Growing up in evangelical Christianity, the existence of hell as a place where all unbelievers are forever in pain apart from God was simply taken for granted. To die apart from Christ was to face a torture that would never end. That said, I can't remember the churches I went to dwelling much on hell. It wasn't till my teenage years when these ideas began to take shape. At one point I attended an evangelistic play that literally scared the hell out of me (Heaven's Gates and Hell's Flames it was called). Even though I believed in Jesus, I went forward at the altar call to make sure I would not be dragged away, kicking and screaming, by demons to hell. At the same time, I was beginning to have the sort of deeper conversations you have as you become a teen. With this, I was realizing not all my friends were Christians. My dearest friend at the time was kind of outspoken about it.
For me, the tension was resolved somewhat in my early twenties when I encountered CS Lewis' idea that the gates of hell were locked from the inside. The idea of hell may be abhorrent, but at least God does not send people there, kicking and screaming against their will. Hell, said Lewis (and echoed by Tim Keller in his book The Reason for God) is to eternally choose against God. I could handle that. It left open the door for my non-Christian friends: perhaps they had not chosen against God? Maybe they would somehow avoid hell?
But still. Would I allow someone to forever choose something harmful to themselves? If I love a person, will I not do all I can to save them from self-destructive choices? Questions lingered.
At some point, perhaps my mid to late twenties, I began seriously studying other views of hell. Key in this was the book The Four Views of Hell. That book made it clear that the traditional view of eternal (forever) conscious (you feel it) torment (it is painful) has minimal biblical support. Especially if you seek to interpret the Bible "literally", because to let words like "death" or "perish" mean what they mean is to believe hell is simply the end of existence. How can "death" mean "continued existence forever"? I read Edward Fudge's magnificent book The Fire That Consumes. I learned theologians like Greg Boyd and preachers like John Stott believed in Annihilation. It made sense.
Yet again though, questions lingered. If you simply want to pile up Bible verses, Annihilation does seem to have the most support. But there were still verses that did not fit. A few pointed to the traditional view. A few pointed to the idea that God just might save everyone. Apart from the Bible,questions remained. Can God just forget people? Can God annihilating people really be considered a victory or does not evil then have the last word?
For someone who still works in an evangelical world, these are not fun questions. People are surprisingly connected to the idea of other people being tortured for all eternity. Heck, some of them think God foreordains such torture (don't get me started on this version of Calvinism...). Why must others suffer forever for our faith to mean something? I imagine the idea of hell is a nice way to try to keep people in line. I wonder how many Christians are motivated by fear more than love? We see this in the news with what appears to be great fear of immigrants and atheists and LGBTQ persons. Ultimately, its a fear of God who is full of wrath. The God in view here seems to promise love and forgiveness in Jesus. Of course, if you do not accept such love (or were not elect to it) then God will torture you. How is such a God different from an abusive husband?
I digress. The point is, in many places such questions are not welcome. Rob Bell's book Love Wins was filled with more questions than answers, but just speculating on the possibilities led many to excommunicate him. For the record, I gave that book a positive review.
Speaking of books...this is a book review!
Brad Jersak's book Her Gates will Never Be Shut is a must read for any interested in the topics of heaven and hell. What I most appreciate about this book is how Jersak admits all the views of hell have support in the Bible. One thing that has bothered me over the years is how both traditionalists and annihilationists argue the Bible 100% supports their views. Like I said above, I always saw nagging passages that did not fit. Jersak's honesty in this is refreshing. He is not writing to argue that universalism - God will save everyone in Jesus - is the only view in the Bible. But he is writing to say the Bible points to it in strong ways.
One thing Jersak points out, which was very helpful to me, was that the throughout scripture, judgment is never the last word. I've understood this for decades. In the Old Testament, the prophets always promise judgment. They even use hyperbole at times to make it sound like EVERYONE will be punished. Yet after judgment, consistently the last word is salvation and hope. The annihilation view argues that a day will come when the last word will not be salvation and hope, but punishment. Jersak's point is that when we come to the very end of the last book of the Bible, we still see the last word is hope. In Revelation 20 evil is destroyed, the dead are judged, satan and death are cast into the Lake of Fire. Then in Revelation 21-22 we get the New Jerusalem where there are no more tears or pain. But look closer: the gates are never shut. The kings of the world are welcomed in. The water from the New Jerusalem is for the healing of the nations.
Who are these people if the only people left are already the saved?
The implication is, there is hope. The story of scripture does not end with some people saved and some people damned. It ends with a continued opening for salvation.
A few months ago, reading David Bentley Hart's essay on universalism in The Hidden and the Manifest, I was in tears. It seems too good to be true. Jersak's book brought me to tears again. Is God really that loving? Is it possible?
There are lots of other arguments here. Jersak argues that the purpose of punishment throughout the Bible is so the one experiencing it can grow and change. What kind of good Father punishes just to punish? In other words, to believe Jesus will ultimately save everyone is not to totally reject hell. This is not some weak-willed soft idea that everyone is fine how they are. Hell is still real. Only, it serves a purpose beyond just torturing people forever. Hell is for purgation, for discipline and change. Or, to put it another way, in the Incarnation, God has gone into all corners of the cosmos. After his crucifixion, in the descent into hell, God has even gone to the darkest corners of hell. There is nowhere apart from God's presence. Sadly, some people experience God's presence as a negative. For those filled with hate and anger and lust and pride, to be with the God who is a consuming fire is to suffer. But amidst this suffering, the hope is as people's sin is burned away they will see God for who God truly is and turn from fear and hate to love.
Am I a universalist now? Do I believe everyone will be saved?
I don't know. I'm less sure of most things of this sort then I used to be. But I am more sure that God's love is deeper than I ever imagined and I am more hopeful that God, like a loving parent, will never stop pursuing all of his children.