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If I Can't Have You
My fingers came up and gently trailed along the black marker marring my skin. My eyes lowered. It wasn’t the large, black, boldly displayed letters that spelled out the word WHORE across my chest that had me truly crippled with fear in that moment, but the letters printed beneath them, below my belly, across my lower abdomen… large, menacing... a word with more far reaching implications than the simple derogatory insult someone who would drug and rape a woman might throw at them. No, this was far more unsettling, far more frightening. Drawn across my lower bellow, just above the neatly groomed curls nestled between my legs, written in black maker, in capital letters, was the word MINE.
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Published November 2, 2024
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July 9, 2025
⤅ I can't remember the last time I gave out a 5 star rating. It might not even have been this side of January. And now I'm giving it to a typo-ridden AO3 fic, because it puts most of the published work I've read recently to shame.
I came across this one because it was suddenly ALL OVER the dark romance subreddit I occasionally hang out on, so my curiosity was piqued. Most 'dark' romance leaves me totally unmoved; it often feels like authors just try to stuff in shock-awe tactics (whipping! kidnapping! killing! mafia!) instead of really exploring what it means, psychologically in particular, to write a dark romance. I've lost count of the number of books I've read where the only 'darkness' is that the hero is portrayed as some kind of merciless killer who guts people left, right and centre, without any sort of analysis of what that sort of person might actually be like in REALITY.
Well, Caleb is here to tell you how. He doesn't kill anyone. We don't see him being violent with anyone (apart from rough sex with the heroine). He's literally a lawyer, and I wouldn't say we're really known for our fearsomeness. And yet he's one of the most terrifying heroes I've come across in a long time, because he is the embodiment of everyday evil.
To take a few steps back: this book is about 26-year-old Ellie, or as Caleb calls her, Orla. She's a tax lawyer working for a Big Four accounting firm in Boston, and her new boss is 31-year-old Caleb, a fellow tax lawyer. She's scared stiff of him. Everyone seems to love the company golden boy, but she hates how cutting his criticism can be. Her job is stressful. She has no friends, and she isn't close to her family. She's self-medicating with a little too much Xanax and alcohol, but she's fine. Really...
Until someone - Caleb, of course, though she doesn't then know it - breaks into her apartment, blindfolds her, and rapes her all weekend long. And then he does it again. And again. And before long, Orla is on the edge of losing her mind, and Caleb is on the edge of losing his control. Because this was only supposed to be a temporary thing, to teach her a lesson for being an uptight know-it-all who refused his offers of help when she first joined. But now he can't stop, and he's risking everything for someone who doesn't even like him.
I honestly am struggling to express how much I was sucked into this story. It is, in a word, magnetic. The plot is actually pretty easy to summarise: though it's over 300,000 words long, the story is very (wonderfully) slice-of-life, like if Alice Coldbreath wrote contemporary dark romances, and we get chapter after chapter of nothing more intrinsically exciting than the characters going to work and then going home, interspersed with having sex. I absolutely loved how much detail is given about their working lives, actually. Both Orla and Caleb take their jobs very seriously, and delightfully, the author hasn't made them the sort of nebulously rich never-have-to-work characters who so often populate romances: we actually see how much they work all the time, check their emails and go into meetings, stay up late at night writing reports if they have to. Being in corporate law myself, I don't think I've ever come across a story which so realistically presents the professional aspect as much as this one does. This did a lot to lend the story an air of realism that means you're just swept along with it and have to keep going.
The other thing that saves the story from being terrifically boring, considering its objectively repetitive chapters, is the sheer psychological nature of it. It's insane. It's written in first person, and first off, even though there's dual POV, I didn't mind at all because they actually felt distinct and realistic. In fact, I almost loved Caleb's chapters more than Orla's, and I never prefer male POV. One really gets the sense of how stifling and anxious it is to be in Orla's head - I found myself developing a pit in my stomach alongside her, whenever she was scared she'd annoyed Caleb.
