RE-READ
16/02/2024
I cried a lot. That epilogue fucking obliterated me
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FIRST READ
25/09/2021
When the author noted that this would be the darkest book of the series, she was not kidding. This book is the darkest and the most painful book of the series. It might not be the darkest book I have ever read in my entire life, but it certainly one of the most well-written one. And THAT is much harder to find.
I was going to write a bit of essay review for this entire series either in its last book or the first book (because we all saw the way I had scoffed and rolled my eyes with the way Riley had been acting in the first book. Yeesh.) but I feel like Redemption deserves its own review.
As most of you who have read the previous four books, you know that this series is not a dark romance. The romance(s) inside this book is tender and selfless, protective and passionate, loving and reliable, but the whole series is filled with so much tragedy you're choking in it.
I remember, while reading Betrayal, I had to put down my Kindle just to BREATHE at certain scene. There would be deaths, I have known this, of course, not because I read spoilers but because I've read enough fiction (especially fantasy) to know that sometimes it's inevitable, if not necessary.
That said, I've known what I would be delving into when I started Redemption. I'd prepared myself, you could say, and I'd like to think I'm strong enough to read most tragedies in fiction by now.
The events inside this book were terrible, but that was not what impressed me about this book, about Nikole Knight as an author. It's super easy to write dark tragedy dark romance traumatizing events yadda yadda. Hell, I've read many of those "torture porn" or those works by authors who sell their works as "taboo dark romance! Don't read if you're not strong or open-minded enough". Blech. Cry me a river. Most of those stuff they wrote got one-star rating from me not because I wasn't, let's say, "open-minded enough". They were all just badly-written, selling tragedy and torture and taboo-whatever for cheap thrills. I knew it worked for many people, but I suppose that was just not my thing. So no, I was not impressed.
What I'm trying to say is, it's not difficult to write a tragedy, but it's hella difficult to write a tragedy WELL. Even harder to find a well-written tragic book that rings true to you.
So I could tell you that I was a bit worried going into Redemption because I was afraid it might turn into one of those...disappointing tragic fantasy fiction. But I shouldn't have been worried because Nikole Knight has just written everything so perfectly. Riley's forced revolution in this book was painful to watch, but it was also strangely believable to me. Rather than focusing on physical torture, I love that there was more moral conflict going on inside Riley. THAT made it more intense. It's so hard to read, but I find that I'm rooting for Riley. And I was excited for him when he started to embrace his power, even though the process was traumatizing.
I suppose it helps that there was so much balance in this book. Yes, there was tragedy. Yes, there were horror, helplessness, grief, loss, and everything awful you name it. But while Redemption has all of those those things, it also has hope. You could feel the thin hope in each chapters, the characters cared for each other even when it seemed impossible. And I think that was made so much difference from it being one of those unapologetic torture porn. This book--hell this whole series was SELF-AWARE. I don't know how else to say it. This series knows what's going on and knows that it's WRONG and that it shouldn't be glorified because it's awful. And it's BEAUTIFUL.
Anyway, that's all I'm trying to say about Redemption, specifically. I didn't want to write an essay, but here we fucking are. Smh. NIKOLE KNIGHT, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME???
Onto the next book. It's the last book. I AM NOT READY.