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This is a true and honest account of the abuse I suffered at the hands of my alcoholic step father, from the age of seven. And how I was at the mercy of his control for many years. Child called it and damaged were my inspirations for telling my own story, as I know how they felt.

254 pages, Paperback

First published May 10, 2014

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39 reviews
November 30, 2017
Why

I want to be careful and not give too much away. This is a book that I cried over and part of me didn't want to read any more but a bigger part of me had to read on to know how it ends. It's hard to read about bad things happening to a child but the truth is these things happen every day. I just kept reading and thinking something good has to come into her life and she has to find happiness. I won't tell you if she did or not because I don't want to give up the ending. But I suggest having tissues by you as you read this. It's written in a way that you feel you know this girl. You can feel her pain. I recommend this anyone as long as you don't have triggers when reading about abuse in all forms.
2 reviews
February 16, 2021
What vile despicable people are written about in this book. It is hard to comprehend that this kind of thing does happen, and I can only hope that they serve the punishment given out. Although this in no way would make up for the damage done to this young girl.
In reading this, at times I felt that I should not be invading the privacy of this young girls worst moments, and I shall not read another book along this line. Not because I am in denial that this happens, I am fully aware that it does, but rather I felt somewhat voyeuristic in doing so, and I felt my reading this book did not help anyone in a constructive manner. I can only wish the author the very best for her future, and commend her for finally seeking help and assisting getting those who did this to her put behind bars, where I can only hope they are thoroughly miserable.
17 reviews
February 20, 2024
Why is a good question!

There is no answer to the question. I have seen sexual molestation. It is still amazing to me that a mother will stand by and let it happen. Something like this happened to my 2 girlfriends. I found out and brought them into my house. I was 15. It did no good. The police took them away, and it went on. They felt the girls should go back to their stepfather and mother. I am still asking why. They were both pregnant, by the time I was 16. The oldest turned 18 and moved in us. The 12 year-old gave birth at 13, and was forced to keep that child, while her stepfather continued to rape her. It haunts me.
17 reviews1 follower
May 30, 2020
Sometimes it was hard to read how much this girl endured

I try to believe there is some good in all people, then you read a story of an innocent child's nightmarish abuse and you realize thats not true. Some people are plain evil without an iota of feeling or compassion. Truly scary. Four stars only because of the abrupt ending. Wanted to hear some pleasantries in Marie's life for a change. Good luck and God bless
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October 27, 2024
What is described here, the endless abuse from childhood years on, is terrible. Since I believe that it is extremely important for survivors to be heard I'd usually gladly give five stars. However, the book is not really well-written, with long more or less reporting passages, grammar mistakes, and a monotonous tone that made this harder to read than it should be. Maybe the book was published before it was edited. 3.5 out of 5 stars.
6 reviews
December 31, 2017
Just alright .

A few mistakes that me think she was filling in some places, so the book would be longer.
I don't know how much of it is true? A part about her being kept in a cabinet is iffy. Little mistakes are what makes this book a 1 star.
I don't remember if I paid $2.99 for this but, I hope I didn't. It is a horrible story either way..
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2 reviews
September 1, 2018
Why

Although this book was disturbing at times, I couldn't put it down. The little girl fought for her life time and time again. I highly recommend this book, but it is not for the weak.
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7 reviews6 followers
September 16, 2019
I appreciate this woman telling her story, but she’s clearly not an author. It doesn’t even seem like an editor was hired to help produce this book. It’s full of grammatical errors, typos, and out of place sentences.
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418 reviews5 followers
March 21, 2025
The amount of horrible things Marie endured is beyond comprehension. I loved how the beginning of the book was written out like how a 7 year old would speak. It really made me connect and it was so emotional. Why is a very good question.
1 review
September 8, 2017
Eye opening

This one is a tear jerker but everyone deserves love and care, this is so worth the read and hard to put down
3 reviews
September 30, 2018
Very good book did not want to put it down. Was not happy with the ending. It’s like she just dropped the story with questions unanswered. Maybe she could write a second one! WHY 2
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52 reviews
March 21, 2020
Flat ending

Good book but the ending was very flat but a good read all in all hence the 5 star rating
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604 reviews5 followers
December 25, 2020
Why

This is a good book about a young girl who lives with her abusive mother and alcoholic step father who also unused and sexualy abused her
1 review
January 14, 2021
Good read

Good book couldn't put it down. At times some of it was hard to believe. Still a good book to read.
5 reviews
May 22, 2021
Why

Their is so much evil in this world. Heartbreaking to read but is definitely an eye opener what children go through
1 review
June 5, 2021
Couldn't put down heartbreaking

Amazing story of resilience against truma and an inspiring read for others who have experienced childhood abuse. .big hugs to marie
2 reviews
January 30, 2022
Very good read

I enjoyed this book I will recommend it to my friends that poor girl growing up like that but in the end she was happy with Simon and her son.
33 reviews
July 30, 2023
Good book!

Harrowing to read but she wins out in the end. Very cool. This poor girl was abused all her life but it is nice to see her happy at the end.
3 reviews
December 14, 2023
Don't bother reading this book

Very disturbing and depressing. There are typos and edit marks in the book. It us hard to believe most of it.
3 reviews
December 29, 2023
Fab book

Such a brave woman who has endured a lot! I couldn't put the book down. I did find the ending so sudden would of loved to have known more after the birth of your son.
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8 reviews
July 10, 2016
Good plot

The grammar was not that great , but the story was good. I feel you could have spoke more about some topics. Like at the end you have Marie becoming pregnant, how long did she wait to let Simeon touch her when she not mentally ready when she was in the hospital? What happened to her mom? What about her sister, why did she hate her so much? What about Alan's sister did they leave her alone? I just feel there are a lot unanswered questions. But the the story was very good, I could never imagine all those horrible things happening to one person. I hope that Marie is in a great place now in her life.

1 review
May 5, 2015
Intensely heartfelt

This book had me thinking about how do people come out the other end of such a horrid childhood. As I read, I couldn't stop to think that Marie was going to end up badly. But aside from all the pain and suffering she went through, she came through it.
Such a good read. I recommend it to those who have been through these same issues. There is hope.
25 reviews1 follower
August 20, 2015
Very sad but captured me. I would recommend this book to other victims of abuse, so they can accept this isn't their fault

Yes this is a very hard book to read as all that this monster Alan has done to damage Marie, and others made her feel worthless. Hopefully she has found her happiness that she deserves.
18 reviews
December 6, 2015
Great book couldn't put the book down its hard to believe what some people have to go threw

It's hard to believe what people ha Togo threats survive I am glad that she made it threw this book.
1 review
December 17, 2015
Why

This is a very difficult book to read but it has a wonderful ending it is truly horrifying that an adult can treat an innocent child this way thank goodness that finally she found someone to trust
7 reviews
February 5, 2016
Wonderful

This was especially something I could relate to. I grew up in dysfunctional family as well and actually helped me with my memories realizing I still haven't dealt with all my demons so thank you e that!
36 reviews2 followers
December 29, 2014
Love it!

I love to read real life stories and this one was a real good one. Thanks for letting me enjoyed it.
4 reviews
March 13, 2015
A tragic story

A tragic story that rips your heart out. It proves that you really can overcome your dire beginnings, grow strong and survive as this writer has.
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