i have some things to say alright. what in the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i believe this is the longest review i have EVER written.
i’m so mad y’all have no idea. what we have here is a fucking MAN-CHILD OF AN MMC AND FMC which is… i don’t even have words… the way she just constantly let people walk over her THE WHOLE TIME was driving me crazy.
the way dominic was just so MEAN to clara from the very beginning!!! there’s just no other word to use here—he was just a big big meanie of a damn CHILD!!!!!!!!!! and he’s supposed to have these great parents… yeah, we lost the plot in the meantime. just because you’re some fucking ceo and rich guy doesn’t mean you can get away with having literally NO MANNERS. and what’s up with that fucking bitch rita? what’s your problem? back to the main issue i have with this book—the way he was just constantly putting her down. it was just NEVER ENDING. and what the fuck do you mean it was supposed to teach her some kind of lesson of OWNING HER IDEAS and ENCOURAGING HER TO SPEAK HER MIND? WHERE THE FUCK this idea came from? oh my god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
„And Clara didn’t know how to fight. At all.
I pinched the bridge of my nose, thinking back to how her mother had treated her when I’d dropped her off that day. Clara had been ready to walk right into that messed-up situation just to save her family’s reputation.
She didn’t fight it at all. And it had fucking bothered me more than it should have.”
oh :( ohhhh :( it bothers you :( womp womp :( maybe try thinking of that when you’re literally the NUMBER ONE BULLY OF HER BUSINESS IDEAS AND HER TRYING TO REACH ANY KIND OF COMPROMISE (SPOILER ALERT THERE WAS LITERALLY NONE EVERYTHING WAS SUPPOSED TO BE HOW THE LORD AND MASTER WANTED IT TO BE BECAUSE HE WAS A CHILD WHO WOULD THROW A TANTRUM, STOMP HIS FEET AND YELL IF HE DIDN’T GET WHAT HE WANTED) (she kinda got what she wanted, in some way, because of the deal they got, but in the end, to me, that was definitely not enough for what he put her through)
i’m so angry. can you tell that i’m angry? i don’t really think you can tell that i’m angry.
him giving her bakery the things that were considered left-overs from the main restaurant at this resort just because, and i quote, he was sure the bakery won’t be a part of his business for long :(
„Well, Rita has a vision. And she fought for it.”
you damn IDIOT!!!!!!! i’m going to have YOUR HEAD ON A FUCKING PLATTER OR SOMETHING!!!!!!! I LITERALLY OFFED YOU IN MY MIND1!!!!!!!
„God, I knew you were unequipped to run a business, but I didn’t know you were this incompetent.” He shook his head at the wall.
your head just exploded. did you feel it. i sure did. i’m going to claw your eyes out. WHY THE HELL ARE YOU SO FUCKING MEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH MY GOD!!!!!!! and anytime i was hoping for her to stand up to him, have a conversation like grown ups they would just have sex. great. amazing. no development whatsoever.
he wanted to buy her a dress and he wouldn’t do that at the store she brought him to, because it was, i don’t know, beneath him :( but bringing her to his ex’s favorite shopping spot and seeing her there wasn’t :( yes, that was a great idea. do you want a cookie? a star sticker? or would you like a good boy sticker instead? and let’s not forget about how, of course, she gave him a blowjob in the store, after his ex pretty much humiliated her, but it’s alright, because it’s not his ex he wants on her knees before him, it’s her. thank GOD for this GIFT!!!!!
„I don’t care how you meant it. You didn’t think about it.” I crossed my arms over my chest. „You ruined what was mine. My mother and sister ruled my damn life, Dominic. You might not understand it, and I’m not going to sit here and cry about it with you, but I left so I could have something that was mine. Just mine! I bought the stuff that went in that apartment, I made it a home, I made it what I wanted, and you fucking destroyed it.”
and sometimes it’s okay not to forgive. i surely did not forgive or forget. and he WHIMPERS in answer to that. get real. but after that, of course, after moving her out of her apartment (without her knowing, BUT what’s important is that hers had mold in it, so i understand some level of concern he managed to muster and moved her—if he was really capable of that) they’re texting, going over the whole situation and, guess what, she goes to him ready to give him a piece of her mind. i was like: yes, finally. but yeah, that doesn’t happen—they end up having sex. because of course.
„I’ve always been a second thought or around when someone doesn’t want me to be. But I won’t be anymore. Not here. I’m not willing to be the person you wished you didn’t like, Dominic. I want someone to enjoy liking me. Love liking me. Or love loving me. And just me. Not the idea of what we could be if you mold me into what you want.”
she said that. i was like: congratulations, we finally managed to speak about what’s going on in our mind. we finally kind of stood our ground. amazing. after that, he doesn’t really have anything to say about what she had on her mind. he goes for manipulation, saying :( you can walk away so easily from me? :( womp womp :( just… OH MY GOD!!!!! AND THEN THEY HAVE SEX AGAIN!!!!!!! and after she voices her opinion on the fact that, as it’s mentioned above, she wants someone who will love loving her, we still, at the end of the book, go with the narrative of how much he loathes loving her :( but that’s how he knows he really loves her :( how do i even… what do i even say about it here.
i think the only thing i liked was when she started to voice her thoughts about how she deserves someone better than him.
„You don’t deserve me if you were trying so hard not to fall for me.”
well. yes. but it all comes back to how he just seemed to be her bully, instead of a man or even a partner. and i know, maybe, it’s not that deep—but i just couldn’t get over the way he spoke to her pretty much, i don’t know, for the first half of the book? who knows. and i’m supposed to believe they love each other. well, i don’t. i’m sorry. (am i?)
this was just too much for me. as you can probably tell at this point.