This ain't it Bro
I've never rolled my eyes , or highlighted and written notes so much in a book EVER. The entire thing was juts weird the characters especially those of Hailey and Kira - I suspect they're aliens .
Also please be warned this review is going to be very long due to the fact that I have so much to rant about . Also please be aware of triggers *cutting , suicide , possible rape , and sexual abuse *
First of all let's talk about Hailey . Hailey is just weird from page one . I waited for some big revelation about her having some sort of mental condition that makes her act the way she does . The way that Kira interacted with her was just weird she was constantly ( in the flashback scenes ) tiptoing around her ;
" I (was) ...unsure if I should step in or out. Hurricane Haylee could blow stronger than the wind, pound harder than the rain, and I couldn't tell if it was coming or going. "
From the first scene she's compared to this and it seems like everyone just says with a laugh " That's Haylee for you ". It is revealed that she has depression and anxiety but the way she acts is kinda pschyo .
The second thing was that Haylee obsessively keeps a diary in which ;
"Sometimes the lies she made up were about me. And if someone read those, they'd have no way to sort the truth from the lies."
Kira acts as if this was a normal thing that Haylee constantly made up things , if that was true then wouldn't her parents have done something about it ? If that stuff was so serious that she was panicking why didn't anyone else know about her lying about stuff that she believed it was true .
Even once the secret was revealed about Haylee,and the story was wrapped up her strange behavior still made no sense they didn't line up with what was going on and most of the things she did can't be blamed on anxiety or depression .
Haylee says that her Mom didn't want anyone to know that Haylee took meds for depression and anxiety because she didn't want them thinking " she was crazy " . Again there were times when she acted like a person with anxiety would , or depression I'm not at all debating that . What I'm saying is that there was something even more seriously wrong with that girl than the given diagnosis that everyone just brushed off , problems aside she was an awful person and I honestly don't blame people for not liking her .
Kira talks about how Haylee was her best friend and constantly defends her ,but all in all Haylee was a terrible friend and person in general . She was selfish and explosive when things didn't go her way , she was a brat. She kept two people apart that clearly loved each other by lying to both of them about the others feelings her only reason being that she didn't want to be the third wheel. 😑 There was only one instance to Haylee actually being a decent person and even then it wasn't even entirely " nice " . As I was reading this I didn't understand why the heck Kira was even friends with his girl good grief .
Now on to Kira . I said that I didn't understand why Kira was even friends with Haylee ,but bro the same could be said of Haylee . As the story went on I realized that Kira was an even worse friend to Haylee. The biggest problem is we're literally supposed to be rooting for Kira when she's a terrible person and friend.
I am almost 100 % certain that Kira is a robot . She also says and thinks the most unrealistic and bizzare things .
At the funeral ;
"I huddled down inside my jacket and tried not to breathe, because Haylee wasn't breathing, and her body wasn't warm enough to turn the air into steam"
About her crush ;
She's so creepy ! She's constantly drooling over him and justtt stoppp ladyyy ...
"I thought about letting go, about curling up into him"
CREEEPPPPYYYY !! You can't just do that !
Then the next breath she's thinking stuff like this ;
" ( What would I do if he ) made a move? Took advantage? Would I mind? Yes, I would. Nothing good was going to come out of Haylee's death. I wouldn't let it."
You were literally just about to THROW YOURSELF AT HIM don't be making up scenarios in your head and then judging him for it !
She constantly stares at her crushes chest ( while he's wearing a t shirt) and then tries to act like she was interested in his t-shirt 😂;
"Then I realized I was totally staring at Nick's pecs. That's why I couldn't wear shirts like that. I'd be giving guys license to look at my chest."
( And apparently it's ok for her to lust after Nick but not for another guy to lust after her ??? I'm sensing some contradiction here. )
Then she also acts like she's defending Haylee's choices ;
Haylee has cuts on her wrists ;
She doesn't say anything . Doesn't ask if she's doing ok talk to someone who could help her ,talk to Haylee's parents or even Haylee's therapist .
"I saw a fresh red line snaking down her wrist. This was a long one—three or four inches at least."
Kira's mom a Psychologist asks about them and Kira flips out ;
'Mom closed her magazine. "I'm worried about her. She had some scratches on her wrist." '
"I know," I said.
"She cut herself," I said. "Her parents know. It's not a secret."
If there are fresh cuts you should be a good friend and make sure she's getting help DO SOMETHING ANYTHING !!!
"leave Haylee alone." I said " mom was nosy "
When a guy asks if she thinks it was murder she acts ticked ;
"This was Haylee's choice, okay?"
I'm not saying that she didn't miss Haylee , but she certainly had not a trace of internal emotion AS IN NEVER DURING THE ENTIRE BOOK . That's just not realistic writing . She doesn't really seem to feeling anything at all except ... Lust ?? What a role model . The entire time she seemed like she was trying to 'act' things like this ;
"... I wasn't sure ( if) I should ( do anything honestly). If your best friend died, that seemed like the sort of thing that ought to stay on your mind for a while."
She acts like a robot and then complains that ;
"The lecture about how I wasn't handling my feelings appropriately. "
When she tries to force herself to cry... ok what ;
"If I just got my eyes started, like priming a pump, then surely I could cry. But my eyes just felt stiff ."
Also this when she tries to excuse her behavior.
" Maybe being a b!#¢$ was part of grieving ."
Nope honey that's just you being you .
Content ; PG-13
Very heavy makeouts -borderline sexual * bruh you NASTY *
Strong language
Talk of rape and sexual abuse
Suicide ,cutting
Very bad rep of depression / anxiety in a character