This book is the epitome of a Pinterest board that didn't translate well onto the page.
I was being kind when I gave this book 2 stars before, because after ruminating on it (read: complaining with my bestie, with whom I buddy read this with), I realized I fucking hated this book. Which is a goddamn shame, as it usually is, because how the fuck do you mess up such a cool ass concept of an alternate-LA where alchemy reigns supreme and two mafia like groups are at war with each other? and at the center of it all are two childhood friends who never got to explore their innocent lovey dovey feelings for each other? It's a recipe for angst. It basically writes itself with how tragique coded and angst ridden it is wont to be.
AND YET. We are given this fucking mess.
I will give Miss Lu this: top tier generational trauma. That was pure agony. Of all of the pain written into this book—and, mind you, there is quite a bit—Connie and Sam's relationship is probably the most authentic to come out of it. It was raw, it was desperate, and it was both full of hope and despair and, man, oh man, is there anything so tragic as a fraught mother-daughter relationship?
That aside, the only other good thing I could think of was the alchemy itself. The logistics of it were really cool, and if I was a bit more into science, I'd like it more, too. Generally speaking, though, it set a nice stage for a "magic system."
Now for the shit show. Nearly every character besides Sam was a shit show. Ari was, like every single one of Lu's male leads, a pretty boy with no fucking substance. His main job—quite fucking literally—is to be pretty. That is his entire personality with a dash of anxiety to make him seem down to earth and somewhat relatable to the average person. I don't know and I don't give a fuck. He read like a wet cardboard box, and I don't see the appeal. His POV pissed me off every single time I got to it. Nothing pisses me off than wasted potential and lo and behold. That is quite all Ari amounts to. I'm convinced Lu doesn't really know how to write an actual male POV because her other male characters are pretty decent, but when it comes to a POV character? They have no personality. They are beautiful and charming, and I'm just supposed to believe that because it's being forced upon me every goddamn chapter. Shut up.
Next thing was the borderline grooming. Listen, I know it's an adult book, so it can get away with a lot of things, but just because it can does not mean it should. I forget how to mark things as spoilers on the app, so forgive me, but SPOILERS SPOILERS SPOILERS after this —
Both Ari AND Sam are involved with people who aren't each other throughout the course of the book. Who the fuck cares. The issue is that those people are older mentors who have power over them, and these two kids are already in a position where they're being isolated from their family/having to lie to them for their safety and monetary dependency. HOLY shit it left such a bad fucking taste in my mouth. Ruined the entire goddamn book for me.
Listen, I'm not a dark romance reader. Obviously. I hated this.
And, honestly, the more I think about it—that's the problem this godforsaken book, at its core, has: it tries so fucking hard to be something other than a romance book lol. And I SEE RIGHT THROUGH YOU. Lu def loves her romance, I can tell, and when I don't hate them, they're really good! I can get behind a couple of her ships.
No, I don't actually believe this is intended to be a romance, but lorde, it feels so obvious that Sam and Ari's primary relationship (romantic or not) is supposed to be the focus that the rest of it is almost background noise. It feels so disingenuous cause what's the point of everything else?
Like I said: I see right through you.
BUT WAIT, THERE'S MORE. The book is fucking slow. LAWD. Why did it feel like it went on FOR FUCKING EVERRRRR. It's weird cause, while some parts of it were engaging—like Sam's POV, the only times I genuinely found myself wanting to continue—the other parts of it dragged on. I know Lu can write fast-paced, action-packed books, but this one felt lackluster. Lots happened, to be sure, but I think the pace of squeezing in their teen years into a third of the book, then their intro to the alchemy mafia into another part made for an oddly paced book. The rest of it was their adult life where shit went down and things Finally Start Happening, but that beginning was kind of a mess, and it didn't fix itself as we rolled to the end.
I think I got everything down for now. Good god. I kind of wanna hate read book two only to see how it ends because I gave enough of my time seeing this through, but I'll probably have forgotten most of Red City by the time RC2 is out. (Thank god.) I think it's time Marie Lu and I part ways.
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I have many thoughts, and a good 90% of them are scathing. If I remember, and if they are coherent enough, maybe I'll write my review this weekend. Yolo. 1.5 tho, this doesn't deserve even 2 full stars, smh.