I guess my first questions are whether there will be more books in the First Quarto series for Auggie/Theo or more books for Fer? Because I think if there were, that could possibly save this book for me. But as it stands, this is currently my least favorite Gregory Ashe book I’ve ever read. This is a departure from his usual books in that this contains no murder mystery to solve and it is basically a contemporary romance. I’m not sure how well this works as a true standalone if you’ve never read Gregory Ashe’s books that introduced these characters to you beforehand but this does not spoil the First Quarto books if that’s something you’re worried about.
I’m so glad I read this out of order and opted to read Nico/Jadon’s story first in Follows with Intent because if I read this back-to-back after the Iron on Iron series, I would severely question whether I still liked the Hazardverse books.
Content warnings includes body dysmorphia, drug addiction/drug use, career ending injury, emotional abuse, homelessness, mentions of attempted suicide, and mentions of a drug overdose.
Yes, I’m actually happy Fer finds his man and has someone to share his burdens with, but my god does nothing get answered or resolved in this book and I am just overall not a fan of the direction this book went. I think I’m alone in this since the ratings for this book are quite high, but these are my opinions and I’m quite upset.
We first met Fernando “Fer” Lopez as the eldest brother who basically raised youngest half brother August “Auggie” in the First Quarto series. In this book, Auggie has already long moved out - first for college and then in with Theo in Missouri. Fer is still stuck in California with their narcissistic mother and their drug addicted other half brother (the one in the middle), Chuy. Fer has been raising and taking care of this family since he was eight. EIGHT.
That was when Auggie was born and god forbid their mother actually care about anyone other than herself. Fer had been a child tasked with raising 2 children (once of which had been a newborn baby) AND a wreck of a mother. Fer is finally now in a place where he can try to have something for himself for a change - a new job and be free of his family’s antics. But one morning, he discovers that Chuy has run away and left a baby behind. With no one else to take care of the baby, the responsibility falls to Fer. Again.
And that’s the theme of Fer’s life, isn’t it? He’s constantly having to look and care for his family and he’s hanging on by a thread. There’s no one to take care of HIM. I hate that when he’s now in a better place where we can be free, that he just gets dragged down again and has to care for a baby that’s not even his. He can’t catch a break and I HATE it. I just want him to not have to be the responsible one and have fun for ONCE in his life. Maybe it’s because I am also the eldest sibling in my family (thankfully though, without Fer’s responsibilities) but I am so upset by his storyline. I feel for him and this whole book gave me anxiety.
I will say, the baby is cute though. Fer named her Isabella and she’s referred to as Igz as a nickname. I don’t know what I excepted (maybe pronounced “Iz”??) but the audiobook narration does pronounce her name “eggs”. So.
Because Fer can’t go to work (he’s in pharmaceutical sales) AND look after a newborn baby, he hires a nanny. Or he tries to. Then a surfer looking guy named José “Zé” Teixeira, knocks on his front door one day and Fer accidentally mistakes him for the nanny the agency sent out and some things happen, but Fer ultimately hires Zé as the nanny, or manny if you will.
This book is told entirely from Fer’s point-of-view in first-person. The author’s Hollow Folk series was similar in that we had only one POV in first-person if I remember correctly and it worked for me there because there were multiple books, you know? This is just one standalone book and I still feel like at the end of this that I don’t have a good sense of Zé. I can see he cares for Fer and Igz and that he’s overall a nice guy, but it’s not the same as a dual POV book where we can be inside his head and his thoughts.
This book does not address the power imbalance between Fer being Zé’s employer AND that Zé was basically homeless and now lives with Fer as the live-in nanny for his employment and what that means if they start a relationship. We do go into Zé being uncomfortable with Fer trying to gift him things because of Zé’s own past and hangups but the employer/employee relationship is basically just not pointed out one bit even after they start having feelings for each other. And I thought that was weird to not address it since I JUST finished rereading Act Your Age, Eve Brown by Talia Hibbert and it is addressed in that book very well. Sure, this is a standalone that started as a serial book but it’s not like the author hasn’t written longer books and could fit it in if he wanted to. I think we don’t address toxic power imbalances very well (see also: the Flint and Tinder series).
