I was going to be free of this horrible town, away from the small-minded, perfect people who judged me at first glance without bothering to look again.
Nothing has changed. And yet everything has changed.
The alphas that once acted as my shield now look at me with hatred in their eyes.
They say it’s my fault. All of it is my fault.
But when fate decides I haven’t suffered enough, she slaps me across the face with a mating bond none of us wanted.
All of us are drowning in our pain. If we’re not careful, none of us will survive.
Not that I care. I’m dying anyway.
Book one in a contemporary, rejected mate omegaverse duet from the author of the Bonding Trials and The Light in Us.
Evelyn Flood is an Amazon bestselling author of more than fifteen romance books.
She writes in various sub-genres including contemporary romance, fantasy romance and why choose, but you'll always find a main course of angst and a side dish of uncontrollable sobbing in every book she writes.
She's based in South Wales, where she spends most of her time hopping between coffee shops with her laptop in hand and buying a ridiculous amount of notebooks to write all of her ideas down.
Find her on Facebook in her reader group, The Evelyn Flood Collective.
**Ends on cliffhanger** Angst = h is the town pariah as everyone believes she murdered the town's golden boy (one of her mates' twin brother who she never felt comfortable being around) in cold blood. h is suffering from a terminal disease that the reader is left in the dark about until later in the story. Everyone including her newly discovered fated mates treat the h like dirt. They all openly insult, degrade and humiliate the h every chance they get. h's pathetic father only sees her as a burden and can't wait to rid himself of being responsible for the h, not that he ever does anything loving for the h, but he is neglectful to say the least.
Omegaverse = h was childhood friends with her mates and they all hung out together. As they aged older, they all had the intent to be together, even the deceased twin (DT) who the h felt very uncomfortable being around. The DT would often make statements such as "my omega" and not "our" which made everyone uncomfortable, but was brushed off as no big deal. DT's possessiveness was not normal and was a symptom of bad to come...
Rejected mate = when the mates (4 of them) see the h after she falls down as she is at work in the town' popular and full diner, they all realize they are fated mates. They publicly and cruelly deny her and in effect reject her both in their minds and verbally/physically.
h sees Hs with OW = the Hs invite and crowd around OW at their table at the diner days after the rejection scene. Hs are all smiles and OW all giggles, arms around the OW and h walking past sees them. (Don't worry, h is not a door mat and lets her feelings be known in a violent way)
SA/R = Come to find out the true story with the DT and the h. Dt took h out alone for a picnic where he told her they would bond and would not be in a pack, just the two of them. h got scared and ran. DT caught her and proceeded to steal all her firsts in a brutal way. For every time DT asked the h to bond and she refused he forced a "bonding" bite on her...seventeen times. The bites are festering open/weeping injuries that are slowly killing the h. h will go feral then her heart will give out. h as tried to shoulder the burden of this truth for months but it all comes out to her mates. They go to her and it ends with h being hauled off to "end of care" treatment center with Hs watching.
Gut wrenching and now I have to not so patiently wait for the second book which come out the end of April.
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ARC Review ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ In another life, I would have been cherished. Maybe I will be, somewhere else. But not this one. Not here.
I was unable to put this book down. My heart and soul were ripped from my chest. Everything hurts, and I don’t know how I’ll pass the time before part two is released.
Read this book, but be prepared for the anguish. The agony. The looming loss.
This is a no-burn, why-choose, rejected mates omegaverse romance with loads of angst and a broken omega FMC—part one in a duet that ends at a cliffhanger.
5⭐️ The way this book pulled me out of a slump and had me glued to my kindle from start to finish.. STOP IT WAS SO SO GOOD. Why choose omega-verses are going to do it for me every time… but add in fated mates, with a good ass plot with secrets, lies, yearning, friends-to-lovers-to-hate- to??? Ugh, my heart was hurting so much for Kennedy and all that shes had to endure and to know it’s not over?!!! BYE IM ABOUT TO JUMP INTO BOOK 2.