Secondly, the mental progression from 'terrified rape victim' to 'unwilling lover' to 'mutual fanatical obsession' is portrayed INCREDIBLY. That's why you need 300,000 words: to make a trajectory like that convincing, and boy does the author pull it off. Orla is simultaneously a successful, intelligent professional (whom Caleb praises and elevates) and a whimpering, anxious mess (whom he starts off raping, degrades and has sex with rather rougher than I really care to read about it, but it was so compelling I couldn't not). Getting her to a place, mentally, where these two personas can coexist inside her required an incredibly skilful author, and somehow this anonymous typo-ridden randomer on AO3 PULLED. IT. OFF.
10/10, no notes.
I came across this one because it was suddenly ALL OVER the dark romance subreddit I occasionally hang out on, so my curiosity was piqued. Most 'dark' romance leaves me totally unmoved; it often feels like authors just try to stuff in shock-awe tactics (whipping! kidnapping! killing! mafia!) instead of really exploring what it means, psychologically in particular, to write a dark romance. I've lost count of the number of books I've read where the only 'darkness' is that the hero is portrayed as some kind of merciless killer who guts people left, right and centre, without any sort of analysis of what that sort of person might actually be like in REALITY.
Well, Caleb is here to tell you how. He doesn't kill anyone. We don't see him being violent with anyone (apart from rough sex with the heroine). He's literally a lawyer, and I wouldn't say we're really known for our fearsomeness. And yet he's one of the most terrifying heroes I've come across in a long time, because he is the embodiment of everyday evil.
To take a few steps back: this book is about 26-year-old Ellie, or as Caleb calls her, Orla. She's a tax lawyer working for a Big Four accounting firm in Boston, and her new boss is 31-year-old Caleb, a fellow tax lawyer. She's scared stiff of him. Everyone seems to love the company golden boy, but she hates how cutting his criticism can be. Her job is stressful. She has no friends, and she isn't close to her family. She's self-medicating with a little too much Xanax and alcohol, but she's fine. Really...
Until someone - Caleb, of course, though she doesn't then know it - breaks into her apartment, blindfolds her, and rapes her all weekend long. And then he does it again. And again. And before long, Orla is on the edge of losing her mind, and Caleb is on the edge of losing his control. Because this was only supposed to be a temporary thing, to teach her a lesson for being an uptight know-it-all who refused his offers of help when she first joined. But now he can't stop, and he's risking everything for someone who doesn't even like him.
I honestly am struggling to express how much I was sucked into this story. It is, in a word, magnetic. The plot is actually pretty easy to summarise: though it's over 300,000 words long, the story is very (wonderfully) slice-of-life, like if Alice Coldbreath wrote contemporary dark romances, and we get chapter after chapter of nothing more intrinsically exciting than the characters going to work and then going home, interspersed with having sex. I absolutely loved how much detail is given about their working lives, actually. Both Orla and Caleb take their jobs very seriously, and delightfully, the author hasn't made them the sort of nebulously rich never-have-to-work characters who so often populate romances: we actually see how much they work all the time, check their emails and go into meetings, stay up late at night writing reports if they have to. Being in corporate law myself, I don't think I've ever come across a story which so realistically presents the professional aspect as much as this one does. This did a lot to lend the story an air of realism that means you're just swept along with it and have to keep going.
The other thing that saves the story from being terrifically boring, considering its objectively repetitive chapters, is the sheer psychological nature of it. It's insane. It's written in first person, and first off, even though there's dual POV, I didn't mind at all because they actually felt distinct and realistic. In fact, I almost loved Caleb's chapters more than Orla's, and I never prefer male POV. One really gets the sense of how stifling and anxious it is to be in Orla's head - I found myself developing a pit in my stomach alongside her, whenever she was scared she'd annoyed Caleb.
