnes will inspire your admiration and affection as she navigates school, work, aunts, uncles, nuns and priests to find her voice and bring herself back Down Under on a journey to heal from a highly charged and often painful upbringing. She goes from being semi-literate and stuttering due to her emotional states to finding fluid self-expression. The heartbreaking description of the nightmare in which she loses her voice as a child will stay with me forever.