3.5 ⭐ (Looong rambling 😅)
Hmmm, it wasn't bad, but I just couldn't take it seriously because of Massimo and his alter ego. 😅
This is slowburn-ish because of the constant push and pull between the MCs—well, mostly on Massimo's (38) part. They were step-siblings after all, and with the Cosa Nostra being all traditional and stuff, their relationship—or the absence of one—would definitely raise some eyebrows, especially since he’s the Don.
So the first half of the story was the intro to the start of their correspondence. Zahara (21) started writing letters to Massimo when she was just 14 for a school assignment. Eventually, it became her way of sharing her thoughts that she couldn’t really say out loud to anyone, and she thinks he wasn’t even reading any of her letters. What’s the worst that could happen, right?
But then one day he replied, and that's when he began planting little seeds in his letters, hoping she'd become his spy. Massimo knew this was wrong because she's a teenager but still went ahead with it as he sees her as an asset and nothing more. Long story short, she became one of his eyes on the outside since she was 15.
When she turned 18, they finally met in person for the first time, and it just happened to be at her father's funeral. That's when things started to shift between them, and Massimo found himself thinking about doing a lot of things with Zahara that definitely crossed the line of being just stepsiblings. 🫣😅
As for Zahara, she finally figured out her feelings for him even before she turned legal and before they actually met. She mentioned that she was drawn to his intelligence and all the things she discovered during their years of being pen pals. And their in-person meeting just confirms what she already felt deep down.
Anyway, three years later after that first meeting, Massimo ended up getting out six months earlier before his 18-year sentence was up.
His first agenda, though? It was trying to get laid so he could move past what he feels for Zahara. Once he got out of prison, he instructed one of his trusted men to drive him to a strip club. But his junk didn't work for anyone else, so he ended up leaving the place. 😑
After that, it took him days to sort out his things before he finally decided to bring her to move in with him.
Basically, the first half of the story was him trying to put distance between them yet failing every time. Even though this internal struggle went on longer than it probably should have, I think Massimo handled it in a pretty decent way. He could be pretty abrasive and ruthless to other people, but he was never like that with Zahara, and I really appreciate that about him. He was really nice and gentle, even though he was trying to push her away for both of their sakes.
They did get frisky at the 57% mark, only for him to backtrack when he found out she had never been with a man before. So, once more, we have this long back-and-forth until they finally come clean about their feelings for one another. They finally decide to be together at the 66% mark. I think the reason I enjoyed it was that they were both fully committed when it finally happened, and they understood their feelings for each other and are on the same page.
On the other hand, about the things I wasn't a fan of:
First was the ongoing dialogue between Massimo and his alter ego. 😅 At times, the convos he has with himself seem to stretch on much longer than he ever did with Zahara. I really can't take that seriously. 😭 He was often found talking loudly to himself. While I know it's not entirely a bad thing, for a Don I think that's not quite a good impression. 🫣
Then this alter ego is constantly pissing him off. It seems like he might have a split personality. I mean, how can he be all chill one minute and then just blow up the next, only to go back to being calm again? There were so many mood swings in the book, and I’m not sure if it’s meant to be funny, but I think they were?? 😅
Second was Zahara's attitude in the beginning. She says one thing but does the opposite of it. In the first half, when she thought Massimo was not interested in her, she kept saying she finally got it and would stop daydreaming about him, only for her to fold so freaking fast once he became sweet to her again. Like, girl, I mean, where's the backbone? You thought this man didn't see you the way you see him, and yet you're still willing to take scraps from him? Come on, we can do better than that. 🤧 Of course, as a reader, I know the truth. But it still had me questioning, why would she chase after someone who's so keen on rejecting her time and time again? It doesn't even make sense, but to each their own, I suppose.
Third was the villain who's so obvious right from the start. It's usually the ones closest to the MCs, the ones they trust the most, who end up betraying them like total cowards. I feel like his comeuppance was anticlimactic, and surprisingly, it wasn't even Massimo who handled it. Idk, I feel like he should've been the one who ended the prick after what he put him through. 🤷♀️
As for the ending, it was so rushed and even made me think, "That was it?". There's not even a bonus epilogue, just a preview of the next book and the couple in it. Like Ms. Altaj, I need more than that.
Anyway, like I said, it wasn't bad. It just felt drawn out in some ways that wasn't enjoyable to read sometimes. I did get the slow burn, but I wish there were more moments to build up their romance. It would be great to have something to get excited about while they were figuring things out. I just felt that the tug of war with their emotions won out most of the time.
But overall, it was still an okay read and SAFE (imo, small mercies).
Book info:
- Step sibling romance
- Forbidden romance
- Age gap (17)
- Slowburn
- Violence, death, gore
- Bullying
- Skin condition (vitiligo)
- Push and pull
- Exhibitionism
- Paranoia
- No cheating, OW, separation
- OM (not really)
- V FMC, Celibate MMC (18 yrs)
- HEA (2 mos later, married)
- Safe, imo.
Notes:
- OM. His best friend was interested in Zahara for years. When Massimo said he would give him anything in exchange for his help over the years, the OM requested her hand in marriage, but Massimo refused. 😅
- After getting out of jail, literally after inhaling the scent of freedom. He asked to be driven to one of their strip clubs to get laid, thinking this would help him get past his feelings for Zahara. But since no one was doing it for him, he decided to leave the place instead. 😒🙄
- OW. Not really. When they went to shop for a suit, the saleslady tried to hit on Massimo, but he shut her down right away. In Zahara's POV, she said that women were constantly staring at him wherever they went, but he showed no interest in them.
PS. I really don't want to compare, but I feel like Massimo is a combination of Salvatore (Stolen Touches), with his paranoia and obsession to be with Milene all the time, and Pavel (Fractured Souls), with his short temper and propensity for violence against people who so much as look at Asya the wrong way.