I think I automatically resent any book that slows me down this much from my to-read list and that I have to struggle to make progress through. I seemed to read and read and read and still find myself 10%, or 11%, or 14% complete. (Note: 82% to 96%, for example, went by in a flash). Though it is a fairly long book, almost as long as this review, my progress was slow regardless of the length.
I was also frustrated by the fact that this disturbing man Eric Blair, and there’s no other way to describe him, is portrayed through a novel that is practically one continuous unfiltered inner monologue, also somewhat like this review. I have read plenty of historical fiction and some based on true characters, but generally not this invasive into the mind of a real person who we couldn’t otherwise know. Then, I find that there was no authors note (at least not in my advanced copy) at the end to give me a sense of clarity and finality and to know how much of this was true and from where the information was sourced.
Further frustrating, especially at the beginning, was how the book felt like it was written in the time in which it was set with the language as it would have been written and so many references to local terms and of the time, and his various specific references to the life of an Eton student, all beyond what a typical historical fiction novel would, and without explanations either within the sentences themselves or even through a glossary. I later read, after skipping forward and finding no authors notes, that Eric Blair, writing as George Orwell, did write a semi-autobiographical book about Burma, but it was apparently based on his final posting, which was just a drop in the bucket of his experiences in Burma.
If he was truly as troubled and as self absorbed, I find it both easy to see him able to write such disturbing books like “1984” and “Animal Farm”, but also shocked that the kid on the boat could even contemplate such expansive ideas. You can catch a tiny glimpse of the wheels of his mind turning though through his love or H. G. Wells, Kipling, and other provocative authors of the time.
If I was so frustrated by the slow progression, the lack of context clues, the literary license to put words in the mouth of an infamous author, and the unyielding cringeworthiness of the character’s behavior, how could I rate this book as highly as I did? I did finally turn a slight corner where I became just a tiny bit numb to the cringing, though certainly not entirely, and was invested in his journey and also occasionally hopeful once he began establishing a little empathy for the “natives “. It’s still pretty cringe-worthy, though you can also almost understand how the system sometimes forced him into his unacceptable, sometimes depending on your point of view, behavior.
I think the saving grace was when I searched and saw that he left Burma after five-and-a-half years due to ongoing complications of dengue fever. There were so many times when I felt that he would be thrown out of the police force in disgrace and to know that he left on acceptable, basically on a technicality, was somewhat comforting.
As an aside, I wondered throughout the second half of the book, if Blair/Orwell truly experienced and perpetuated the risky behavior, how long it took him to realize that his troubles with breathing and stamina were due to his incessant smoking. I also wondered about the women who eventually became his wives (though one for barely any time before his death) and about his child, neither of which ever seemed a possibility for young Eric Blair.
You will feel angst reading this book. You will want to give up but will feel a sense of accomplishment having made the five-plus- year, and that feels like almost as long as it took me to read this, journey with him in Burma where he came as a child and left as a slightly naïve man. How he could move on from there is the mystery to me.
I received a free copy of this book from NetGalley in exchange for providing an unbiased review.