A low 2.5 stars. TL;DR: A companion product for Anna Runkle's Crappy Childhood Fairy brand and business that offers nothing new in comparison to the free resources on her website and YouTube channel. It could be useful if you've never heard of CPTSD or you're at wit's end seeking mental health treatment for an inexplicable low mood and series of unfortunate events that plague your life. However, you can find the same information on the YouTube channel and with the free "Daily Practice" course available through signing up for the newsletter (be sure to unsubscribe after to save your inbox). Additionally, if you've been in the thick of trauma treatment or you want information from the 2010s about treatment for complex PTSD, skip the book. I wouldn't recommend it for anyone whose primary stress/trauma response is freeze where they have shut down and numbed out. I also wouldn't recommend it for anyone who is already familiar with the Crappy Childhood Fairy and the Daily Practice because there is nothing new. If you are familiar with her content, perhaps the workbook sections might help you, or you can pick up the book if you specifically want a written summary of the core Crappy Childhood Fairy content.
First, the context in which I found this book.
I've watched a lot of the Crappy Childhood Fairy videos on YouTube. I even joined the free course for the Daily Practice (the structured writing and meditation technique that Anna swears by as the solution to dysregulation), which required signing up to the email newsletter—and subsequently getting daily emails encouraging me to take the paid courses through Crappy Childhood Fairy, which I unsubscribed from because it was just too much. I can't give an unbiased review of just the book because it's so intertwined with Anna's business (Crappy Childhood Fairy). I had hoped that this book would add on to the hundreds of hours of content on YouTube (which has gotten repetitive), especially with a list price of 20 bucks for <200 pages of content.
Second, the issues I had.
1. CPTSD, as recognized by World Health Organization's ICD, is *complex* PTSD. It is not childhood PTSD. CPTSD can develop in adulthood. It is absolutely not limited to having a crappy childhood, but because Anna's branding is centered on reaching people who had crappy childhoods, this phrase shift feels like a way to make the brand more cohesive. I think this is harmful for any adults whose CPTSD developed in adulthood. While adults with CPTSD generally did survive abusive childhoods, "childhood CPTSD" is Anna's own phrase.
2. The book on its own is repetitive. Some passages were two paragraphs long where the second paragraph just repeated the same points as the previous paragraph, while other passages were repeated in later chapters.
3. It functions as a written companion to the Crappy Childhood Fairy content available online (YouTube, a website) without adding anything new. Even the metaphors and analogies are the same as the videos (leaves on a windshield, aspirin vs toothbrush).
4. Promoting a single tool, even if it's free and costs nothing more than pen and paper, is not useful for an individual or broadly applicable to a wider audience. Relying on one tool, no matter how helpful it is as you use it, doesn't equip you for the variety that comes with life. Anna refers to one severely traumatic event in her adult life where, when she "stopped doing [The Daily Practice]" she "stopped being fixed." In the book, she upholds this as an example to use the Practice, but I see it as a failure of varied coping skills. What would have happened if she had other skills to regulate emotions?
5. The anti-therapy sentiment is so annoying. Trauma-informed therapy does exist, and while there is a brief overview in an early chapter, Anna tends to contradict herself by both promoting her tool as your treatment saviour while also saying nobody can "give" healing. Maybe it's my own experience, but the last two therapists/counsellors I've seen were incredibly helpful because they didn't present themselves as the key to my healing. Anna presents a stereotype of therapy whereby the client relies on the counsellor to give them answers or heal them without the client doing work or guiding the session.
6. My CPTSD didn't make me the type of person who lashes out all the time, damages my relationships, and stew in anger. It made me self-loathing, filled with shame, and numb. Because of this, I didn't relate to a lot of the examples of dysregulation. The examples for dysregulation focus primarily on "fight" responses (with a bit of "flight" when people avoid and tune out of reality/life), rather than providing a more thorough overview of what dysregulation can look like.
7. The "gifts" concept feels awkward to me. I don't think many neurodivergent folks would appreciate the chapter on finding our "gifts" because it feels too close to the repeated lament that we aren't living up to our potential. It's okay to exist in the world without serving others; this chapter had a lot of Christian undertones that I was uncomfortable with, which is a point of reflection I can take away, but it didn't feel encouraging or uplifting for the "final" stage of healing to be centered on how I serve other people... Especially as Anna notes "excessive focus on others" as a self-defeating behaviour.
8. Because the Daily Practice underpins the entire book, it's not an easy "take what you need and leave the rest" book like some self-help materials are. If you don't want to do the Daily Practice, there is very little else that you can take away from the book. It is one-note in its advice: basically, use the Daily Practice and be mindful if you sense conflict or feel like lashing out.
Finally, things I found useful or enjoyable:
Anna has a way of reassuring her viewer or reader in a very friendly way. The book was generally easy to read (and very quick—the final 25% of the book is an appendix, an index, some sources, and general back matter), and I do enjoy how Anna tells stories. The concept of being "sovereign" over my healing (and life) really resonates with me. I've highlighted a few other passages that resonated, so there are little nuggets of insight.
I'm also going to check out "expressive writing" from James Pennebaker, which Anna mentions in the book as similar to her Daily Practice, to see how I can diversify my journalling. I've tried out the Daily Practice, and while I dislike the rigidity of it, I like connecting with my feelings and being mindful of what's bothering me; it gives a space to try and stop ruminating on them too. I destroy the paper by ripping it up, and this is a classic way of expressing anger in a healthy way. Meditation vibes well with me too.
I appreciated the workbook sections. I'm a big fan of having writing homework, like journal prompts, for my mental health. The workbook sections, while brief, were presented easily on the page and gave practical steps or good reflective prompts.