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224 pages, Kindle Edition
First published April 20, 2021
Like most people these days, I don’t overthink things. I’ll go along with whatever. No firm beliefs, no hang-ups. Just a lack of self-confidence tangled up in fatalistic resignation. Whatever the situation, nothing ever reaches me on an emotional level. Nothing’s important. Because I won’t let it be. I operate on mood alone. No regrets, no looking back.
I couldn’t tell whether I was genuinely pissed off or not. The performance had just become a part of my personality. If nothing else, I can be pretty sure I’m not happy, I thought vacantly.

‘There is something wrong with our present society, and I can’t stand SF written by people who don’t understand that.’ – Izumi Suzuki. AR
“Once you’re above a certain age, if you decide you want kids, you go to the hospital. Even if you’re unmarried, it’s fine as long as you can raise them. They probably inject you with some medicine or something.
‘You’re not going to look for a job?’
‘I’m not cut out for it,’ Rei replied shamelessly. ‘Even if this doesn’t work out, I’ll just find an arranged marriage.’ Rei has a pretty face and pale skin, giving her good reason to be confident of finding someone to support her. Long ago, it was normal for the men to work while the women took care of the household chores, and that arrangement hasn’t really changed – all that’s new is that it’s the more masculine woman who goes to work, while the more feminine partner takes care of the sundry other tasks at home.” – ‘Women and Women’
“While I fielded her questions, I had to ask myself: What was it about her that was turning me into a man? Got to be all that femininity. She’s acting like such a woman (as society defines the role, anyway) that I have to play the man just to keep the balance. What if I ran into a boy? Could I even play the part of a woman?
Syzygy? Androgyny? I’m no man and I’m no woman. Who needs gender anyway? I just want to get out of this place, to be on my own.
I’ve got no desire to see the collapse of humankind or the end of the world. I just want everyone to enjoy their lives. That’s why I came here — to a different time stream, a different planet, a different universe.” – ‘You May Dream’
“There was no way anyone could live in a world like this with a fully functioning mind. You only found yourself feeling angry from morning until night. If she ended up joining some kind of political movement as a result, her mother and father would be upset. Using drugs, she told herself, was her way of being a good daughter.” – ‘Forgotten’
“I’m not particularly eclectic in my tastes, and I’m not interested in anything that feels too much like hard work. The Kamiroi aesthetic doesn’t really do it for me, although I hear that you Terrans really go for it. And Balians are way too irrational.” – ‘Forgotten’
“I will avoid a casual approach to life at any cost.’ But Dad immediately qualified himself, to smooth things over. ‘I simply don’t want us to wind up the butt of the joke. When people behave shamefully, their children follow suit. Children only notice when their parents make mistakes. One false move, and pretty soon they’re … You know, whatever you call it.” – ‘The Night Picnic’
“She must be thirty-six years old, in this world. Naoshi must be out of the facility too, then. He took off from that planet three days earlier. No need to look in a mirror. I already know the score: I’m a dejected housewife, in my thirties – impatient and frustrated, yet too limp and lethargic to do anything about it. And I live in one of those hideous, uniform, low-rent apartments I can see out the window.” – ‘The Old Seaside Club’
“After getting back from the arcade, I didn’t feel like going anywhere. I watched the 3-D television with the sound off. My favourite thing is to be by myself. I can’t take drugs, I don’t smoke, and I can barely drink, but I still know how to pass the time. These days, I only work one day a week, if that. Right now, I do illustrations for a living, but I’ve had around twenty different jobs. Physical labour is better. I don’t have to think about things. When I begin thinking, I start to dislike myself.” – ‘Smoke Gets in Your Eyes’
“Older folks are amazing. They’ve got so much energy, so much stamina. They go to work every day, and somehow they still find it in them to have love affairs. My mum had a steady stream of them until recently.” – Terminal Boredom
“Things like respect and awe are long since gone. Everyone lives in a happy-go-lucky depression – they only take life half-seriously, you might say.” – Terminal Boredom
“'Do you have any idea how hopelessly in love with him I was?’ What the hell am I supposed to say to that? ” – ‘Terminal Boredom’
To doubt this world is a crime.
—"Women and Women," p.33
I used to be so empty inside, so pure.
—"You May Dream," p.61
"Why bother stringing all these words together if the end result is one big lie?"
—"Night Picnic," p.74
"Oh, you can find a song for anything, you know. There's even a song that goes, 'This isn't real love, it's just a song.'"
—"That Old Seaside Club," p.102
"Don't worry. The world won't stop spinning. It'll keep going, even if you don't want it to. On and on, until you're absolutely sick of it."
—"That Old Seaside Club," p.120
"When I'm being thankful, I think, 'This is a moment when I should be thankful,' and then I press start on my heart mechanism."
—"Smoke Gets in Your Eyes," p.136
The world around them went on moving, regardless of their desires or their feelings, like a huge river. Its surface might appear calm, but charging along its bottom was a fast, powerful current, exerting a silent pressure on them.
—"Forgotten," p.176
I had always assumed HE was doing an impression of a moron, but sometimes I wonder if HE isn't simply stupid.
—"Terminal Boredom," p.190