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254 pages, Kindle Edition
First published May 6, 2025
"They're amazed we still know their dialect." My uncle Bob nudged me with his elbow. "They think we would have forgotten it by know."
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My father's generation will be the last of our Malaysian family to speak Longyan. Uncle Boon's sons, my cousins, had been raised in Singapore and learned mandatory Mandarin in school. My brothers and I knew no Chinese languages. When our father and aunts and uncles died, there would be no one left who remembered Longyan. Our family's connection to the language and the village would sever as future generations branched farther and farther away from this place that we came from. (31)
Mythology is born from a desire for belonging. The history that I inherited as a child left me desperate for an origin story, something that could redeem my foreignness, my attempted assimilation, my un-belonging. I thought that journeying to my family's ancestral village in Fujian would give me a story, one that was neat and arching, that could show me a way to move forward. But my attempt to graft the past and future failed. As I left Longyan, I couldn't skirt my disappointment in finding myself a stranger in my ancestor's land. The story I had told myself--one of fantasy, one of a tulou, one of an authentic self--fell away as southern China disappeared out the window... It was not simply language or geographical distance that made me a stranger in the village. History had been severed somewhere. I had thought the roots would be waiting for me, but time passes, wounds heal over, weeds grow. My dream of a homecoming was a mythology I had inherited from the remnants of empire. (41)
Authenticity is prized high in culture. We want "authentic" food, "authentic" travel, and "authentic" experiences. "Authentic" may as well be synonymous with "real." But authenticity is a nebulous quality. As the Silk Roads taught us, societies have been exchanging food, ideas, religions, and genetics for thousands of years. I wonder when an inauthentic creation becomes a style in its own right. (82)