This had so much potential, but was lacking.
The most infuriating thing about this book is that the characters repeat themselves CONSTANTLY. Like, I don’t need to hear the same thoughts you just had chewed up and regurgitated. I do not need a reminder every time someone speaks that they have a heavy Boston accent, because this takes place in Boston.
I did not like the way people spoke about Dawn. She was (in my neurodivergent opinion) autistic-coded. But every single character (with the exception of Caleb) spoke about her as if she was an alien on earth. I understand she’s different, I understand she’s strange, but the way the author wrote about her really made me feel like she hates anyone who isn’t neurotypical. So what if she loves turtles? Indulge her every once in a while and let her ramble. So she can’t read people/take a hint/look you in the eyes? Not everyone is able to do those things. I also struggle intensely in social situations, but treating her like she was a nuisance was a little much. I also did not like how everyone referred to her as a toddler. Autistic people are not just giant toddlers.
Natalie was insufferable. From being the “cheating husband stealer” to ignoring her clients, she was just a lot. It’s true that childhood bullies become adult bullies, and clearly the whole Amelia thing did not change Natalie in any way, shape, or form. She claims she did the 5K every year in hopes to make up for the Amelia incident, but she shows no personal growth. She still bullies, she still uses her looks to get ahead, she still thinks she can have anyone she wants no matter their relationship status, she still sucks. Clearly, someone k!lling themselves because of her had zero effect on her. Also: you’re thirty years old. Stop using the whole “boyfriend/girlfriend points” thing. You are not twelve. It also makes me chuckle that her parents fully knew how horrible she was, and yet no consequences were given.
I’ll admit, the twist at the end threw me. Did I expect it? No. Was it interesting? Yes. But believe me when I say that it would not be that easy to talk someone down. Natalie had no experience, and in my opinion, macing someone about to off themselves is not a good idea.
Dawn was a manipulative, borderline sociopathic who wanted revenge for a thirteen year old crime. Natalie was a narcissist, with an ego the size of Texas, and a horrible personality to match. Seth was a cheating man-whore, who kind of deserves to go through the ringer on his divorce (seriously, he cheated with someone FIFTEEN years younger), and who supports workplace bullying/gaslights victims. Caleb is a grieving brother who didn’t want violence, yet was okay ultimately wrecking a few lives to get revenge. (He was probably the most sane person in this whole thing).
I’d also like to touch on the whole Tara thing. It’s insane that after this entire ordeal, the two ringleaders would be in a silent agreement to hide the fact that Dawn murdered Tara. Seriously, if you want to prove you had any ounce of innocence, go to the cops.
In the end, I agree that seventeen is old enough to know not to bully someone; but as stated previously, Natalie clearly has never had any consequences for anything ever. Dawn clearly needs some professional help, and Seth/Caleb should be held accountable in some sense.
My final thoughts: this was a clusterfuck of half baked, over complicated pieces that did not flow or entertain much. The self monologues hold all the explaining, when everything could be fixed with more conversations that have actual meaning. Barely 2 star worthy, in my opinion.