i abandoned this at track 5, of 15 tracks listened. while it was kinda nice to listen to - the audiobook is maybe worth a read just for how calmly the author speaks 🙂 - i feel like it had said very little by this point... and that it kept kinda saying it's going to talk about talking about something. in the meantime, it felt abit lacking in actual substance, and more of a promise than a fulfilment.
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the book is written by someone who was connected with their InnSaei, experiences losing it, and then reconnecting with it.
i think it's written after their documentary film (of the same name and subject).
i liked the little about Icelandic language and it not using borrow-words... and the meaning of innsaei (or InnSaei as the author uses), and the multiple meanings of the word 🙂
the starting point and focus and book blurb are all good 🙂
but it becomes abit repetitive in places, and feels like its coming from a particular perspective (of potential privilege). there are a few suggestions, that aren't necessarily realistic for everyone.
the language also becomes kinda flowery in places, and feels abit kinda 'new age' (can't think of the exact word, and using 'new age' kinda relies on knowing what it maybe once meant, and what it's maybe since come to mean). not a problem in itself, but maybe one in the absence of more.
there's quite alot about meditation, mindfulness... nothing that seems especially new... except perhaps the word being used for finding and exploring that inner core to oneself, self awareness and intuition.
i think for some it could be a good way to access some of this information, and i thought the audiobook is well structured wrt the exercises included 👍🙂
but for me... 🙃
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there was abit about pain... and growing thru it. I'm guessing here the author was mostly talking emotional pain, cos it's kinda assumed that it'll leave at some point (unlike chronic/persistent physical pain for which there's often no easy answer/solution, other than ongoing management). I'm not dismissing the personal growth (including wrt self awareness and resilience) that living with painful conditions can give opportunity for, but it felt/sounded like the focus of this book was more on "something difficult happened/upset me, but i can learn/grow from this".
there was an interesting piece in the first chapter about the war in former Yugoslavia, and informal and peaceful resistance to it locally... so a larger and community example of surviving awful circumstances, conditions and experiences... but here it felt like the author kinda spent some time there and (well meaningly) took from that/thought about that from a position of relative remove (wrt it's different impact on them).
as the book continued, some of the individual examples ('inspiring stories') mentioned were abit extreme and nebulous too - a woman who became very ill and set about healing herself (i don't think we're given much info about how - maybe that comes again later), a man who lost his eyesight then fell and became paralysed, who is looking to cure paralysis!
while eg exoskeleton support to enable independent movement is a positive, this latter example especially reinforces the medical model of disability, and even if realistic/achievable, it's not going to bring about a miraculous end to suffering and/or illness, impairment, and disabling environments.
all feels abit, i dunno, abit close to crip(*)-superhero narratives non-disabled people like to create/hear/perpetuate 😬😕🙃🙄
and also that it might reinforce the idea that people can change their lives and health etc if only they try hard enough, without acknowledging the external and systemic/institutional limitations and barriers that impact many peoples 😕
and some of the things it suggests are important to someone's well being just aren't going to be available to everyone at every point in their life, eg one person they trust and can talk about anything with. not everyone will have that 😕
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i was abit sorry to abandon it, after what seemed like an interesting introduction... but with each chapter, it didn't really feel like it was going anywhere concrete, and that where it was going seemed increasingly woolly. maybe it would have turned around abit, and become abit more substantial if I'd read on 🤔
and maybe I'm not the right audience for it - i feel pretty familiar with myself, and have learned to access and trust my intuition, and I'm familiar with some mindful practices...
i also like my 'self help' encouragement to be mindful and inclusive of diverse experiences and institutional barriers, rather than all about the individual's power to overcome adversity... i suspect i have limited tolerance of well-intentioned, but woolly, 'you can change your life (like me!)', approaches...
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accessed as a library audiobook, nicely read by the author 🙂
(* my use of 'crip' here is from a self identifying perspective, as a physically disabled person, living with permanent impairment. I'm aware it's not a term all disabled people/people with disabilities use, nor are necessarily comfortable with. i use it in a similar way to how i self identity as Queer, which (while currently seemingly popular, and somewhat co-opted in places to mean LGBT, compared to my own history and relationship with the word as something more specific and political) I'm aware not all LGBTI people identify with or like. both terms have their own politics, and while reclaimed, I'm aware the words can still have negative associations for some people from their previous use as insults).