When I read a novel, I really want to like the main characters. At first I despised one of the main characters here, though, and I was wondering how I could ever like Toni. But as the story unfolds, it soon nearly physically hurts watching Toni not only how she betrays and hurts her love Jessie, but also how she ruins every chance of a happy life for herself.
Toni and Jessie are both well thought-through characters, who make mistakes, who suffer, who try to make things good, who fail, who don't dare to trust, who suffer more, who are so very real and so very loveable - yes, even Toni, especially Toni - that it is eventually a joy to follow their lovestory.
But it is also painful reading about it. How we grow up influences our lives, whether we like that or not. And sometimes things are harder for some people than for others. While Jessie has learned to make the best from her experiences, or so she thinks, Toni's past keeps pulling her back into being someone Toni despises herself.
But apparently they still love each other - so they have to start fighting for their love and for themselves. And as I said above, it's quite a pleasure watching them doing so.