Secondly, the mental progression from 'terrified rape victim' to 'unwilling lover' to 'mutual fanatical obsession' is portrayed INCREDIBLY. That's why you need 300,000 words: to make a trajectory like that convincing, and boy does the author pull it off. Orla is simultaneously a successful, intelligent professional (whom Caleb praises and elevates) and a whimpering, anxious mess (whom he starts off raping, degrades and has sex with rather rougher than I really care to read about it, but it was so compelling I couldn't not). Getting her to a place, mentally, where these two personas can coexist inside her required an incredibly skilful author, and somehow this anonymous typo-ridden randomer on AO3 PULLED. IT. OFF.
10/10, no notes.
January 9, 2025
This story FED me—I loved how long it was. I love reading about the small, day-to-day things in a story, and this really delivered 😋.
I wasn't too big on the climax and how it played out, however as a whole I really enjoyed this. DD really knows how to write a dark romance (omg also the cameos from her other work? I was screaming).
Can't wait for the epilogue!
I wasn't too big on the climax and how it played out, however as a whole I really enjoyed this. DD really knows how to write a dark romance (omg also the cameos from her other work? I was screaming).
Can't wait for the epilogue!
January 7, 2025
The best dark romance I've ever read.
October 13, 2025
One of my favourite dark romances of all time. Thought I already shelved this on my GR!
The most similar to this story, although If I Can't Have You is much more explicit and darker, is Asha Everly's Contention (don't bother reading the sequel). They are both ambitious about their white-collar jobs, and the beginning is very similar (heroine is SA-ed, but is unaware of who it is), as well as abuse of self-medication. If I Can't Have You has one of the most powerful/captivating spirals into pill addiction that I have read in a romance.
The most similar to this story, although If I Can't Have You is much more explicit and darker, is Asha Everly's Contention (don't bother reading the sequel). They are both ambitious about their white-collar jobs, and the beginning is very similar (heroine is SA-ed, but is unaware of who it is), as well as abuse of self-medication. If I Can't Have You has one of the most powerful/captivating spirals into pill addiction that I have read in a romance.
January 8, 2025
I started reading this after I read B&PF and the entire time, I thought Caleb was an angel.
Anyway, I reread it a few weeks ago because it had been a year since a full reading. I was shocked to find he wasn’t an angel he was a prick. But I still love him. Sue me
Anyway, I reread it a few weeks ago because it had been a year since a full reading. I was shocked to find he wasn’t an angel he was a prick. But I still love him. Sue me
February 15, 2025
I just finished this book, took me 2 days. At first I wasn't sure if I would read it, I didn't know how a dark romance book could possibly be nearly as long as War & Peace and be engaging at the same time. I am so glad I was wrong. This book was fantastic, it made me cry...a lot. But also laugh. It was a rollercoaster of emotions.
At the end, I think it was the length of this book which really allowed me to sink into the world. The characters were well flushed out, even the side characters. The mental health issues were represented well, and when the story touched on some really dark topics, they were presented as facts and not fantasy which I appreciated. Very dark things do happen in the world, and I thought that the author handled these topics in a respectable way...they weren't just thrown in for shock or even enjoyment, they were there as part of the overall narrative of this world.
The only thing that I think this book needs is an editor, I know that it's on AO3 but if it ever gets traditionally published I will definitely buy it and read it again. There were a lot of errors in the book and sometimes they pulled me out of the story, but that's it, that's the only fault I can find with this book.
At the end, I think it was the length of this book which really allowed me to sink into the world. The characters were well flushed out, even the side characters. The mental health issues were represented well, and when the story touched on some really dark topics, they were presented as facts and not fantasy which I appreciated. Very dark things do happen in the world, and I thought that the author handled these topics in a respectable way...they weren't just thrown in for shock or even enjoyment, they were there as part of the overall narrative of this world.
