"Anything that might be wrong melts away with the rightness of us."
I hadn't read anything by Elsie Silver before, but the blurb for this one drew me in. I mean, brother's best friend, age gap, small town... it definitely resonated with me. I finished the book last night, and there were tears in my eyes at the end of it. It's probably one of the best brother's best friend books I've ever read.
I'm grateful for having had the chance to read this ARC.
"Griffin is like this growly, dirty-talking, romantic dickhead that I can't get enough of."
This sentence describes Griffin Sinclaire better than I ever could, but it doesn't sum him up. I loved the depth of this character, the character development, and how I got to know the man beyond his grumpy exterior. How I got to see what makes him tick, what he thinks, how he feels. And Griff is definitely book boyfriend material. And then some.
"My girl. My reason. My Wildflower."
Nadia was special. Any girl who can go through what she did, and still be here, rising above it, using her past as an example of what she doesn't want in life is my kind of girl. She's badass, strong well beyond her years, sensible beyond what you'd expect, but also very much young in the way she feels. She is the perfect counterpart for Griffin.
"I like all your words, Griffin. It's what you don't say that kills me."
Griff and Nadia meet at a local bar, and they don't know each other. They share one kiss, and just the one is unforgettable for both of them. Two years later, Nadia is living at her brother's ranch when Griff shows up. He's her brother's best friend, 14 years older than her. But the memory of that kiss is still burned into their minds and their bodies.
Griff is all sorts of grumpy. Nadia has a smart mouth about her and is all kinds of sassy. She pushes him as far as she can, and he pushes right back. There's long stares across crowded rooms, and so much longing. The pushing and pulling is captivating. Their interactions are fun, and filled with tension. You can see it's only a matter of time before they give in, because they have to.
"My special brand of hell. But I want you so badly I don’t even mind the flames."
Once it happens? It is HOT. I cannot stress enough how these two complement each other, even when it comes to sex. It's like they were waiting for each other, and everyone else who came before didn't matter. Everyone else was a stepping stone for them to get to each other. They are absolutely scorching, and it's so obvious to see how they're made for each other in every single way.
"Tie me up, lock me down, keep me forever. I only ever want to do this life with you."
Two things stood out to me. The first was how broken, and at the same time how hopeful, these two people are. How they believe they're not enough, but they keep hoping they will be. How they think that no one would want them if people saw the 'real' them, their flaws, their pasts. How no one would miss them, or really love them. My heart broke for them.
"All our scars melt away as our hands trail over one another's bodies."
The second was the lack of what I call the 'brother drama'. You know, the overprotective brother who becomes an asshole and tries to take over his sister's life. None of it. Stefan didn't try to, and Nadia wouldn't have stood for it if he had.
This book was character-centered, and that was just the way it should be. Even the age gap didn't matter much to me – I really didn't care about it. I just wanted them to get their happily ever after, because it's so clear that they're 'it' for each other.
"I want all your right nows. All your tomorrows. I want it all with you."
A False Start is about healing, and growing. About being loved for who you are, but also for all you can be. About how two people can raise each other up, and heal each other in the meantime, just by being there. And how they can be each other's reason for existing, for loving, for everything.
There was so much love in this book, and I loved all of it.