This is not your every day perfect love story wrapped in a pretty bow. It's raw, real, beautiful, and heartbreaking. It touches on issues of depression, bipolar, and an epic love story that everyone hopes to have, and might even have, but forgets in the chaos of mundane every day life. This is a REAL love story based on actual events of a man who loved a woman too deeply and a woman who loved a man the only way she could.
"Gah! This book! I don't even ... I can't ..." ~Kari (Amazon Reviewer)
"This book is beyond amazing and I like that Dani doesn't shy away from the darker issues such as the depression that Lennox suffers with!" ~Tasha (Amazon Reviewer)
"Dani Hart's A Firefighter's Flame will have your chest so tight with emotions even the hardest of people will succumb." ~The Devious Book Harlot
"Ms Hart writes so eloquently I was crying toward the end and smiling at the same time. This is a stirring story about not taking for granted who you have in your life as they can be tore away in a heartbeat. 5 teary fangs." ~Paranormal Romance & Authors That Rock
"This is a genuinely raw story that will bring you to tears. It isn't very often we get to follow the journey of such a real character. One who struggles with love, loss, children, temptation, death and HONESTY. Painful, gut wrenching honesty!" ~Staci (Amazon Reviewer)
BLURB If you dig into the deepest parts of your soul, what would you find? Happiness, pain, love, regret, peace, sorrow? Now imagine experiencing all those feelings at once and then nothing at all. These were the average days in the life of Lennox Ashford.
Lennox walked a fine line between truth and deception, love and lust, and most of all, pain and happiness. A line had been drawn between highs and lows, testing her stability on a daily basis. She lived in between the grays of right and wrong, not knowing which way to sway. Strength was supposed to come from within, but being broken exposed her weaknesses instead.
She grew up believing in love and believing in Dean. He protected her when she was weak, picked her up when she fell, and fought for her when she couldn’t. They lived for each other, and eventually, for their children.
High school, college, marriage, children, and many rocky days had taken a toll on their marriage, deepening Lennox’s depression and screaming for a way out. She needed something. She needed a change. Fate intervened and the change she got was not what she expected nor wanted.
A tragic moment will test her already wavering strength and leave a permanent scar on her conscience. Follow her journey of rediscovering love and searching for her own fairy-tale ending.
This book is classified under romance. I don't see it. I kept wanting to dnf this book so many times. I kept going because I knew some smart-ass little trolls would pop up and try and correct my opinion on the reasoning that I had dnf'd the book. I should have known when I looked at this book's perfect ratings that something was up.
This will probably go all spoilery so you have been warned. And ranty. Don't forget the ranty. The story is told in dis-jointed flash backs. Part of the story takes place back when the main character meets guy and part now. After she has married and had kids by said guy. It makes for odd reading. I've read other books that do the same thing and they usually can pull it off. This one does not. Reason #1 I wanted to dnf. Then the main character-Lennox. I didn't like this character AT ALL! She is one of those characters that has to have a man. If she is not currently with one she is surely looking around. Oh..but it's not put that way of course, it's sparks and excitement she feels with the guy. Whatever. Reason #2 why I wanted to dnf this book. She meets Dean when she is pretty young. LOVE happens. Bleck. He is her first and I honestly did not even realize when they had sex in the book. I had to back up and re-read. Smexy times for sure. Don't get me wrong. I don't have to have some sex but I would like to at least know when it happens. Dean is in a band and has to spend time away from Lennox, so he cheats on her while away. He does try and lie his way out of it. But is Lennox completely innocent? She has been making goo-goo eyes at one of Dean's friends. Braedyn. Reason #3 why I wanted to dnf. So Dean and Lennox break up and she hooks up with Braedyn. He of course is the love of her life. Then he disappears. So she decides to hook back up with Dean. They get married and have kids. Then at her friend Kylie's (we will get to her in a minute) bachelorette party/weekend. Guess who appears? Ohhhh she has missed him. Her and Dean are having marital problems because of her memories of this guy. She is sorta happy to see him. SPOILERY AHEAD!!!! She goes home and decides she needs to talk with her husband. But doesn't. So Dean has an accident on the job as a firefighter saving a baby. He is laying in the hospital almost dead and she feels the need to go to his bedside and spill her guts to him. Reason #five million why I wanted to dnf this book. He dies!!!!! So what does she do after the funeral? Meets back up with Braedyn. Then she is feeling some sparks later with one of Dean's friends. Lawd help.
