Niyama really sat there in that afterwards and said they purposefully made this less messy than it could have been… babe you are so messy for this volume, this was so messy!!!
I wanted to rate this lower, maybe a 2.5/ 5 stars, but it’s not bad by far. I just think I have to do a bit of separation between the first volume and where things are going. After I read the love confession at the end, I was just left confused. Because truly why do they even love each other? Bl loves to call lust or a crush “love,” and I’ve come to accept that since these are just supposed to be fun romance novels. Escapism and fantasy, if you will. But I actually cannot separate church and state here! They haven’t significantly opened up to one another, they haven’t even said that they’re dating, and as I’ve said this whole time they truly have no reason to like each other outside of the bomb ass sex. Which also now that I’m thinking about it… why is the sex even that good for Shinobu anymore? He was a bit of a player in the past, and Hikaru is written to practically feel virginal and inexperienced. I kinda thought the whole reason they were both into it at first was the degradation/ humiliation of it all but that got dropped after the first volume. Surely that ‘straight man turned gay’ doesn’t offer a hole so glorious that Shinobu can’t even picture himself with another man anymore. But apparently he’s fallen. For some reason. Still don’t get why, but maybe that’s the love I thought was missing after all.
Damn now I’m on my soapbox, thinking about the series as a whole. Wasn’t it sorta like Shinobu realized he was being an asshole leading Hikaru on, and that’s why he felt bad and confessed to his crimes in the first volume? That’s not love or lust babe, that’s just realizing you’ve been an ass and not wanting to continue being a bad person. I just don’t see the chemistry that everyone else sees between these two. At all. And I’m kinda mad about it, I really want to like this series! But I was rooting for The King to come in here and break them up, by whatever means necessary! And he’s kinda crazy and I was still hoping things would go in a different direction!
I also just don’t think the overarching plot that this series is going for is particularly unique, new, or interesting. I do think the love triangle subversion was super fun and unique, and the new character offered a lot of comedy as well as acted as a driving factor for them to progress their relationship. I’m just like… but they didn’t actually progress their relationship. All they did was say I love you, and that was at the very end. Idk!!! Maybe I’m holding my yaoi to too high of a standard. The way Shinobu is written makes me yearn for a romance that doesn’t progress in the typical manner of a bl romance, I don’t want the playboy to settle down and get hitched, but I do want to see him open up and grow and experience new things. And I’d also like to understand him better, get to actually know these characters, ya know. I’m conflicted I guess. That’s also why I was hoping The King would actually shake things up, but no. To nobody’s surprise, the main couple ends up stronger than ever despite the obstacles thrown at them. For some reason.
I think my general dissatisfaction with this series might also be caused by my sheer disinterest and mild hatred of Hikaru. I still don’t like his character at all I am so sorry. And to add insult to injury… I also don’t think he’s hot! :/
Oh also, the Clark Kent/ Superman of it all was part of the appeal of this series for me, how Shinobu had an entirely different persona at work than at home or the bar. I understand that in order for things to progress, it couldn’t stay like that forever. But his workplace persona was definitely where a lot of Shinobu’s charm came from for me, and having the line between the two get muddled more and more has become less interesting or unique feeling to me. It’s starting to feel like any other bl now, which is a shame.
That’s all the hot takes I can muster for now. Oops, accidentally rage baited myself instead of just… enjoying the hot steamy yaoi with the gorgeous top.