this might be my favorite book ever, currently sobbing after devouring it the last two days, I’ll be back with a full review later once I collect my thoughts and feel my feelings
Every line of this was intentional and interlaced with emotion. I felt like we really knew the characters, and felt the emotions they were feeling. If my teenage self would have read this, I think it would’ve been equally helpful and destructive for me as I related as a teenager (and in a few ways now) to Rosie in an unfortunate number of ways. Living to please others because she never gave herself permission to pursue what she wanted. The checking. Playing it safe with her career. being spineless in ways, as Will told her.
this book, if it’s your type (it seems to be polarizing), is the type to etch itself into your soul forever. I can’t recall a book making me feel the way this one does. It helped me realize that I much prefer fiction about love stories, rather than romance novels. The right person/wrong time, star crossed lovers, good girl falling for a bad guy, & it’s always been you type of tropes have me in a chokehold & I LOVE LOVE LOVE following couples over the spans of their lives (which we do in this one - from late teens through early 40s) & through all of the chaos and trauma that years together brings, rather than wishing to see more of a couple - which is how I typically feel after reading romance books. And I don’t know what it is about the innocence, intensity, and hopeless romanticism of first love that I love reading about, but when authors do it justice and capture how all-consuming of a feeling it is, it just makes me love the book so much more.
The writing was so poignant and fluid. The lack of quotation marks was an adjustment at first, but I really liked the rhythm it provided and feel as though it helped play into the emotion Daverley’s writing so powerfully evokes. I didn’t have my tabs or highlighter on me for much of this book & found myself dog earring nearly every page to go back and highlight once I could - the way certain fears and emotions were described both in thought and in dialogue between the characters was so concise, yet profound.
I’m the #1 hater of the miscommunication trope, because I feel like it’s primarily used in romance novels as the third act argument/breakup just to throw a little wrench in an otherwise too perfect story. I’ve seen a lot of reviews stating that the miscommunication was too much - but in my eyes, the miscommunication between Will & Rosie was primarily early in their lives as teenagers, comprised of things left unsaid for valid reasons, and honestly made sense for their age. As they got older and would grow apart and come back together, I felt like it was due to misfortune rather than miscommunication. The hard moments always brought them back to one another - not as each other’s safe space - but as the place they felt most understood. And when they would go their separate ways, their reasoning was always communicated once they were out of college from what I remember, so simplifying the complexity of what they went through as adults as miscommunication doesn’t feel right.
Overall, I loved how we could feel the yearning they experienced as they would consider the what ifs of their lives had they given in to one another or were not separated by misfortune or their own complacency. Always holding onto the hope that their “one day” would come and never fully letting go, after so many years of pining for one another. How they showed up for one another when they needed it most, loved one another in the smallest of ways that their other respective partners failed to do. Although I was crying my eyes out when Will told Rosie to find out WHAT rather than who she wants, I absolutely love how Daverley had Will & Rosie find themselves separately, without influence from one another & had them take the time to figure themselves out before realizing even chasing what they wanted would leave them just short of satisfied, as they didn’t feel they were fully living if it weren’t with each other.
My biggest qualm with the book, although it’s not something that impacts my rating and rather just plays into Rosie’s flawed character, was that Will really did deserve better than Rosie after all the stringing along since she couldn’t be honest with herself about what she wanted, because she didn’t know how to. She obviously was in a unique situation with Simon, but that relationship with Simon was the epitome of Rosie subconsciously playing her life safe, and it took her playing it safe in her love life and career to find her way back to herself, and ultimately, to Will. Without the tragic events that kept them coming back to one another, I don’t think I would’ve been able to root for them throughout the whole story in the way that I did and likely would have become sick of the on again, off again.
Overall, my favorite read of 2024 so far & RUNNING to read every book like this one.