So what's the deal with her and her friendship with Kylie?...Kylie drugs her at a party because she wants her to have a "good time". Forgiven. Kylie wrecks after said party and Lennox is the only one hurt. Forgiven. Kylie makes out with Dean. (Which to me is against the girl code of all girl codes) Forgiven Kylie is the one that makes sure Braedyn is at the party so that feelings can get discussed. Forgiven.
There is also a manic depressive storyline and I'm not knocking mental health. I suffer from depression and battle it daily. What irritates me is using it as a crutch. She supposedly has a miscarriage early on. Did she have a pregnancy test? Nope. She just had a "feeling" She bled one day with a history of irregular periods. If that's the case my pre-menopausal ass is in trouble. Then she stops taking her meds. NOT because the doctor agrees, but because she has decided she can handle things.
This fucking book. I would tell the ending-which is the biggest BULLSHIT of all but I have no more facepalms left. There is so much wrong with this book that I'm tired of typing. I'm gonna go hide my head. It hurts from the facepalms.
This isn't really romance. It's women's fiction more than anything else, and while I liked it, I wasn't in love with it. The subject matter in this book isn't for everybody. The heroine suffers from bi-polar disorder and it plays a very large in the plot. The way the author tackled the topic of bipolar disorder was lovely and authentic. Unfortunately, this book was just too gloomy for my taste. It did end on a positive note with Lennox finally at peace with her life. But for the most part, it was dark and depressing. I'd still recommend this one but read it only when you are in the right frame of mind or in need of a good cry. :)
ARC provided by NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
Initial reaction: Tough subject matter based on author's experiences, but the poor quality of the narration and disjointed organization of the narrative frustrated me greatly.
Full review:
Quick review for a not-so-quick read. Matter in point, this book was so hard for me to get through that I had to pick it up and put it down several times. I wasn't sure if I would finish it, it frustrated me so much.
The problem wasn't the tough subject matter in itself. Lennox (Len), the main character, is a woman with many issues: suffering from bipolar disorder, having post-partum depression, dealing with a marriage on the rocks, her on again/off again relationship with her best friend, among other things.
The problem I had was the extremely poor presentation of all these things in the narrative. The writing left much to be desired. I felt like it was oversimplifying Len's ordeals and making them far more shallow than they should've been. I felt like the way the author chose to present these details was an odd combination of telegraphing the emotions the character felt (which feels like you're being talked down to as a reader, taking away any suspense or intimacy that could be ascertained from the narrative itself) and also the organization was pretty much anything goes. The narrative had a wayward way of jumping from the past to the present and to different points in time without any rhyme or reason to them. It wasn't very well organized and pulled me out of the story more often than not. This was definitely a problem in the first half of the story, so much that I almost put the title down. But it was only after about 50% when I realized "Ah, okay, the emotional quality is evening out a little - the author's not telling these details as much and I can see why Len feels the way she does." But those key moments were shortlived as it ceded back to the familiar and gave me a rollercoaster ride of difficulty getting through the narrative again.
There's a reason why the cardinal rules of writing are "show, don't tell" and "less is more." This narrative, despite showing a very flawed heroine dealing with a very weighted history of contradictions, mental illness, deceptions, among other things, felt undersold to me by its lacking presentation. I probably would've valued it more if it had been more intimate with the character perspective and less "telling" for details. Overall, I really didn't care for the read and it saddens me because I could value a good narrative which explores a raw, honest look at mental illness. Unfortunately, with its respective sloppy presentations and biases, I couldn't see many merits over the flaws here.
Overall score: 1.5/5 stars
Note: I received this as an ARC from NetGalley, from the publisher.
