y’all really want me to root for someone whose name means pillow in German 👁👄👁
— 3.5 stars rounded up
ACTUAL REVIEW: After initially struggling with the first few chapters of this novel, I’m happy to say it managed to convince me to keep reading to the point where I finished the last 60% in one go. Consider me SAT. 🧎🏼♀️
I still think my original comment/crack review is one of the funniest things I have ever contributed to this platform, but I’m happy to tell you all: the MC being called pillow didn’t bother me in the slightest. I was too focused on the plot and the characters’ relationships to pay any heed to Kissen’s German doppelgänger. 🛌
But back to Hannah Kaner’s more than solid debut novel about Gods and the art of killing them.
First off: this fictional world is queer-normative, and I literally couldn’t be more here for it. Queer-normative worlds will always have me assume every single character is queer, so when one of the characters turned out to be straight, I was shook, lmao. Had legitimately forgotten hets can exist in queer-normative worlds, too. A shocker, I know. Their lifestyle has to be everywhere. 😮💨😩
The novel’s concept is one of its major draws, IMO. A world that was once the breeding place for gods of every variety, size, and purpose. A country under the rule of the Prince who declared war on all gods still living, as well as on their rituals, customs, and their followers as a result of the terrible war on humankind that was fought and won by the Kingdom, though dearly paid for. And in all this: Kissen – a Godslayer, veiga – who tracks and hunts down remaining Gods.
While the fantasy genre is no stranger to divine characters, Kaner does something interesting with the concept by closely intertwining the Gods’ fates with humanity. Gods can only come into existence if people believe in and pray to them. The more shrines people build and the more offerings they bring, the stronger the God. This makes Kissen’s work more interesting in so far that she is more than just a killer of Gods, she is also a hunter of their symbols, and thus equally feared and despised by those who still pray to the beings of old.
Kissen is a breath of fresh air in today’s fantasy landscape. While the character still displays some tropey traits such as being orphaned at a young age, and consequently being a self-reliant, mulishly stubborn, hides-her-heart-behind-high-walls protagonist, she is also hella queer, knows how to fight and fights well!! (let’s not talk about those FMC that are either too overpowered and naturally gifted at literally every single thing they do or, while said to be a great warrior, actually aren’t), disabled (the disability rep in this novel was outstanding), and the brains to know when a situation is outside her capabilities. All in all, Kissen felt very well-rounded, and I enjoyed reading her POV.
The other characters we follow through the course of the novel are Elogast, currently a baker but formerly the Prince’s most-trusted knight suffering from PTSD from his time in the war; Inara, a young noble’s daughter who spent her short life hidden away from prying eyes to a point where no one knows she exists; and Skedi, the hare-deer-bird God of White Lies who is mysteriously bound to her, and whose existence puts both their lives at incredible risk.
All of the above characters I found engaging and well-written. Their POVs were unfortunately not as unique as I would have liked, so I sometimes forgot whose POV I was reading, meaning I had to go back to the chapter’s title page to remind myself.
Out of the four, Elogast was probably my favourite though I love that even though this is an adult fantasy novel, the author made a child a key character in her narrative. Inara made for an interesting addition to the group’s dynamic. But back to Elogast… 🧑🏿🍳 Is it too spoilery to say this is a fantasy novel with a romantic side plot?? Those will, unfortunately, always slap, and I will always eat them up, I can’t help it. 🫡 The battle at the end and the things leading up to it were exciting, sure, but the main reason I sped through the second half is because there was a good ol’ slow-burn romance and you know how I love those.
I guess my main gripe with the story was the novel’s length in combination with how relatively long things took to finally kick off. The main part is spent on the road, meaning only the novel’s beginning and ending were not about moving from one place to another. The characters travel, and travel, and travel, and it’s giving Fellowship of the Ring except for the fact that they are four, not nine and that with one exception, all of them are gay (“but the Fellowship is gay, too!!” I know, my dear, but the general public isn’t ready for that quite yet). To me, it only started to feel like things got going when the characters were well on their way already which – given the book’s length – was around the 30% mark. The book was simply a bit too short for an exposition this long.
However, despite the main plot taking just a little too long to kick off and the novel being more of a road trippidy-dippidy narrative, the book’s ending is nothing but explosive. The final chapters are so intense, you will not want to put the book down. I haven’t been excited about an Illumicrate monthly pick in a long time, and I will make sure to read the sequel as soon as it's out.