By her own admission, author and Academic, Jenn Ashworth, does not have a mind designed to manage a long-distance walk like the Coast to Coast: she finds left and right a challenge, has to stop and set the SatNav when driving to her mother's house and has 'A talent for disorientation'.
'For someone like me, this walk was both hubristic and irresponsible. But I would not listen to my own voices of reason. I wanted to do it and so very badly wanted to find my way without help'.
She is a 'tough, armoured little being', full of stubbornness and independence, and having completed a two-day mountain navigation course, off she goes, prompted by the terminal diagnosis of her friend Clive, and her own post-lockdown burnout after caring too much. The Parallel Path is her story of this epic walk.
It starts out as a book about walking in the north of England: about the landscape, northerners, northernness. It is simultaneously a description of Jenn walking the Coast to Coast walk route as originated by Wainwright, which becomes interspersed with memories of her life thus far, and interwoven with a mix of philosophy, ideas, thoughts, musings and contemplations.
It's a book about exploration, on many levels: geographical, personal, emotional, physical, artistic, philosophical, religious. It is introspective, deep-thinking, soul-searching, and leads to self-discovery. It is completely frank and honest, and has no pretensions whatsoever.
Sometimes Jenn walks consciously and mindfully with an appreciation of nature, and landscape; of social history impacting the land. Sometimes she lets go, and walks 'mindlessly', just wanders or plods on, merely enjoying the act of walking .
As Jenn’s journey unfolds, some key points and themes emerge.
Firstly, there is her need to escape: from the additional burdens and roles placed on people, especially women, during lockdown; from the feeling of enclosure and restriction it brought; from the pleasures and burdens of domesticity and its 'caring invisibility';
from the sense of everyone wanting something from her, her time and attention, of giving constantly at her own mental and spiritual expense; all of which which brought nothing but a huge sense of burn-out.
She also acknowledges that 'part of the motivation for doing the walk was about finding a way to excel at being a walker even though this relentless drive for improvement was one of the things that had left me careworn in the first place'
As well as escape, there's a theme of mourning, loss, and terminal illness with which she needs to reconcile: the death of her daughter's father, Ben Ashworth; her friend Clive's terminal diagnosis. His regular letters as she walks include bulletins about his cancer and treatment journey, and the walks he does locally. Jenn views this as Clive 'walking a strange parallel path' with her.
But perhaps the biggest theme of this book is that of care and caring: being cared for, and being the carer.
Jenn plans the walk as an antidote to a lockdown induced restlessness. She is in need of, and wants something, but doesn't know what it is on a cerebral level, even when her body's intelligence seems to.
Eventually, after several days of walking she arrives exhausted at a B&B in Kirkby Stephen and recognises that she has been masking her own secret desire for care and comfort.
As she later acknowledges,
'My walk, which I'd designed as a break from the labour of care, turned out to be a path that led me deeper into understanding my own need for it'.
This is not a comfortable realisation for her. Giving care is one thing, but accepting it is a step too far.
The theme of care continues through the experiences of her friend Clive as he undergoes treatment for cancer; and, ultimately, in the most unexpected development of all, through Jenn’s own experience of care, when she receives her own life-changing diagnosis after some serious symptoms reveal themselves toward the end of her walk.
She undergoes major surgery and recovers slowly at home. Suddenly she discovers that receiving care is in fact pleasurable, and 'delicious'.
She sees that her need for care, and requesting treats, makes her friends happy; that her need for care hurts nobody, even though it was something that once made her truly uncomfortable. That the only thing injured by her wanting anything was the remnants of old ideas about toughness, and independence. Our girl has come a long way indeed, on so many levels, and the revelation that Clive's daily letters to her on her walk were him trying to care for her - something she never realised until afterwards, when he told her - is both poignant and funny.
Having read and enjoyed several of Jenn’s novels, and worked with her on a couple of occasions, I thoroughly enjoyed this book.
Dense with ideas, philosophies and concepts, as well as the walking element, it is a fascinating, thought-provoking, emotional, introspective and intimate read.
In some ways, it is almost reminiscent of The Salt Path, but with far more integrity and insight, and offers so much more to think about. Highly recommended and definitely one of my best reads of 2025.