No star rating, because I DNF'ed. I rarely DNF, because even if I'm like, "this is bad," I'm also usually like, "but I have to find out what happens!!"
This had potential, it's an Omegaverse RH that's very emo. The heroine is literally dying, and the heroes don't know it. They're being mean to her (because they blame her for killing one guy's brother, when it's extremely obvious there's more to the story of what happened). Sometimes I enjoy intense angst, so I was onboard for all this.
But, it didn't flesh out any of the characters. It was hard to tell who was who very far into the story. One guy had curly hair. Another liked to hike. Those were their main distinctive traits. It was just like, names on a page being thrown at me, without their personalities being developed. So the angst didn't land. The only thing making me turn pages was the mystery of what was going on - what happened with the dead guy they think she killed, why she's dying. That wasn't enough to anchor me, when the writing on the characters was so flimsy, and the plot was undercooked.
She's also an EXTREME martyr to the point where it's absurd, and it's no longer emotional. She lost me, because her behavior made no sense. Like she's thinks she has 1 week left to live, and instead of relaxing and doing something she loves, she working a menial job. She also refuses to tell the guys what really happened with the dead guy, even when it might save her life. So, she's just passively accepting her death. I like a downtrodden heroine, but this crosses the line to making her unlikable - because she was more of a heroine who was just going to lay down and die. That's a different flavor of thing than just being a "downtrodden heroine." She had no gumption.
Since the characters weren't fleshed out, my curiosity to find out what happened fizzled out. I didn't care about them enough.
We are told the reveal pretty much halfway through the book - not the exact details, but enough. By Chapter 2 we know something big happened and our FMC's avoiding her former pack.
I really dislike (non-comedic) books where the entire plot relies on lack of communication - one character keeping a secret from the other characters, but not the reader. I also hate books that are centred around chases and nothing else. There's never any character development, since they're all avoiding one another, so it's all just one big pointless game of tip.
The multiple POVs and the continuous reiteration of her illness made everything feel so redundant. Yes, we get it, she has a terminal illness. There's no real exploration of how this actually affects her on a daily basis - when it's convenient to the plot she walks multiple k's, runs and knees people in the face, and when she needs to suffer she's in pain. She has zero friends or support system and spends the entire book angsting. Look, I have no issue with FMCs who are isolated for plot reasons,, but if you are going to do that then you need to actually have a PLOT.
I much prefer books that start out with a problem and then work out how to solve that problem, instead of having the MCs just... not communicate. This didn't feel like a romance novel at all, just an angst-fest that went nowhere and did nothing. There was one moment where I felt any connection between the MCs. For the rest of the time they barely interacted and everything was told through flashbacks.
I understand that this is Part One, but this gave me zilch.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
Wasn't sure how to rate this, but I'm gonna give it 4⭐ because: 1) I have a thing for characters named Theo 😅 2) Finished in just about one sitting 3) Dark and heavy 4) High redemption potential for the guys
This gets right into it and it's pretty much non-stop heartbreak, hurt, and despair. If you're wanting a palate cleanser from all the warm and fuzzy reads, this is what you need. I enjoyed it in that it was dark, but it will only be worth it if things turn for the better in the end.
This is probably the most emotional I have ever been reading an Omegaverse RH romance 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
⚜ rating: 5/5 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟 ⚜Genre: Omegaverse ⚜Theme: RH romance ⚜Targeted audience: adults ⚜Characters: Kennedy, Jake, Oscar, Max, Theo - ⚜side Characters: Brett (the villain) - his father ⚜Representation: deep depression ⚜ driven: Character driven with important plot ⚜Pace: fast ⚜TW: on page rape, emotional damage, self harm, potential death ⚜ tropes: fated mates, hidden secret, second chance, rejected mate, virgin Hs. ⚜ POV: multiple first person ⚜ spice: 🌶 because this first book delt with sexual assault, sex between the main characters was non-existence, thank God. ⚜standalone: no - first book in a duet ⚜Ending: big reveal ⚜Book read: ebook
When discussing Omegaverse with a friend of mine, they said that they don't read omegaverse books because they are all about the spice and smut. I told them that it depends on the author and the subject matter and that a smart author would take this theme to tackle a very sensitive social issue.
