3.75/4
I hadn't heard of this book before, but saw that Saidiya Hartman wrote the forward, so I was compelled to read it! This was a very interesting read with a stream-of-consciousness, diary-type format. Not much happens, but there were some great quotable moments and the discussions that happen can take interesting turns in their debates.
* (foreward - Saidiya Hartman) Her arms provide a refuge, often the only one possible. So, this no-longer muse learns to keep company with herself. It is the gift yielded by the errant path.
* (you can’t be everything to everybody, you end up being nothin to everybody.)
* why should she [Angela Davis] have to refer to marxism to back up her statements, when she could refer to her own heritage, to africa, to a time a place a people that existed before marx was thought of… she could refer to a whole culture, history that was her own
* but i realized i was talkin to an adult who felt she should be right just because she had lived longa, and besides what did i know?
* i haven’t lived at home for a long time, so i’m gettin to know my dad again. it’s nice. it is. (parents have dreams too.)
* if you call knowin how to love watchin children die at the whim of her [white woman] white mate — or watchin a man used for the total benefit of her family’s welfare, instead of the benefit of his own family that don’t probably exist no more walkin around smiling in a white frilly hat — if that is your definition of KNOWIN HOW TO LOVE then i have nothin more to say.
* i existed before the media pretended to discover me. black people existed before black people discovered themselves.
* once a man told me somethin i had never heard before. he said the beauty of the black race stuns the white man… that’s why he made us think we were ugly. and anythin the white man cannot deal with frightens him — and he either destroys it or if he sees he can make some money, some profit he usurps, he uses, he misuses… he took our religion away because it scared the life out of him.
* there are a few things i can escape. a few things i can’t and there are a few things that escape me. excuse me please.
* i shall fly into the pastel colored smudged on my fingertips from paintin too many dreams on canvas, but i shall hang them up so that they may be real… so i can dance and sing all night long… to fulfill the capitalistic theory of girl (based on what i wear) what’s the difference, if i dress up pretty, i’m the same girl. knock on wood. but he doesn’t know that.
* enjoy youth, don’t endure it.
* how could he forget that we are all victims in this madness. (watch your dreams.)
* i can’t figure out all this mess, all i know is i cannot deny the places from which i come.
* the magic of life is that it does change. that you can’t say because a man is a drunk career ended, in jail, that his future is dead. you can’t say that marilyn monroe did herself a blessin by killin herself, because her career was ova, had she lived she’d be a de-escalated once-star, how many times married, drinkin drinkin. who is to say somethin wouldn’t have come into her life, that she could of moved to connecticut and wrote books?
* how did all these people get into powa who keep pushin all this garbage down our throats, who do we let them think we are? and how can we allow them to make us such shit, by our payin our hard-earned nickels and dimes, or sittin on our behinds watchin it. we accept it. not only do we accept it. we pay money for garbage. we pay money to look, laugh at, enjoy, and talk about did you see that garbage last week on channel so and so wasn’t it great? art can turn back the work of a people. entertainment has influence on the political moods of a people. movies can destroy all the work gone down, and make it cool to have no goals, to feel it’s noble to be poor, black, and strong, and excitin to be immoral, unprincipled, rich, and black. you can’t separate it from influencin the images (and lack of content, or content) or a searchin mind.
* they got us thinkin to express beauty in life is borin. unsensational. did they push that horror… down our throats so long that we think if we ain’t lookin at that, and doin that life is borin?… if i live in a world where love is not projected as a value, then wouldn’t i tend to believe that it don’t exist? how am i to know about love… revealin life, revealin the slimy parts along with the good is necessary, but gloryin the dirt is anotha story.
* i mean i woke up at eleven this mornin, after layin round rollin round, tossin and turnin round with this friend of mine. me.