I was blessed to be a Beta reader for this book. So I know that in reviews, people don't want to hear how the author is friends with the reviewer, that usually makes people think, "Oh she's only doing it because they are friends!" Yeah, we ALL know THOSE people. That's not me. So get over yourself.
Ok, so. I'm not going to do a spoiler review because I wonder if people who have not read the book even read them? Plus I HATE spoilers.
Brutal honesty. This book is AMAZING! Completely not what I ever expected, although I didn't really know what to expect. Portions of this story are real. Portions I related to 100% and it was a bit nerve wrecking. This story is about love, betrayal, hate, passion but most importantly, honesty. It gets you all giddy, then angsty, then angry, then....kinda turned on, then BAM, your hit with another WTF, but a good WTF.
The story is dark, happy, sad and honestly, heartbreaking. This story as I read it, was point on real. I felt like I WAS indeed Lennox. Anyone who reads my reviews, knows that's my TOP favorite, being pulled in as the characters. But it also brought out a lot of daemons from my own past. It was hard at times because everyone, not just myself included, has had to face some sort of life altering situation at least once in their life, more if your normal. My point is, this is not my normal genre or story type that I read, just as I did with the authors first book, The Life Of Arie. Something about her writing captivates me and everything becomes so much clearer in life.
This is a book that you better grab a box of tissues before you settle in and read. Be prepared for what I stated before. Love. Betrayal. Hate. Passion. Honesty.
I have spent a lot of time helping Dani pull this book together, from the model search, to the photographer, to the photo shoot and to all of the other madness in between. This sort of story can amount for a lot of pressure for one to write. I think what she has written is brilliant and so worth reading.
We must remember, none of our lives are perfect, they never are nor will they ever be. If you think you live that life, you are clearly not living. Sometimes it's good to put a pen to paper and just write, whatever it may be. Before you know it, you may just be reading the story of your life.
A Firefighter’s Flame took a much different route than I expected. When I was first started this ARC I initially thought, “ooh! Hot fireman!, this book is going to have a lot of steam!” but it wasn’t like that. It was much MORE.
This story dives into several different themes that people can relate to in everyday life: love, loss, faith, betrayal, trust, and regret.
The main character, Lennox, is the wife of a firefighter and is quite like most of us individuals. She endures many similar struggles that we do and her inner dialogues are so very genuine and realistic to most of the crossroads and obstacles that we all come across at some point.
The only difference that separates Lennox from many is her battle with depression and a manic disorder.
I, myself, like Lennox, have battled a long dealing with depression and know from personal experience that it is not a walk in the park.
I could ramble on about this but I think this book is more of a read it for yourself because it was that worth of a read!
It was such a privilege to see Lennox bloom from teenager into an adulthood while battling this illness of hers and seeing her grow, fall in love, make decisions, take chances while trying to rediscover and find herself.
A DEFINITE MUST READ that packs a lot of great feelings and emotions and most importantly…HEART!
~*~ WARNING ~*~ This book will require at least one full box if Kleenex!!!
I can't even begin to describe the love I have for it. It is not your typical book about firefighters but will not be disappointed!!
Its about a firefighters wife, name Lennox. She adores her husband and has beautiful children that she loves with all her heart! She feels as though she has lost herself in the process and that something is missing in her life.
"I was depressed and and felt trapped because I never did anything for myself"
This book is beyond amazing and I like that Dani doesn't shy away from the darker issues such as the depression that Lennox suffers with! It's something that as you read parts of it, you can relate to as a wife or mother and be like "that's me, I've been there"
This book has everything that a reader wants. You go through every single emotion with Lennox. You completely feel for her! It just shows how strong someone can be when they have people that depend on them!
It takes you through what I feel is such a beautiful story of love, pain and overcoming obstacles (physical and emotional). You see how she met her husband Dean, and how their love started. It takes you thorough years of marriage, love found, love lost, and love rekindled.
