✰ 2.75 stars ✰
“So, no. I’ve never believed
in some fairy-tale future.
But I’ve always hoped
for happiness.”
There was a time when I felt that Young Adult books were written simply for its intended age-audience. But, now I don't know which target audience authors are writing for. 🤔 Let alone, I can't understand that if I were a high school librarian, who would I recommend this to? What was the aim of this book, in particular? Is it to tell readers that things have to go worse before they become better? 🥺 That foster kids on their own are worse off than when they are with people who may have different values and opinions than them, but at least they'll have a warm bed and a hot meal rather than living on the streets? Does this book show me that some horribly vile and evil people pay for their crimes and some get away from it, and that's simply the reality of life? Do I believe that even when siblings of a deep bond are separated one way or another, life will find a way to bring them back together? That they Sync not only in their pains, but in the hope for happiness, too? ❤️🩹❤️🩹
I'm just so confused, as to what good did this read leave me with. 🙁 I don't deny Ellen Hopkins has the innate ability to address conflicted and challenging issues in a creative way - having the perspectives of two seventeen-year-old twin siblings - Storm and Lake be told in verse, allowing their thoughts and emotions to seamlessly parallel one another - 'we could “tell” each other things without saying a word.' 🫂 She has an impressive backlog of books that does not shy from attacking issues head-on; and while I may have only read one of their middle grade novels, I do appreciate how she is able to tell a story in verse, effectively so. 👍🏻👍🏻
“We crash into each other,
but the only pain is what we’ve held
inside for so very long.
It escapes in two exhaled words.
“Lake.” Storm.”
But, perhaps my issues lie in the content of the story, itself. I'm not denying that foster care is not without its concerns and its problems. I don't deny that children in foster care have to deal with a lot worse than kids who have the luxury of having the basic necessities of life that we take for granted - safety and love. 😥 But, as much as the struggles are very much real and existing, at times, the need to pile upon more and more pains and struggles starts to feel a bit manipulative and extraneous. 'Hold on to your dreams, you hear? Someone has to.'
I get that we have to address how unjust it is that Lake, while seeking love and solace in the arms of Parker, ended up being one of the reasons why she could not stay at a religious home, hence her departure to the street. I understand the unfairness of Storm finding love with someone who was a victim of such a horrific crime that it cost dearly - for them, both. 😔 But, it seemed so much - like, it was emphasizing that things had to take a turn for the absolute worse - to sink the lowest - drugs, sexual assault, anger control, before things could become better.
I appreciated the dedication - it rang true. But, then I felt at odds with the author's note - at how she hoped this would shed light on foster care and what changes are necessary to give better and brighter opportunities for foster kids so that they too can have a brighter future. So, does she want young adult readers in their school years to set on a path to help those? 🤨 Because, let's not forget this is a young adult novel! Is it for kids to realize that adult supervision and guidance is the only way to happiness? 'I want you to know I listened.' So, why are these authors not writing with the intentions of having them in mind? If I were to give this to a sixteen-year-old, do I have to then warn them beforehand of the many trigger warnings included? 😟 Or should I simply say this will encourage you to look beyond the comforts of your happiness and learn to appreciate them for there are those who are less fortunate than yourself.
It is a puzzling notion for which I think I will forever be at a loss at. 😔
It felt so bleak and traumatic and hopelessly disheartening, unnecessarily so. 😢💔 What right person would give this to a teenager and say read this? To feel sorry for foster kids at the horrible hand life has dealt them? To pity and empathize and then feel it in their hearts to set out on a path to right the wrong in the system? When, even a child who had depression was unable to find solace in her heart. This is something that is bothering me, and I think, will continue to bother me now; perhaps as a young adult I would have never seen it in that light.
Not to mention that ending! 😩 After all the talk about how in sync the twins are, to just end it so abruptly like that. Very rude and very unfair, considering the efforts they went through to get to a place of happiness. 🙎🏻♀️
“The thing about foster kids,
at least most of the ones I’ve known,
is that no one supports their dreams.
After a while they figure why bother.”
Why do you bother?”
But, it is an eye-opener; it is a powerful nod and nudge to pay attention; to see that there are good people and bad people in this world, and our choices decide which path will lead us to the right kind of people.
Having it written in verse made the emotions shine deeper; it flowed in a rhythmic pace that also captured their own individual struggles. I was a bit worried about the large page quantity, but once it began, it was very easy to fall into the rhythm of their story I wish we could have played a bit more on the connection between Storm and Lake; we felt that little sparkle hint at the start, but as their lives worsened, so too did that bond of seeking out on another - in thought and in spirit. 'Storm and I weren’t worth the bother. Except, we were.' 🥺 The different paths their lives take was heartbreaking to witness - their reason for separation, even more painful.
Life spirals out of control, without their control, which makes it so much worse to see. I did not fault either of them for their actions, their emotions, or their desire to break free - to demand justice, or at least seek out happiness in the hopes of simply being themselves. 🫶🏻🫶🏻 For while the ending ends with me wanting a little bit more closure, there is that faint glimmer of hope that shows that even after the darkness, light manages to find a way to shine through. And to hold onto that feeling, is all that anyone could hope for. 🙏🏻