I don’t know if it’s been said whether or not we get more First Quarto books but I do find it odd that 1) Fer never tells Auggie that he’s dating Zé WITHIN THIS BOOK and there’s 2) still no real resolution with Chuy who has gone AWOL again by the end of this book.
Are we getting a Chuy book where he finally hits rock bottom and we see him get better? I’m glad he’s not dead but I’m as tired as Fer with having to worry about him for many books now. Also, what’s the point of Auggie showing up in this book if Fer never even tells Auggie he’s seeing someone and that he’s bi. That’s such a weirdly, unresolved plot line in this book and I had to go digging after reading this book only to find out it’s kinda/sorta addressed in the short story collection Tangents Vol. 1, “I Wanted to Tell You Something”.
We do, at least, kind of get something of a start with Fer setting boundaries with their mother because that plot line has always upset me. Their mother is emotionally abusive, most of all to Fer and keeps messing up his life and I’m glad he’s finally learning how to put his foot down. I’d rather he cut her out of his life entirely but maybe that’s too much to hope for. But if you’re also looking for a clean cut resolution here with his mom, it does not exist. This is why I don’t like that this is a standalone book because there’s really no satisfying ending with Fer’s life. Apparently Fer does move out and doesn’t live with his mother at the end of this (although he’s the one paying the mortgage so how much money DOES Fer have saved up because they’re in California and he was paying for Auggie’s schooling too). But it’s not obvious in the text and I had to find out from another review that this happened at all.
He’s finds love, but at what cost? His home life with his family is basically still a wreck outside of Auggie and, unless I missed it, he’s still at his dead-end sales job that he absolutely hates instead of at his dream job (that he got screwed over) at the weed farm where he wanted to work. He still has a whole new child he has to take care of. How am I supposed to be happy after reading this book when Fer’s life is still a jumbled mess?
There’s also significant body dysmorphia and dieting stuff in this book that might not sit well with everyone. It’s not unlike what’s in the Hazard and Somerset, and Borealis books (what with the controlling what your partner eats by throwing away their junk food and having to eat healthy), but it is very present in this book so do note that is a part of this story and it’s not written well.
There’s discussions about injuries and continued pain - Fer’s back and Zé’s leg and I don’t know why Fer is so insistent on Zé getting his physical therapy in when he does nothing for his own stress and back. That’s also left unresolved.
The audiobook narrator, Liam Lambert, is new-to-me. He was okay. I did actually like him as Fer’s voice and he does all the creative swearing and everything great as Fer. He does an accent for Zé that I wasn’t loving as much (without spoilers, the backstory is that Zé is Brazilian and moved to the United States as a teenager). I didn’t love the voice the narrator chooses to use for Auggie, Theo, Lana, or Fer’s mother but maybe I have gotten used to J.F. Harding for their voices. So overall, I guess my thoughts are that the narration was fine but not my favorite.
There is a lot of sex scenes in this book? Or at least compared to other Gregory Ashe books as of late so it felt like a lot, or at least super drawn out. I could take or leave it, but this book is higher heat than his usual if anyone was wondering about that.
I’m glad Fer finds a boyfriend and Zé is a great guy, but this story was not it for me. Maybe if there were more books to help resolve Fer’s job and his mother and Chuy’s storylines, MAYBE that would’ve helped a lot so I could rate this book higher. But as a standalone on its own merits, I just really didn’t care for this story at all. Follows with Intent with Nico/Jadon was at least a satisfying standalone story for them to find their own HEAs and I am looking forward to Dulac’s story in the book Body Count. But Fer’s is unfortunately my least favorite Sidetracks story at the moment.