Omg, I have finals papers to write, but I’d rather write an essay on my experience reading this. I feel like good holiday reads are fairly challenging to find, but I was desperately in the mood for one. Although I was worried it would end in disappointment, my expectation was that it would be because it was too cringey or too Hallmark. Not because the MMC became increasingly insufferable.
I have to say that I was entertained by this book, and I was eager to continue picking it up. I was almost willing to look over my dislike for the MMC, but it just became too much for me in the end.
He is so ridiculously cocky and arrogant for absolutely no reason. No one in this town even likes him, yet he is so entitled to be there and feels so entitled to Eve, while he is literally engaged. There is borderline cheating going on due to his insistence that he is meant to be with Eve. Meanwhile, he made no effort prior to this to even acknowledge his “inevitable love.” It seems more like he knew Eve would be there at the end of the day and waited until he got his financial benefits from Caryn before pursuing Eve again, after absolutely shattering her heart and their relationship with no closure. I enjoyed and respected Eve far more, but the faster she fell for his bullshit, the faster that was lost. He does not respect her boundaries WHATSOEVER!!!!!! He is so impatient and inconsiderate, and she somehow can’t get enough of him. His “gift” was the biggest love bomb ever. Do I believe that he could have been manipulated by Caryn and her father? Yes. Do I think that justifies or excuses his behavior? No. Somehow Zane is excused for literally disappearing on Eve (AND HIS FATHER!!!) for five years without comment due to the financial offer that was presented to him, which he did not communicate with anyone in his personal life as it occurred. So unbelievable to me. There was no narrative implying that he needed those funds so desperately, and even if that were true, he didn’t even send his father money, who arguably really did need help financially. How are they high school sweethearts and soulmates who are bonded through grief, but Zane doesn’t have one single conversation with Eve the whole entire time he is debating where to go to school, after they literally curated a plan together. I don’t get it. Additionally, every single obstacle that prevented him from coming home was curated by Caryn & her father, yes. But does Zane have no fucking autonomy??? He really let his internship boss control his every waking move to the point of ending his relationship with his “soulmate” and essentially his father. HE DIDN’T RETURN HOME FOR FIVE YEARS DUE TO SOMETHING “coming up” EVERY TIME??? If someone if that important to you, you MAKE TIME. If someone is your soulmate, the love of your life, or your only surviving parent, YOU MAKE TIME!!!!! What on earth. Not even a phone call. So ridiculous. When I got to the end of the book and I saw “That Christmas” presented as the story of how Zane messes up, I actually thought it was a continuation of this plot and how he unsurprisingly messes up again because that’s actually what I would expect.