The only thing that I think this book needs is an editor, I know that it's on AO3 but if it ever gets traditionally published I will definitely buy it and read it again. There were a lot of errors in the book and sometimes they pulled me out of the story, but that's it, that's the only fault I can find with this book.
June 13, 2025
Ok it’s time I do this review the right way. I found this from r/darkromance and was wary as I’d never read anything on ao3. After seeing it recommended several times, I decided to give it a go.
A couple of typos early on left me wary… but I decided hey, a story can still be incredible even with some errors. Kept going. And let me tell you, that was the best decision.
First, I appreciated the “older” characters in mid 20s and early 30s. I love characters with drive and career motivations. Tell me intricate details about tax law! Tell me about the corporate hierarchy! I LOVE IT. Tell me about the mundane parts of the day. The commute, dropping groceries on the ground. The picture was painted in such a vivid and accessible manner, I couldn’t put it down. I felt it and lived those small moments alongside the characters.
Now, I’m not going to go into much detail about the romance aspect. But know that I ate that shit up. I mean, I was on the edge of my seat and so very frustrated at times while smiling so big at other times.
Orla, you anxious woman, I feel you and relate. Caleb…. Oh Caleb. You tortured man, I fear and adore you. And thank god we’re getting a Chris book next.
You shouldn’t read this if you’re sensitive to dark themes. If you read trigger warnings, go ahead and check those out first.
I’m writing this as I start reading it for the third time and let me tell you, I have an entire list as to why I adore this book and how it captured me. It would totally ruin the story so we’ll leave that for other forums. Just…. Speechless
A couple of typos early on left me wary… but I decided hey, a story can still be incredible even with some errors. Kept going. And let me tell you, that was the best decision.
First, I appreciated the “older” characters in mid 20s and early 30s. I love characters with drive and career motivations. Tell me intricate details about tax law! Tell me about the corporate hierarchy! I LOVE IT. Tell me about the mundane parts of the day. The commute, dropping groceries on the ground. The picture was painted in such a vivid and accessible manner, I couldn’t put it down. I felt it and lived those small moments alongside the characters.
Now, I’m not going to go into much detail about the romance aspect. But know that I ate that shit up. I mean, I was on the edge of my seat and so very frustrated at times while smiling so big at other times.
Orla, you anxious woman, I feel you and relate. Caleb…. Oh Caleb. You tortured man, I fear and adore you. And thank god we’re getting a Chris book next.
You shouldn’t read this if you’re sensitive to dark themes. If you read trigger warnings, go ahead and check those out first.
I’m writing this as I start reading it for the third time and let me tell you, I have an entire list as to why I adore this book and how it captured me. It would totally ruin the story so we’ll leave that for other forums. Just…. Speechless
January 26, 2025
This is not for everyone, it certainly wasn't for me. I don't think I can objectively look at the writing because my mind is so firmly stuck on the themes.
January 19, 2025
so according to gr this was 1200 pgs which matches up with my ebook pages --> print pages calculations. That being said, I couldve read another 1200 pages. For once, this is a long ass fanfic that is OUTLINED and PLANNED and it SHOWS bc the pacing is wonderful. Again, literally it was so so so good. There's a mystery, intrigue, and the most compelling characters ever, way better than any recent published fiction in this genre. A manipulative mmc, traditional relationship, protectiveness and caring, dealing with insecurities and anxieties. The appealing thing about good fanfic is how it literally becomes you. You become the character, the characters become you, it's a transformative and immersive experience which is exactly what this was. The tax law thing helped since thats literally what i wanna do in the future, but i really couldnt have imagined better more fleshed out characters whos values and thoughts interfere perfectly with the plot, pushing them out of their comfort zone, and making them even more real than they already are. i think about this fanfic like once a week. what a complex book, what a complex relationship, what complex characters
April 12, 2025
4.5/5
CALEB TRENT YOU ARE THE MAN OF ALL MANS THE KING OF ALL KINGS THE MANIPULATOR OF ALL MANIPULATORS. I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU OMFG!!!
