I did not vibe with this book past the 30% point and even before that I was whatever with it. Personally, for me, if there had been therapy sessions in this book, I think I could have overlooked a LOT of things, but that was a major missed opportunity. The mom dying of cancer, Paige pushing her dad away, her Bf cheating on her, and her feelings of insecurity that were mostly her just getting in her own way.... Therapy would have helped really solidify how to deal with grief, anxiety, panic attacks, and feelings of insecurity in a healthy way. Instead I was stuck with a heroine who didn't have enough self awareness to realize she was systematically cutting people out of her life and alienating herself from almost everyone and the book barely even acknowledged this. These were major issues for me overlayed with first time pregnancy life. My brain kept fixating on Paige's thought processes and how she 'could have' dealt with things rather than how she actually was handling things, and it just lost me. I wasn't immersed and my views of her as a person weren't good. Like refusing to communicate with her dad and pushing him away, even though he's her only parent left, or the way she treats her baby daddy, cutting out friends because they couldn't change their wedding plans to accommodate her, TWO days before the wedding...and I don't blame them. Ever plan a wedding? I get that it was an awkward spot for her, but it wasn't her friends' fault her BF cheated on her and cutting them out for this was shit. It just showcases along with everything else that Paige loves to whine about wanting to be the one people choose above all others without being able to do the same for them.
I just couldn't. I honestly just...didn't click at all with this book and I was really glad to just get through it and be done.