"I wanted to believe we could come back from this, but I just didn't know if that was what I wanted anymore. I was conflicted and confused as I had been for so long"
It was so full of unexpected surprises and I was totally blown away with the twists and turns this book takes you on! I found myself yelling at my kindle multiple times and I'm not ashamed to say I also ugly cried like a baby on more than one occasion!! I love a book that can pull those emotions from the reader.
AFF is worth so much more than the 5 stars I can offer. It is definitely one of my top faves for 2014!!!
**I was given the privilege of beta reading for an unbiased review**
The first 5 or so chapters of this book had me hooked. It felt like the main character, Lennox, was describing my life in some fashion. She was completely relatable to me. Her struggle, depression, guilt, confusion – all of these things had me feeling like Lennox could be my best friend.
Lennox is at a crossroads in her life and has to make a decision. She takes us through her past, present and into her future. Lennox met her husband young and feels like maybe her marriage isn’t where she needs to be any longer. Has she outgrown her marriage or is she just confused by feelings that are conjured up when she sees an old flame? These are things she has to sort through in order to make her decision on what is next in her life. What comes next I did not expect.
The only way to describe the writing style of Miss Hart would be romantic. It becomes more than just words on a page. She describes in detail how the water feels on her feet or how the breeze cools her skin. It really takes you to that place and time in the book. Her writing style has you glued to the pages.
Thank you Miss Hart for this opportunity and bravo on a job well done.
What a fantastic story!!! A gut wrenching emotional roller coaster ride about Lennox, a 32 year old woman struggling with depression/bipolar disorder, motherhood, being married to a firefighter, and having a soul mate who is not her husband. This is her journey of how she came to be where she is and ultimately how she handles the ultimate tragedy in combination with all the other stresses in her life.
This book had me in tears multiple times! Lennox is an amazingly strong character who deals with her mental illness without medication. Granted, without it she has extreme highs and lows which make you want to slap her and her stubbornness sometimes. Dean (the husband) is a wonderfully supportive and romantic man who wants Lennox, faults and all. Though he makes mistakes along the way, ultimately she is the love of his life. Brayden (the soul mate) is a friend of Dean's, who also struggles with depression and has a connection with Lennox from the first time they meet. The connection they have, and their inability to be more than friends at the time, create a friendship unlike any other over the years which ends in heartbreak that is opened up again after many years.
I could not put this book down and devoured it in one sitting. Dani Hart has written an amazing, honest, and realistic story that will draw you in and make you feel as though you are a part of Lennox. I can say it is not a cliffhanger, but also not a HEA. There is definitely room for more to the story if she chooses to…which makes me very happy because I would love to see the long-term outcome of a few things.
Though this book has situations of sex and suicide it is cleanly written and, in my opinion, would not be offensive to anyone who chooses to read it. If you are looking for a good emotional read this is one for you!!
I love me some Dani Hart. But honestly... this woman made me cry with this book. Ugly cry. Before reading the synopsis I was expecting another good romance novel, but it's so much more than that. it's touching like you wouldn't believe. I don't think there are words to describe how much this book will make you feel. Just be sure to grab a box or two of tissues. Lennox's pain felt so real, I felt it. Though never having been in a situation such as hers, I felt like I had. This book was a true emotional roller coaster. I loved how you would see her pain, then visit her past through her memories, and feel what she felt then as well. Though never forgetting her current pain.You will not feel for the characters, you will become the characters, and everything will feel like it's happening to you. You will experience Lennox's life, and past, You see how she met and fell in love with her husband, and everything they went through together. Even her friendship with her best friend Kylie. This book really touched my heart. This is a beautiful heart breakingly wonderful book, and you will be hooked from page 1. I loved the pace of this book. It wasn't fast or slow, it was full of memories, and I didn't feel like I was reading a book but more like I was watching a movie. If I had to put this book in a category, I'm not sure I could. I feel it deserves something unique because everything about it is.
Honestly if I could, I'd give this book a 10 out of 5.
Okay, I'll start at the beginning. I received a copy of this book from an author giveaway on a book blog that I follow. I hadn't heard if the book before (!!! Awful, I know), and I didn't know what to expect. The book blurb seemed a little vague, so I went into it kind of blind.
