*3.8 stars*
This book was a hard one to review. I finished it last night and took some time to mentally sort through it all because, yes, this is that kind of book.
I've been on a angsty-serial killer kick lately. I don't know if it's because I ran out of Midsomer Murders on Netflix, or if it kicked in while binge watching Jamie Dornan in "The Fall." (Which is seriously amazing)
Anyways...
I can't talk about the things that urked me without MAJOR spoiler spillage so if you don't want to know details, please look away now.
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Our heroine, Calida/Lee is mentally damaged. She endured horrible bullying from her sister all her life and the douce bad of a boyfriend she just left was seriously horrible.
So she moves a few hours away from her family and starts a fresh life bringing along her BFF Macy. Macy is the usual cardboard cut-out best friend. Beautiful, sexually expressive and deeply protective of Lee.
Lee meets our Hero(?) Seth in a coffee shop after she douses him in coffee. She then (of course) falls to her knees and begs forgiveness for being so clumsy. (kinda-sorta, you know what I mean here)...she then tries to shove the little money she has into his hands so he can have the shirt dry cleaned.
Seth.
Seth is the portrayed as the typical billionaire. Overly handsome, expressive eyes, blah blah blah, BUT THEN we find he has a secret life that goes on behind the closed doors of a basement.
Now, to be honest, If we hadn't had the small tidbits from Seth's POV, I'd have never known he was a psycho. I kept waiting for his behavior towards Calida to get weird. Maybe I've read too many fsog characters. (ugh, so over them) but he wasn't any different from the rest of them.
HOLD ON, let me explain...
He's OTT possessive, controlling, buys her expensive things (like a treadmill so she doesn't go out running in the dark, foresty park at night) that she of course returns. He shows up at her work to drive her home...etc, etc. He's another CG cardboard cutout. Just with a hint of something darker, something deeper.
We're also meant to know he was schizophrenic. He has thoughts that run through his head constantly. I wish this would have been played up more. To me, instead of hearing 'voices,' it just came off as more of an inner-monologue. I've read characters in hooks that had it worse than he did.
Seth doesn't feel anything. Emotions are non-existent in his world. The only thing that makes him feel -what he thinks is- happiness is what he does with his "Pets."
And yes, it's pretty descriptive, so if you're squeamish keep that in mind.
Anyways
After meeting Calida though, he doesn't enjoy having his pets like he used to. He begins to focus more on her and these strange feelings he's now experiencing. He doesn't know is going on. So she becomes more of a "case study" to him. He begins to talk to her, study her actions, tries to decipher why he doesn't like when other men talk to her.
What the hell is going on with him?!
Seth starts to change. He notices when Calida is upset, he doesn't like it. His basement has less and less captives until he stops all together, -for awhile anyway.
Calida is a woman of bad, bad luck. She gets caught in the worse circumstances. She's pretty naive, so Seth often catches her in the clutches of other men, in various lies, etc, etc. They fight, she tries to run only to easily forgive him of his outbursts and jealousy.
I'll try to wrap it up here.
So this goes on and on -and like I said, I kept waiting for Seth to get super-creepy and lock her away or whatever, but he's trying to understand why he can't be away from her, the thought of hurting her is abhorrent, and why she's upset...all. the. time.
Seriously.
Calida was ALWAYS CRYING...basically on every page.
He's always baffled because he doesn't understand what is happening most of the time.
I was here still waiting.
Until I hit about the 65 or 70% mark on my Kindle.
Things went NUTSO after her sister's wedding
Calida cries, Seth tries to fix it, Calida again cries enough tears to flood a desert, then forgives him.
FINALLY, later on, Calida decides enough is enough and tries ro leave him for good.
Was it for the bruises on her arms? NOPE
Was is for the forced threesome he made her participate in, then had sex with the stripper right in front of her while staring into her eyes? You'd think so...but, NOPE.
Was it the forced sex in the shower after? NOPE
Was it the Yin and Yang tattoo he'd ask her to get on his birthday? NOPE
Was it from the tiny vines in the tattoo that wrapped around the Yin and Yang and curved into his initials?
YES! For the love of all things holy, THAT DID IT!
I'm not even joking.
She tries to leave
Chaos ensues.
I didn't hate the book.
Not at all.
I found myself laughing at some of the humor.
Calida: Glancing over, I noticed scratches on his hand for the first time. "Seth, what happened?"
Seth. "I got a new pet," he replied, holding his hand up a bit. "It's a little feisty and scratched me. I'm thinking of declawing her."