My first Sigrid Undset. 💥 And what an unexpectedly thought-provoking, relevant and enraging read -- feminist for its time (with its observations on social reproduction, feminine labour and morality, that observation would become irrelevant, however, it does have to kill its heroine and does operate within the maternal framework).
First, boiling thoughts: Helge Gram can go f*** himself. The entire Gram family, in fact. Vile, vile, vile creatures. And entirely predictably so, perhaps not even realising their own malevolence. No - Helge and Grom simply take what they think is theirs.
The very last scenes...
“My glorious Jenny. How wonderfully beautiful you are. You are mine now, and everything will come right, will it not? Oh, I love you so.” - 🤮🤮🤮
And afterwards, having left, Helge wanders the streets, suddenly realising that throughout it all, Jenny never said a word:
“He had dreamt of this meeting with her all these years. She, the queen of his dreams, had scarcely spoken to him, at first sitting quiet and cold and then suddenly throwing herself into his arms, wild, mad, without saying a word. It struck him now that she had said nothing—nothing at all to his words of love in the night. A strange, appalling woman, his Jenny. He realized suddenly that she had never been his.
Helge walked about in the quiet streets, up and down the Corso. He tried to think of her as she had been when they were engaged, to separate the dreams from the reality, but he could not form a clear picture of her, and he realized that he had never penetrated to the bottom of her soul. There had always been something about her he could not see, though he felt it was there.
He did not really know anything about her. Heggen might be with her now—why not? There had been another—she said so herself—who? How many more? What else that he did not know—but had always felt?...
And now—after this he could not leave her; he knew it—less than ever now. Yet he did not know her. Who was she, who had held him in a spell for three years—who had this power over him?
He turned on his way, hurrying back to her door, driven by fear and by rage.”
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And even after she is buried, Gunnar is there, thinking how her secrets - and, therefore, she - is his. Despite his friendship, love (?) and affection, it circles back into ownership.
Jenny is a novel of disintegration. A quick turn -- and being carried away by the current. The desperate need for love -- how much we're told to abandon and forsake for it; how much we hope for it to be enough. And, most often, it is not.
But, for the feminine (this is published in 1911), love has to be enough. For Jenny to claim that she is done with love, that is quite a grand refusal.
Gunnar's final thoughts - and he does have the final words of the novel:
And when I have lived long enough to be so full of longing as you were, perhaps I will do as you, and say to fate: Give me a few of the flowers; I will be satisfied with much less than I wanted in the beginning of life. But I will not die as you did, because you could not be content. I will remember you, and kiss your head and your golden hair and think: She could not live without being the best, and claiming the best as her right; and maybe I shall say: Heaven be praised that she chose death rather than living content.
Tonight I will go to Piazza San Pietro and listen to the wild music of the fountain that never stops, and dream my dream. For you, Jenny, are my dream, and I have never had any other.
Dream—oh, dream!
If your child had lived he would not have been what you dreamt when you held him in your arms. He might have done something good and great, or something bad and disgraceful, but he would never have accomplished what you dreamt he should do. No woman has given life to the child she dreamt of when she bore it—no artist has created the work he saw before him in the moment of his inspiration. And we live summer after summer, but not one is like the one we have been longing for when we stooped to gather the wet flowers in the spring showers. And no love is what lovers dreamed when they kissed for the first time.
If you and I had lived together we might have been happy or not, we might have done good or ill to one another, but I shall never know what our love would have been if you had been mine. The only thing I know is that it would never have been what I dreamt that night when I stood with you in the moonlight while the fountain was playing.
And yet I would not have missed that dream, and I would not miss the dream I am dreaming now.
Jenny, I would give my life if you could meet me on the cliff and be as you were then, and kiss me and love me for one day, one hour. Always I am thinking of what it might have been if you had lived and been mine, and it seems to me that a boundless joy has been wasted. Oh, you are dead, and your death has made me so poor. I have only my dream of you, but if I compare my poverty with others’ riches it is ever so much more glorious. Not to save my life would I cease to love you and dream of you and mourn you.