This book is a great example of my point. Evelyn Flood is going to be one of my favorite RH omegaverse author. This is the second duet I've read by her and both were highly emotional.
Flood chose to discuss the heavy subject of sexual assault using the world of Alpha Omega.
there were so many social conundrums that were brilliantly presented in a 200+ book
the book opens with Kennedy, an Omega, taking the news that she is dying the reason is because she was raped by a feral alpha, and not just any alpha, someone she knows, trusted, and was a potential mate. his bites turned poisonous and because she was not mated, she is facing death by turning feral herself not only that, she is being accused of murdering Brett without hearing her side of the story. her four would-be mates were not there for her, did not believe her, and moreover, accused her of betraying them. Kennedy is shunned by the community Brett's mother is atrocious to her this shows how many societies still put the blame on the victim rather on the abuser
I loved the writing style. The plot was fast-paced with many emotional instances that left me tearing up I loved Kennedy, such a strong character who endured a lot but still faced what is left of her life. The book ends with a big revelation and the promise of grovel from the guys.
i did have fun reading it angst was good and grovel was also better than i expected ngl. i felt so bad for fmc my heart broke a little.
safety
all of em are v i dont count fmcs SA, small/medium ow mmcs think fmc killed one of them (in truth he was a monster) so in one scene they use ow to make her jealous and laugh with her/make her sit with them (which annoyed me cuz both ow wanted them since high school so she treated fmc bad and fmc mentions oscar and theo laughing casually with her), also public rejection scene which makes me mad therefore i expect fmc to publicly humiliate them back IDC I'm petty, i expected at least one of them to stuck by her.
they do grovel with sticking by her through her feral ness but to me that's like bare minimum, next time they see ow theo also rejects her, they give up uni for her also.
Goodness I'm glad the next book is already out as I'm crying at the end of that one. I hope Kennedy can beat the odds. I hope There's Father faces some kind of punishment.
Thank you for the ARC! This was a painful start to a story. I do feel like we didn't learn alot until the end. The mystery of her illness and what happened to her wasn't revealed until the men found out. A little upset that Kennedy still kept some truths from them to protect them. Whenever there's a "you hate me because you think I did something but really I'm protecting you" is in a story I don't like it. I do feel like we didn't get to learn much about the characters and their personalities fully yet. regardless, I'm interested to see how the story progresses and if there will be grovel.
I personally was not a fan of this book. Almost the entire book was spent waiting to find out what exactly happened to Kennedy. There’s a lot of teasing about the possibility of her being a murderer vs a victim, but it’s not something that’s really revealed until the end. I understand there’s a book 2 to pick up the story from where it’s at, so it may help to know that this book is just teasing the backstory.
If you like secrets, angst and future groveling then this book is for you. I binged this book so fast because I HAD to know what happened to the FMC. It drove me nuts seeing how everyone treated her so poorly! Overall it was well done and I can’t wait to read the next book. The MMCs better grovel A LOT!
This......this was so beautifully written. From the very first chapter this book dug its claws into my being and it never let go. A thick somber cloud hangs over, imbuing every page with a sense of foreboding. The author manages to blend the perfect cocktail of angst and conflict for grovelling. Every pinprick of pain, suffering and tension demanded to be felt and feel it I did.
It's been a while since I read an omegaverse that surprised me. It reads like a villain's origin story. This isn't smutty (maybe that's in book 2?), but I found that I enjoyed the smut free content a lot. It's brutal, though. Rejected bonds make a good plot device. Looking forward to the next book, too. Maybe I actually like reading again?
This book was fast paced and was easily devoured in one sitting. With that being said, I have no interest in the direction the duet took and I will not move onto book 2. The villain died before the story started and the “battle” to come is internal. Not my cup of tea. BUT an entertaining quick read for book one.