orla ellen wright is the worst fmc in the history of fmc's imo omg i never hated a character more in my whole life. but caleb trent???? that's a real man right there. a lover boy thru n thruuuuuu whew. should've picked me and the book woulda been 2 pages MAX! i would've held him down day ONE. dark devious manipulative evil obsessive and maniacal... yeah that's my man!!!! 🙂↕️🙂↕️
CALEB TRENT YOU ARE THE MAN OF ALL MANS THE KING OF ALL KINGS THE MANIPULATOR OF ALL MANIPULATORS. I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU OMFG!!!
orla ellen wright is the worst fmc in the history of fmc's imo omg i never hated a character more in my whole life. but caleb trent???? that's a real man right there. a lover boy thru n thruuuuuu whew. should've picked me and the book woulda been 2 pages MAX! i would've held him down day ONE. dark devious manipulative evil obsessive and maniacal... yeah that's my man!!!! 🙂↕️🙂↕️
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February 23, 2025Paused @ 44% because it kinda got too much…
March 14, 2025
I really liked how realistic this was from start to finish, including the conversations, train rides, morning coffees, breakroom lunches, etc. Those ordinary, day-to-day inclusions really helped build the story. I also appreciated that despite the main characters coming from well-off families, it wasn't a foundation of the plot--no secret society, cabal, etc setting the stage for the dark aspects, just normal, privileged people.
If this was a published story I'd have some gripes about the editing, but since it's Ao3 we'll let it slide.
Thoughts that include spoilers or triggers: But then again, I love murderous MMCs and that's also not acceptable in real life, so I probably need to think about where my lines in the sand are.
Anyway, solid story. It includes some things that made me uncomfortable, but that's dark romance.
If this was a published story I'd have some gripes about the editing, but since it's Ao3 we'll let it slide.
Thoughts that include spoilers or triggers: But then again, I love murderous MMCs and that's also not acceptable in real life, so I probably need to think about where my lines in the sand are.
Anyway, solid story. It includes some things that made me uncomfortable, but that's dark romance.
April 24, 2025
DNF’d at 64%
Although I loved reading the beginning of this book, I cannot for the life of me continue it as it became repetitive and boring after a while.
Although I loved reading the beginning of this book, I cannot for the life of me continue it as it became repetitive and boring after a while.
May 29, 2025
Dude, I have never seen this level of gaslighting in a book.
April 29, 2025
This had me on a chokehold and is probably gonna be my personality for the foreseeable future 🫢
The plot was incredible and my god the spice was even better. It’s drenched in spicy goodness that I had to go for a walk today to actually touch grass.
The plot was incredible and my god the spice was even better. It’s drenched in spicy goodness that I had to go for a walk today to actually touch grass.
March 9, 2025
I loved the romance towards the end and the ending itself, however, I think because the environment of the story felt SO realistic unlike other dark romances it became too much. With other plots I feel like there’s some external thing like a secret society (e.g., haunting Adeline, catching pretty), horror/paranormal component (e.g., til def, pen pal duet), or just something that doesn’t match my own reality so I can compartmentalize better. Because it’s such a “normal” corporate work place I think it was harder for me to get into it or at least not feel some sense of shame for reading it - does that make sense? I kept envisioning this happening to me at my own job and felt so horrified for Ellie. Not that I don’t for other dark romance FMCs but yeah. I did really enjoy reading about the work they did though which was surprising. I also really enjoyed the raw depiction of mental health. It felt relatable and real. Tbh, Chris was my least favorite. Or maybe Mr. Furst. I grew to love Caleb, but God he is so fucking psychotic. Don’t regret reading but it definitely had me glossing over uncomfortable portions.
