➸ 3.25/5 stars
This book, in my opinion, is 100% a thriller and it absolutely delivers on that front. I went into it not knowing much about the author, but based on the covers of her previous books, I expected something more along the lines of literary fiction. I don’t even know why I thought that, but I guess I was expecting something more introspective or character driven this was pure, gripping suspense. Mind you i dived in 100% blind without reading tropes or a blurb.
“Maybe we were made in the dark, like Johnny said, but we'd found a way to create our own kind of light”
The story centers on James, and her journey is packed with twists and turns that kept me hooked from start to finish. I actually finished it in under three hours because I couldn’t put it down. The first 60% of the book was solid, with a slower build up that worked really well for me. But then, after that, things started speeding up a lot, and the reveals started coming at a breakneck pace. it felt a little rushed toward the end, and I would have liked the mystery to unfold at a more measured pace to really savor those twists and discoveries.
"We could fill the fucking ocean with the things we never said to each other.”
this quote hurts.
One thing that stuck with me is how much I wanted more depth from James. I was hoping for more of an emotional exploration like some self discovery, or healing on her part. her life felt pretty empty to me, and I’m not sure if that was intentional to reflect her inner state or if I just couldn’t connect with her. She just came across as… lifeless, which made it harder for me to fully invest in her journey.
"Guess I figured out I can be anything if I'm with you."
Another thing that felt lacking was her relationship with Micah. It wasn’t explored in any meaningful way. We’re told they were close in the past and that they get back together quickly, but there’s no real deep dive into their history or why they still care for each other. I get that this book isn’t a romance, but if you’re going to introduce a relationship, at least give us a little more context or depth to understand why these characters are together, especially when James herself feels so distant and disconnected already.
"Both of us had always been trying to capture moments and keep them. Him with the camera, me with my pen. But in the end, we somehow always saw things differently"
That said, the book was still really fun overall. The writing was beautiful and lush, and the author definitely has a knack for creating atmosphere. The mystery itself was great even though the pacing picked up a bit too quickly at the end, the plot was so immersive. Each chapter fed you just enough information to keep you wanting more, and I found myself completely engrossed in the twists. It was one of those books that pulls you in, and even though the ending felt a little rushed for my taste, I still really enjoyed the experience. In the end, I think this was a fun, addictive read with a strong narrative. It wasn't perfect (I definitely had some expectations that weren't fully met), but I’m glad I read it. It kept me on the edge of my seat, and sometimes that’s all you really need.
***ARC Provided by the Publisher Quercus Books.***