This book had a good concept and I would read another from this author!
However, the writing is what made me give a 2/5, and I feel this is expected for a first book.
Marisa grows up in a white community and doesn’t really get to embrace being around black people until her late high school years. It’s at that point when she realizes the racism that’s been around her for years. Then the story amps up.
This is where my 2 stars come in. The book focuses so much on the back and forth of Marisa’s (mainly) teen years that we are missing out on her adult character development. It felt as though the story was dragged out on some topics but then completely skipped over others. Specifically there’s that time Marisa went to Chicago instead of prom. All we saw from that was that she got new clothes. And then grandmama died. THAT’S HUGE!!! Grandmama was a huge part of Marisa’s childhood and all we experienced of that was that Marisa was sad and having trouble coping. One sentence! I felt that some of the fluff could’ve been removed to give room for other things.
Furthermore, the writing jumped topics with no warning. I read this as an ebook, so I’m not sure if the formatting was messed up (as I know it sometimes is), or if that was the intended product. The book would be discussing one topic and then jump months/weeks/days worth of time without even a line between the new paragraph. For me, it would’ve been nice to have something separating the text in those cases.
Lastly, the last 100 pages or so are what took me from a 3 star book to a 2 star book. As I mentioned earlier, it seemed as though Marisa was lacking character development after high school. Marisa never seemed to care about politics until all of a sudden it was thrown into the writing (to be left alone again for another 30 ish book years), there was one chapter that the POVs swapped from Marisa’s to Kyle’s for a single paragraph, and I felt Marisa was less enjoyable of a character.
Marisa is very committed to everything she does, but it never feels that she develops who she is, which is talked about in the last chapter. It always just feels like she’s easily encouraged and takes that to the extreme. It doesn’t help that her adult years were very superficial compared to her adult years. As said above, this just made Marisa not enjoyable to me as a later adult.
Again, this is what I expect from first time authors! I did really enjoy the concept, I just would’ve liked less childhood development (especially because a lot of it was repetitive), and more adult development about her seeing the outside perspective!