I was sucked in immediately. Like, 2am-I-should-be-sleeping-but-I-can't-for-the-life-of-me-put-this-book-down-sucked-in. When I finished this morning, after barely sleeping, I was in awe.
Did that book really happen?
My heart was racing, my head was swimming. I was freaking dog-tired (on account of not bring able to put the book down, of course).
I checked my kindle and noted the 100% completed icon next to the book. Yes, yes it did happen.
Wow, did that book ever happen.
This book was proof that humans are capable of magic - because the fact that the author was able to make me feel the way I did is fantastical. The heart ache! The satisfaction! The dread, mixed in with relief. Ms. Hart has a gift.
I was honored to have been able to be a Beta reader for this book. Dani did a wonderful job.
Being a teenager is hard enough. But being a teenager who is shy, has trust issues, and is diagnosed as manic depressive, is even harder. To most people, Lennox probably seems like your average teenager. She enjoys having fun with her best friend, Kylie. Then she meets a boy, Dean, who she feels she has a instant connection with. There is just something about him...
A Firefighter's Flame takes us on the journey of Lennox dealing with every day struggles while also battling her depression. Her parents had her put on medication and seeing a therapist to help along the way. But sometimes, life's battles are just too strong. She survives with the help of some friends, but it's not easy.
I felt a connection to this story as I have some family who have battled depression/bi-polar disease. It's not a easy fight. So seeing how Lennox fought day in and day out just to survive, I understood that. That's not even the hardest part of the story. Be prepared to have a box of tissues handy because you'll need it. I think the last quarter of the book, I had to stop at least once or twice PER PAGE just to keep the tears at bay. I wanted to hold Lennox and tell her it would all be ok. It just seemed like life wouldn't give her a break. But finally, towards the end, we see a light at the end of the tunnel for her. I loved the note that this book ended on. I would also love to see how things for Lennox turn out and see where her family goes in the future.
The story was told from the perspective of a wife of a firefighter. Extremely touching, sweet, heart wrenching, and intense. Lennox may love her husband Dean, but the daily struggles she faces with him being gone for days at a time, while she is working to raise children, essentially alone, is real, understandable and gripping. Lennox also fights the severe and debilitating effects of depression. This part of the story of hiding the fear, the panic and the triggers is more than understandable and real! Lennox is fighting the choices she made early on in her life and trying desperately to live with her choices, but secretly wishing for the real love that she left behind. The end of the story is gripping and leaves the reader with an overwhelming sense of pain and peace all at once. It was wonderfully written! Congratulations Dani Hart for bringing the supporter, the strength and the real human side to life as a Hero! The wife, the spouse, the partner of a Fire Fighter!!
**I received a complimentary copy for my honest review***
When I started this book, I must say I did not expect what I got. This book took me on a emotional crazy ride. All I could say was WOW!! I was sucked in from the beginning and found myself not being able to put it down.
I thought the book was beautifully written. Author Dani Hart done an amazing job portraying Lennox who was suffering from depression to us. This is a very real condition and I loved how the author handled this in the story.
I will diffidently be reading more from Author Dani Hart now that she has sucked me in with her writing. I would recommend everyone to read A Firefighter's Flame. It's one you wont forget.
I was honored to be a beta reader for this one and OMG!!!! It is different from other books I have read and it was a great way to get me out of the book funk I was in. I would have loved to be able to just locked myself away to read this one and not been bothered by life but I couldn't. It was amazing. The feelings and emotions just poured from the pages. In a few spots I was so wrapped up in the story and emotions I forgot I was suppose to be making note on what I was reading. IT WAS THAT GOOD! I can't wait for this to come out so I can talk to others about it.
I am truly blessed to be asked to Beta read for this book. Dani made her mark as a writer when she first brought out Reality (The Life of Arie), but now she has cemented herself as an Author on the rise with A Firefighter"s Flame. This story is so raw, powerful and emotional, keep your tissues handy! I am looking forward to being able to put a full review in, and can not wait for everyone to read and enjoy this book just as much as I did.