July 14, 2025
Ok so this was crazzzzy! I struggled with this at the start because of the mad mind games Caleb was playing as I felt he just really didn’t care about Orlas mental health and I nearly dnfed, but I’m glad I didn’t because he definitely redeemed himself in the end. I just loved how they were both kind of insane, especially for each other.
Although I found this story to be lighter than BAPF in terms of physical interactions, (which I usually prefer), I still find myself liking that more.
Overall, this was very solid. One thing I love about Deathsdoll’s work is the attention to detail and characterisation, I feel like a lot of authors, especially in any type of romance, really miss the mark on those points.
Although I found this story to be lighter than BAPF in terms of physical interactions, (which I usually prefer), I still find myself liking that more.
Overall, this was very solid. One thing I love about Deathsdoll’s work is the attention to detail and characterisation, I feel like a lot of authors, especially in any type of romance, really miss the mark on those points.
October 1, 2025
i have the perfect kind of mental illness cocktail that makes me think IICHY is the most deeply romantic thing ever. not even exaggerating when i say this is deeply, deeply, so deeply romantic to me and i'm swept away by this every time i do a re-read. it's quite literally perfect; no notes.
June 9, 2025
i couldn’t finish it, i stopped at chapter 24. i thought i was going to like it but i don’t really see the chemistry between fmc and mmc. i know i haven’t read it all and maybe i think this bc i’m still at the beginning of the relationship but i couldn’t keep on reading it..
January 15, 2025
This is one of my favourite reads Ever.
I loved everything about this book, it even made me go ‘WHAT THE F….’ In the best way.
I really want mr & mrs Faust’s book now.
I loved everything about this book, it even made me go ‘WHAT THE F….’ In the best way.
I really want mr & mrs Faust’s book now.
October 1, 2025
I want to be totally clear that I’m not sure that I’m recommending this, despite giving it a high rating. It was disturbing at many times.
This nice little (375,000 word) AO3 fic was… a story that I hate/love. I don’t read dark romance, usually if I’m reading something dark it is a thriller. And I felt strongly that while the ending of it was aiming for “romance” I still don’t feel that it was dark romance. I think the bulk of the book, it was an erotic psychological thriller.
Very erotic. Very psychological. Very angsty.
Triggers for days.
With all of that said. Wow.
This nice little (375,000 word) AO3 fic was… a story that I hate/love. I don’t read dark romance, usually if I’m reading something dark it is a thriller. And I felt strongly that while the ending of it was aiming for “romance” I still don’t feel that it was dark romance. I think the bulk of the book, it was an erotic psychological thriller.
Very erotic. Very psychological. Very angsty.
Triggers for days.
With all of that said. Wow.
August 3, 2025
gaslit myself into enjoying this
July 23, 2025
4⭐️
BRUHHH this was so so good what the helllllyy - DARK and messed up and 👌☠️
BRUHHH this was so so good what the helllllyy - DARK and messed up and 👌☠️
September 25, 2025
Wow just wow! Can’t believe I managed to find this book, saw a few people mention it on redit, and thought ok why not, and I’m so glad I did. The amount of effort the author put into this book, yes it needs spell checking god blimey the spelling mistakes in this, but you can still understand it. Even so, the author did an amazing job, explaining and showing the issues of different mental health. The book worked its way up, and it got better and better. The spice was very good, tho very repetitive, but I didn’t get bored once I couldn’t wait to finish it after 3 days lol. Such a big book. But the things she explained in it, with the everyday life it worked so well. Unlike other dark romance books, this was kinda like a real life situation kind of book, something like this could actually happen it’s insane. My best dark romance book so far.
July 14, 2025
If you're into doormat h, him abusing her physical and psychological, beating her, stockholm syndrome, him pushing her into becoming a drug addict, torturing her, no groveling whatsoever, 80% of the book is describing sex scenes, no plot, waaay too many pages ,all wrapped into "Because is true love" bullshit ...THIS IS THE BOOK FOR YOU🤣🤣. After reading Corrupt Idol(masterpiece❤️❤️) I wanted so badly something similar and I got into this...and this was bad, like real bad..like describing you a bussing meeting over 5 pages kinda boring 🤣🤣
October 16, 2025
DNF… couldn’t actually!!
