I won this book through a Goodreads giveaway in exchange for an honest review. Thanks to Harper for choosing me.
Even before I started reading this book, I knew without a doubt that it was going to shatter my soul. I was still drawn to it and I was fully invested in the story, utterly consumed by it. From beginning to end. If I could, I’d give this book an infinite number of stars. ♾️⭐
The relationship between Artem and Yuri is pure and wholesome. Yuri’s innocence is a breath of fresh air the entire journey. Watching them together, having each other’s backs and taking care of the other was beautiful. Viktor and Artem’s friendship is pure and untainted until suddenly they reach a point of no return and although they drift apart for a time eventually their friendship prevails – their brotherhood is solidified. Watching them come back to one another was magical. The relief was palpable for both boys.
Sam Wachman does an incredible job of transporting his readers to Ukraine. I spent time inside a treehouse with two young boys whose friendship was their entire world. I spent time with them under the cover of night as they watched horror movies while Titka Natasha and Dyadko Sasha slept in the other room. I walked beside Mama as she did the best she could to care for her boys. I spent quality time with Did Pasha in the Sunflower fields as he taught his grandchildren who they were as he shared his life story with them. I sat on the windowsill with Artem and Yuri and smiled along with them as they strengthened their bond. I felt the fear, the worry, the confusion and the pain as two boys had their childhood extinguished within the confines of a toy chest in mere seconds. I traveled alongside the brothers as they ran for their lives, hoping to survive the atrocity they had just been forced to witness. I felt their grief, their heartache and their eventual relief when they were re-united with Tato. He made me feel like I was running beside them, hopping on the train with them, sitting right by their side as it made its way across Ukraine to safe harbor. I witnessed the bravery it took for Artem to openly be who he is, for him to take care of Yuri, and finally to take the steps to take care of himself. There’s a moment between Titka Natasha and Artem that will stay with me forever. It seems that a mother always knows exactly what a son needs to hear at the exact right moment and I felt as if I was sitting right there with her in that moment.
My heart is in shambles, I haven’t been able to stop the tears and yet out of their tragedy comes one of the most beautiful books I’ve ever had the opportunity to read- I will be forever grateful that I was picked to read this book. It deals with the heaviest of topics – war, sexual identity, death and grief. It also shows us the other side of that – love, bravery, finding yourself, acceptance, brotherhood and friendship.
Did Pasha, Tato, Mama, Dyadko Sasha, Titka Natasha, Viktor, Yuri and Artem have all burrowed their way into my heart. I know for a fact that I will never be able to forget any of them. Their story has been etched permanently onto my soul.
Although it’s fiction, this book can be and is many people’s reality. I can go on and on about all the reasons this book is amazing, but no words that come to mind do it justice. I will say to go into it prepared to be torn to pieces again and again, and walk into it with your heart open. It will break your heart and also fill it to the brim with so much love. It overflows on every page throughout the book even when you think there’s no way love could be present in that moment, the pain I feel is completely worth it to know Artem Vovchenko.