This was a much ado about nothing.
FL wakes up. Brushes teeth. Goes for run. Goes for food. Goes to class. Studies a lot. Gets tutored. Goes to sleep. And somewhere between the riveting pages of her daily life, poured over in painstaking detail, are the 3 fugly douche canoes. (Ok, maybe Jasper has some redeeming things going for him but it’s the stinking principle so hear me out when I say “3”.)
This girl puts up with absolute trash. Not just the empty-noggined ML’s but other students harassing her for hoots too. Payton, RJ, “f*ckboys” (plain arseholes) as she likes to call them, and she does f*ck-all to earnestly stand up for herself. I hate it.
I can sympathize that she’s in a tough spot for how she can react as a big, gossip coulomb, ripe starlet but it was frustrating to be empathetic after reading just how much bullsh*t she turned the other cheek for.
She wasn’t completely meek or passive to those that antagonized her so I’ll give her that but she still should have had a waaaaay better way of dealing with the stupid nubbins that provoked or bothered her. She realistically (in my mind) should have had mad practice at it being the song princess icon that she is.
Payton constantly snapping photos of her? Fck pride and normality. Lawyer up.
Her TA forcing tutoring, changing her course schedule, and being an outright pr*ck to her? Switch classes. Ask to take it online. Avoid it until senior year. Idk. Do something than passively watch people make decisions for you.
*groan of frustration*
idk. I just needed her to put up more of a fight against this sh*t and she just doesn’t.😩
Last thing and SPOILER ALERT!
The last chapter ending was ridiculous. The 3 dumb-migos are all brothers? And they’re pissed bc mommy re-married? And they heave all of their resentment at 1 out of 6 other love children their new step-daddy has??
For what reason? Maybe initially, for the first couple of weeks while they were feeling her out, being rancid c*ck-dusters to her make sense bc they’re trying to vent their mommy issues on a harmless stranger. But after months? A whole year? After getting to know her? It is BLISTERINGLY obvious she has no IDEA who these guys are and yet, they belligerently ignore that shinning kernel of obviousness and CONTINUE to be absolute jerk-offs.
Also, it’s completely ridiculous and unbelievable to me no one mentioned at any point that these d*ck-heads were brothers. RJ didn’t let it slip? Payton didn’t mention? Her bestie never once picked up a hint of this in her other classes and living a relatively more normal school experience and removed from the constant KC clusterf*ck?
What reason do these guys really have to be THIS mad at her?
Maybe it’s time I hang up my lover of bully romances hat you guys. I normally love the angst and the fire and the passion and pain that’s all so raw- and normally leads to some kick arse groveling- but this read was just mean for no reason. There’s no reason to like the male idiots. There’s no passionate self-righteous justice I feel from the FL when she’s standing up for herself (bc she’s not really doing a good job of it) or getting to the big revelation about her newest “family” members.
I respect the heck out of her casual third party, cautious observer mindset she has tho. She’s not falling over herself or for these guys within the first couple of chapters and even in the last couple of them her opinions of them haven’t gotten better, she doesn’t love them in the least (as far as I can tell, I was skimming like hell at that point) and at best she’s slightly reluctantly titillated by the Ninja kisses and the Music love connection (the TA is still a blackhole of pompous d*ck face).
I think my favorite part about the last chapter is it sounds like to save her mental and extract herself from an absolutely toxic environment, she did the wise thing and left. She spared literally no more thought on the people encroaching upon her life and leeching what little of a safe space and taste of normality that she could get being who she is. What reason does she have to stay? Who does she owe it to? Not the 3 jerkoffs. Not her very hands off father. Not anyone else.
I hope she burns them (the guys) if they come crawling back for her. I hope she clearly doesn’t give af about them anymore and she doesn’t let them affect her. I hope she warns her other siblings about what stinking marmot weasels they are. I hope, if these guys do manage to get a second chance (bc they always do) they grow rapidly and stunningly as characters and not just living, walking, arrogant phalluses.
Sorry not sorry. ✨🫶🏻💀 I just want more for our girl.