5 “I’m so fucking confused I need book 2 and a therapy session immediately” stars!!
Thank you for the ARC (I practically begged for it lol), Veronica, I love you for life!
Omfg this book!
I normally can write my review as I go, get quotes, and just pause between moments to write my thoughts, but I couldn’t put it down!
I was engaged and confused from the jump. Luce never has it easy, I see. The prompt was so interesting and intriguing. Knowing Veronica and how she writes her MCs, I was already suspicious of everything and everyone not being who they seemed.
Ze was everything and more. His reactions to Luce, her pain, her past, her grief... he wanted her to think only of him, and when that wasn't the case, he'd find a way for it to be. He wanted to avenge her, even if the culprit was already dead, he'd find a way to still kill/torture him. When Luce fell asleep on him, he'd act like I do when my cat falls asleep on top of me, I'd rather die than move and wake it up (duh, I'm the chosen one in that moment). He'd pack chocolate for her because he knew she loved it, he'd bring it into the weirdest moments ever...hiking in the jungle? Chocolate. Mid-secret mission? Chocolate. She was mad at him? Chocolate. He also would explain stuff to her, the politics, the specifics about laws, the distinction between demons…he always makes sure she knows the information fully, not halfassed explanations like Thea or Cer did.
His being sort of the most powerful god like being out there and her being a human made for the funniest and most interesting dynamic. This man said, “You are now my cute stray cat,” and though he was giving the best compliment ever…And not going to lie, it would work on me, I fear. He did research by reading “billionaire romance” books because she said she liked those…this fucking man omg, tell me you wouldn't fold like a cheap lawn chair immediately? And of course she wouldn't realize that he keeps mentioning he’s rich because she said that’s what she wants in her romance books…she’s blind as fuck!
His past is so muddled, and he's been alive and serving the Supremes for so long he didn't even know his birthday...and what does this man do? He asks her to pick one for him and then gives every single excuse as to why it can’t be in any month/day but the same as hers…and my feelings for him grew ten times more.
And of course he’s fine as fuck!
Lucero, Luce, was blind...sure, she was grieving her recently dead hubby, but woman, get over him already! (It has been like two-three weeks...come on) She had that fine man, so into her and so attentive and caring (he has no rizz and zero manners, but gooood intentions okay?) and what does she do? Friendzone the fuck out of him...while also starting to fall for him...while also having the most romantic-relationship looking friendship ever... Like come on, she’s washing his hair and he’s so damn happy and the moment his hair is done he turn around and demands he washes hers...
Luce was so brave and so determined. She was headstrong and loyal. I loved that she had the patience to get to know Ze, to look past his gruff mean side and saw his need for love, his confusion with feelings...she saw him, or at least who I think is the real him.
And let me tell you, the plot on this fucking book will have you confused, screaming, theorizing, texting your friends and making detective boards on your walls trying to figure out which way is up. Lets just say I need book two (and three why lie) immediately. Like yesterday.
Some raw thoughts without spoilers:
-This mf just said “you are dead now, but not forever…I’ll fix that” casually
-He acted like I do when my cat falls asleep on top of me “I’m not moving until he does” BRO I LOVE HIM
-He packed her chocolate…HE PACKED HER CHOCOLATE
-Going from “human” to “little human” MY FEELS AGAIN
-She keeps friendzoning him!!! Like I understand, her hubby JUST died but my heart hurts for him…but also, does he know something we/she doesn’t about the husband and him…
-54% in…WHAT THE FUCK
-I’m so confused I can’t even
-I too would fold immediately for chocolate
-He said “girl I need two pearls…here, cry some more”
-Let’s go on a date…to hell!!
-95% WHAT!? THE?!? FUCK?!!?!
-“Ze. My friend” FRIEND?!? Are you kidding me bruh?
Quotes:
"I am not a king—yet. You may call me my liege. But for you, sir will suffice."
“I am nice to you.”
“You are my person. I will not let anything happen to you.”
“You mean I’m your teammate,”
“You are my person,”
"Let me help you build a new past, present, and future. Let me love you until you love yourself, too, Luce. Just... Let me love you."
“What am I then?”
“Mine”
"Hello, little human," he purrs into my mind.
"You are also the only one who has had the privilege to be touched by these lips. You are welcome."
"You are not my enemy, Luce. I do not care what you are. You are not the enemy. Understand?"
"Not only are you the first female I am taking on a date, but you are also getting an exclusive tour of hell. No one but me would have been able to arrange something like this,"
"Oh, you are the most potent poison of all. And I have yet to taste you."
"You are staring," he murmurs.
"W-what?"
"Do not stop. I like it."
"Then I matter only if I matter to you."
Also, if you read this far...i wrote this review and didn't read it, so if some parts make sense and others are just raw emotion...roll with it and read the book, you'll understand. AND if you read it, pls pls pls message me! Your reactions while reading, your final thoughts...I love that stuff!