What do you think?
Rate this book


118 pages, Kindle Edition
Published April 8, 2025
I write the poem to forget you. To study you.
To keep you safe. Whichever you can forgive.
With a metre that mocks your palpitations,
a slant rhyme placing tomb on top of you.
Because like you I have never been as perfect
as a first-born son in his mother’s eyes.
I grew up in a silent house
but faith is noisy faith sounds like scraping chairs and rustling envelopes
feedback from a dented microphone
the laughter of women counting coins in the back roon the choir coordinator's squeaking shoes mama joy scoffing at sister anne's puff puff
someone would shout glory whenever john 10:10 was rea a guttural cry that juddered my soles
it was forty days and nights before I realised that the voice
was mine
there is a certain light that only shines on closed eyes you feel its warmth on your second skin and run towards it while standing still
…..
this is your last time don't tell a soul
leave quietly halfway through the message
out the back door that a dove once flew into
…..
tear out the page with colossians 3:18 underlined
struggle to pray for two years after
forgetting how …. wondering why
when a pastor stops you in the street
invites you back
tell him that the lost sheep wasn't lost
she was searching
and in that wilderness she found
not a burning bush but a smouldering weed
and its fire doesn't speak but it keeps her warm
and most days that is enough