I simply cant read this absolute trash beyond these first few chapters.
First off… this is a psychopath/ serial rapist’s really sick fantasy. Nothing here shows what happens in real world except the rapes and continued misogynistic violence.
Its AWFUL.
I just cant believe people are reading this and NO ONE has raised an alarm.
This is sociopath’s sex slave manifesto, an agenda intermixed with lawyer/ merger company talk, and absolutely idiotic psychiatric mess interwoven.
I am a physician, and I have taken care of such victims… and once even a psychiatrically ill or even mentally challenged female, notwithstanding as intelligent a female as this heroine has been depicted, realizes what has been done to her… its hysteria, catatonia, severe depression or even nervous breakdown in layman parlance.
The mental trauma and emotional fallout from such female-violence thats not even a single rape but days of it, in real world is HORRID, and often victims remain suicidal for days and at times even years later.
I am yet to come across any female
in normal or my professional life who realizes that she has been drugged, raped multiple time and come right back to work the next day, and work which is intense and depending… and can function!!
EVEN if your conscious mind denies, the subconscious will not let you function.
UTTER rubbish and downright IDIOTIC!!
And pathetic writing to boot.
I am going to disconnect with this person who recommended it
I simply cant read this absolute trash beyond these first few chapters.
First off… this is a psychopath/ serial rapist’s really sick fantasy. Nothing here shows what happens in real world except the rapes and continued misogynistic violence.
Its AWFUL.
I just cant believe people are reading this and NO ONE has raised an alarm.
This is sociopath’s sex slave manifesto, an agenda intermixed with lawyer/ merger company talk, and absolutely idiotic psychiatric mess interwoven.
I am a physician, and I have taken care of such victims… and once even a psychiatrically ill or even mentally challenged female, notwithstanding as intelligent a female as this heroine has been depicted, realizes what has been done to her… its hysteria, catatonia, severe depression or even nervous breakdown in layman parlance.
The mental trauma and emotional fallout from such female-violence thats not even a single rape but days of it, in real world is HORRID, and often victims remain suicidal for days and at times even years later.
I am yet to come across any female
in normal or my professional life who realizes that she has been drugged, raped multiple time and come right back to work the next day, and work which is intense and depending… and can function!!
EVEN if your conscious mind denies, the subconscious will not let you function.
UTTER rubbish and downright IDIOTIC!!
And pathetic writing to boot.
I am going to disconnect with this person who recommended it
February 22, 2025
Hopped onto this because of the hype on Reddit. Can't say I'm disappointed, I think it fits the dark romance genre perfectly. That darkness which somehow finds a happy ending. Definitely not a traditional happy ending but I think that's what dark romance is. I really enjoyed how the MMC'S darkness was used in a way to lift up the FMC. I mean therapy would have been a more conventional approach but where's the fun in that?
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April 11, 2025i cant consider this a romance, any time there is sa in a book i can never consider it a romance. honestly was going to dnf this but i got too far in out of curiosity and wanted to see what happened. from the perspective that it is a thriller.. it was interesting. the writing was good i just hated the themes so.. maybe 3.5-4 stars for writing and 1 star for themes..
dropped
May 30, 2025"toxic ml" and its just a misogynistic r4pist asshole <3 hayr dumduz serefsiz de degil herifin r4pe kinki var lan lutfen YETEER <3<3 gizemi icin okuyodum cok tadimi kacirdi life mangasindaki herife cok benziyo tetiklenmeme ramak kaldi. yazarin dili guzel diyenlere de buradan ucuyorum ikinci bi lolita vakasi yasayamam
April 11, 2025
I like this book! However, it was extremely long. Definitely could have been shorter.
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