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311 pages, Kindle Edition
First published October 27, 2020
There's only been one time that Rose couldn't stop me from doing the wrong thing and that was a mistake that will haunt me for the rest of my life.






"I hate the feeling of not knowing my own mind, not trusting myself, even if the fact is that I’m not to be trusted."Fern has a very specific routine for her life, one that she is loathe to break. Dinner with Rose happens three times a week, she avoids busy places and prefers quiet spaces, like her library. And everything works. Perfectly.
And that's when Rose reveals a horrible truth - she cannot get pregnant.
“It didn’t take long before Mum’s voice permanently took up residence in my mind. It was clear that something was very wrong with me. I was stupid, lazy, selfish. I didn’t pay enough attention to things; I didn’t look after my sister properly. I was bad.”
But what seemed quite easy on paper soon turns complicated in practice, and the more that Fern pokes at the scab, the more she realizes that Rose is hiding more than she ever could've expected.
“I know you love your sister, but…” He shakes his head, sighs. “Something isn’t right about her. It’s like she doesn’t know where she ends and you begin. It’s like she thinks … you belong to her or something.”
Well...this was thrillingly dark and twisty.
"Maybe when it comes to sisters, boundaries are always a little bit blurry."
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Sisterly relationships are so strange in this way. The way I can be mad at Rose but still want to please her. Be terrified of her and also want to run to her. Hate her and love her, both at the same time. Maybe when it comes to sisters, boundaries are always a little bit blurry. Blurred boundaries, I think, are what sisters do best.
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I try to avoid conversations about things other than books, although I'll occasionally indulge Gayle in a conversation about her garden or her grandchildren, because Rose says it's polite to do this with people who we like.
Sisterly relationships are so strange in this way. The way I can be mad at Rose but still want to please her. Be terrified of her and also want to run to her. Hate her and love her, both at the same time. Maybe when it comes to sisters, boundaries are always a little bit blurry. Blurred boundaries, I think, are what sisters do best.
Asking questions is a tactic I use when small talk is required—it makes you appear interested while simultaneously putting all the effort of the conversation on the other party.






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