I have read this 3-4 times over the years, and have taken something new away from it each time.
This time, I was reading it with particular attention to the mental health themes, having recently re-read an interview with the author where she talked about how important her writing is for her mental health.
I was struck by how much Moriarty's character seems to represent the intrusive thoughts, self-hatred, shame, fear, and despair that can sometimes overtake people who suffer from depression. And I was likewise struck by how John's character perfectly represents the people in our lives who go the extra mile to make sure we know we're loved, wanted, needed, and good enough just as we are. I am lucky enough to have several such people in my life and this book makes me all the more grateful for them, as Sherlock is grateful for John.
This book is deeply important to me as a person with bipolar type II and a trauma survivor, as I see so many of my own experiences reflected in it. And it's also deeply important to me as a queer person on the asexual spectrum, since its sex scenes (and its scenes depicting conversations about sex) consistently exhibit a deep respect for queerness, asexuality, and the capability and right of both queer people and asexual people to have agency over their own sex lives or lack thereof.
I love this book, and I love Katie Forsythe's writing, and I don't know what she's up to these days, but I hope she's okay, and if she ever sees this review, I hope she knows she's wonderful.
I really enjoyed this fic. I liked the writer’s take on Sherlock and his emotional vulnerability in dealing with Moriarty. The little shoutout the author works into the story to so many of my other favorite Johnlock fics is also really fun.