We'd better get some good asf grovel in the next book cuz I really wanna 👊🏽👊🏽👊🏽 these MMCs.
Also Idk why I do this to myself. I read this knowing that the next book doesn't come out until next week so I only have myself to blame. May 5th come faster 😭
After reading the blurb, I already had a feeling that this book would be so emotional. However I still didn't think that I would be bawling my eyes out and still loving this book so much.
I honestly couldn’t care less about the mated bonds and the omegaverse, but I DEVORED this book. Literally finished it in two seatings, which is unusual for me. Short, intriguing and straight to the point - I need the sequel right this second!!
Need the second one NOW. I also Kenny to have all the good things in the world. 🥺
Her dad is a deadbeat loser. Him and Theo’s dad deserve to rot in hell with Brett in the losers club cell. I’m picturing weenie hut junior from SpongeBob except they’re being forced to inhale fire instead of ice cream 😤
Well this was unexpected and captivating and so very emotional. I have no clue how they come back from this but my heart broke for all of them. I really, really hope this has a HEA.
🎶 “And I don't miss what we had, but could someone give. A message to the smallest man who ever lived?”🎶
Six months ago, she thought she had her future mapped out—escape from a judgmental town and the people who never saw past her mistakes. Now, everything has fallen apart. The alphas who once protected her can barely stand to look at her, blaming her for a tragedy she can’t undo. When fate cruelly binds them all with an unwanted mating bond, resentment turns to agony, and survival feels impossible. Consumed by guilt and fading fast, she wonders if any of them will make it out alive—or if this bond will be the end of them all.
—*•.¸♡ ★·.·☾ ゚。´THOUGHTS ゚☁︎。`·.·★ ♡¸.•*⋆—
I hate Brett for what he did to Kennedy. Truly. What he did was cruel, manipulative, and completely unforgivable. He deserved every ounce of pain he got—and honestly, I hope he’s still suffering for it in the afterlife because nothing could ever make up for what he put her through. Kennedy’s been suffering alone for so long, and when she finally finds her mates, they don’t want her. They reject her, humiliate her publicly, and run to another girl—so yeah, she’s absolutely entitled to go a little feral. Smashing their car with a bat? Valid behavior. At that point, she’s unraveling because of what Theo’s brother did to her, and no one bothered to see how broken she really was. As a pack, they should’ve seen she was sick, struggling, and desperate for help. But instead, they stayed in denial. Theo was the worst offender—his anger and bitterness blinded him. He refused to forgive her because he believed she killed his brother, when in reality, his brother was the one who destroyed her life. It’s tragic, frustrating, and honestly made me want to shake all of them.
—*•.¸♡ ★·.·☾ ゚。´OVERALL゚☁︎。`·.·★ ♡¸.•*⋆—
This one had heavier elements than I expected. The other woman drama was expected, sure, but what really got me was how no one would just listen to Kennedy. Watching her struggle and deal with everything on her own while people kept shutting her out was rough. It made the whole story hit harder because you could feel how isolated she was, and it honestly made her breakdowns make sense. She was mentally drowning, and nobody cared enough to throw her a rope.
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It was a bit hard reading the beginning of this book. Kennedy ("Kenny") was the town pariah. Everyone thought of her as a murderer. However, despite the story not coming out right away, it was obvious something more happened the day everything happened.
She couldn't face everyone's hatred and judgment. So she became a recluse, staying up in a trailer in the mountains with her father, whom she didn't have much of a relationship with. Eventually, her exes find out she's still in town, however, and they demand to know the truth of that day everything came crashing down. She's just torn between what's easiest - save them from the truth and let them continue hating her, or be honest and break their hearts again. Either way, it's a lose-lose.
Despite Kenny not giving in to their demands, the guys do find out bits and pieces, or at least clues that make them think things aren't as simple as they were led to believe.
If you're a bit more on the emotional side, this book may cause tears, so beware! There's a LITTLE bit of groveling, somewhat, as well, but there may be more to come!