Before I start raving over this poetry collection, I have a confession to make.
I have been looking at a little smear of blood on the floor
A tiny 'inconsequential' critter that I accidentally crushed by the door
I saw its crushed body go limp, felt remorse, and guilt poking my ribs
So I gave its body over to soft mother earth, nearby the flowerbeds
Now I sit here and ponder, over how similar we are, soft and crushable
Dear God, to think that I have been a soft little critter to some people
But I have also been a tyrant, to that soft little critter, oh my God
And I hope he forgave me before his tiny little spirit left his soft body
I saw his spirit and knew it was a good one, I felt forgiven by him
Dear God, please forgive me and forgive my tyranny and forgive those who have looked at me and found me to be a soft little critter. Please let me remain gentle always because I have seen some of the softest people 'toughen up' as the years pass them by. When I was a little girl, my mum used to tell me to brush my teeth and wash my face before bed, and then we used to clean our hearts with gentle forgiveness and send soft loving prayers to those who had not been gentle with us.
Sometimes, I feel as if my mother prepared me for some other world because whenever someone is not gentle with me, I feel a strange compassion for them, and then I must send those gentle prayers heavenward. It's not something I do purposefully, it just happens. Maybe, she wished to prepare me for paradise. Mother, I wish I was tougher than you brought me up to be and now I can't change. Oh God, is this how I will always be?
What hurts me is not the pain of being crushed but the acute consciousness of the pain of the other, like an intrinsic cry for help that wants to be let out but can't be let out so I pray to God to ease things and make things light for them. Thank you Allah for this gentleness! Please let me retain it without questioning it any further.
Play the Piano Drunk Like a Percussion Instrument Until the Fingers Begin to Bleed a Bit?
Whenever I read Bukowski, I plead to God that this man could have used some help.
Bukowski, with his dirty old dog syndrome, labeled as a drunk sexist misogynist womanizer has divulged in his poetry a dystopian horror set in post-modern society except that it is real. I find it vastly amusing when people leap at the opportunity to condemn this raving old man who has been dead for over 2 decades. I secretly wish and pray God sends no one to hell, only to purgatory!