From award-winning author Kathryn Nuernberger, Held is a collection of essays about mutualisms, mutual aid, and ways of being together in a time of climate crisis.
Here is a collection about living in and with the consequences of terrible mistakes—Held contemplates our collective experiences of loss in an age of climate change and mass extinctions, as well as more personal tragedies. Each essay in this book describes a remarkable instance of symbiotic bobtail squid host glow-in-the-dark bacteria behind their eyes so they can camouflage with moonlight on the water; there is a surprisingly erotic encounter between ants and a rove beetle; beavers and willow trees together turn deserts to verdant wetlands; and many more. To read Held is to be reminded of one’s humanity and of our interconnectedness with the world that surrounds us.
"I had to saw my scalpel through to the center, where a maggot slept, translucent and curled head to tail. I touched the creature with the tip of my knife to see if it would move and instead it burst a pussy ooze... how I wish I hadn't killed that larva. All he had was being alive and now he is not."
Despite the immense loss and grief and devastation that pulsed throughout the book, I felt weirdly comforted by Kate's essays. I loved so much of this--in this moment here in the Twin Cities where everything I do feels so wrong, reading this book was the only thing that made me feel not-wrong. As a friend of mine said, I literally felt held by these essays.
A book about relationships, symbiotic mutualisms, what it means to be in relation to each other, to be a creature that relies on other creatures, to be a creature that is relied upon....
In these essays, most 1-2 pages long, Nuernberger weaves data about the natural world, like how grasshoppers Incredible Hulk into locusts when environmental conditions force them to fight for survival, and memories from lived experiences. Nuernberger does not stretch for metaphors but instead instead leaves it up to the reader to find these threads ourselves. In this way I found my own stories and impressions blended in as I moved through this book.
I so appreciated the work and am grateful for the opportunity to read it. Now I look forward to getting caught up in what ever comes next.
This book was an impulse purchase - one I'm very glad I made. There's just so much going on in this book. Trust me, you'll just have to read it and see for yourself!