OMG "A firefighter's Flame" made me cry. and not a pretty cry either! It had me on a roller coaster of emotions, that still has me torn up inside. My heart is aching for Lennox and Dean, and even Braeden.... for all the lost choices, misunderstandings, and lies.
This book has my emotions in such a turmoil I don't even know what else to say about it, so I might have to come back and elaborate on the story on a future date.
I’m not an emotional reader. I read hundreds of books every year, many which would destroy your average person emotionally, but I didn’t shed a tear. That wasn’t the case with A Firefighter’s Flame. There were so many parts of this book that could have been written about my own life, that I couldn’t help but be overwhelmed emotionally.
Lennox is a firefighter’s wife, married to her first love, Dean. She is essentially a stay at home mom of two kids. Unfortunately, due to the strains of not just everyday life and the years that pass, but Dean’s job as a firefighter, they find themselves growing apart. Lennox has a chance meeting with an old flame, Brayden, and she begins to wonder what life would be like if she pursued a relationship with the man she considers her soul mate. Does she dare to risk the comfortable life with the man she knows loves her despite her flaws in order to pursue the man who left her behind so many years ago? Or does she work to invest in her marriage, and everything she and Dean have built together over the years? Unfortunately fate has a sick way of intervening and when tragedy occurs, the choice is no longer hers.
I’m not a firefighter’s wife, however I am a military wife, so I understand the feeling all to well of being left behind. The disciplinarian, the bad guy, the one that picks up the pieces when he’s gone, the one who keeps the machine finely tuned to make his life easier. I am also bipolar, so I know what it is like to deal with the stress of having a spouse that works in a dangerous job that keeps him away from his family for a great deal of time. Being left alone with the kids, trying to keep their world together when many times “get out of bed” and “take a shower” are the only things you can accomplish on your ever-growing to do list. To have others count on you when you can’t count on yourself. I understand it all, far too clearly. That is what made this so emotional of a book for me. Thankfully I am not dealing with feelings for another man, but to understand why Lennox deals with situations the way she does, and why her mind works the way it does, I get that. Completely.
Bravo to Ms. Hart for having the courage to take on a character that despite her issues is still able to remain strong, and truthful to the disease that devastates her and her family. Lennox’s interpersonal relations and emotions are absolutely spot-on. I also appreciate the character of Dean, whom understands Lennox’s illness and loves her for it, not in spite of it. I too have an incredibly faithful and understanding husband, and I think that is why I was so affected emotionally by Dean’s circumstances, because I can just imagine how devastated I personally would be given the same situation with my husband. (Sorry to be vague, I’m remaining spoiler free!)
A Firefighter’s Flame is well written and immediately sucked me in from the very start. I stayed up overnight in order to finish it because I simply could not put it down. To say that I related to the characters would be an understatement. The characters and story that Ms. Hart has crafted are well developed, emotional, relatable, and most importantly, believable. If I could give this book more than five stars, I most definitely would because it is certainly worthy. A Firefighter’s Flame has earned a place on my favorites shelf and would recommend it to anyone looking for a true love story with genuine characters. This is the first book I’ve read by Ms. Hart and most certainly won’t be the last!
I have always been drawn towards stories written about firefighters which is how I came to read A Firefighter’s Flame. I tend to gravitate towards romantic tales of meeting and falling in love but after reading the synopsis, I felt a bit unsure of where this story was going to lead me. Well this book caught me completely by surprise and was nothing like I have ever read before. After having finished it, I sat contemplating how I was going to get through this review to express the intensity of emotion it made me feel without spoiling it for others who have yet to read it.
A Firefighter’s Flame is told through the eyes of Lennox, the wife of a firefighter and mother of two. Lennox has always struggled with depression dealing with episodes where everything in her life is overwhelming her all at once and flipping to the opposite side where she completely shuts down. Lennox met Dean in high school with both immediately feeling a connection of the heart. After many years of relationship ups and downs, they marry and begin to move into a life of routine of buying a home and having children. Dean is away from home working long hours as a firefighter and Lennox is left to raise their children alone. Continuing to struggle with her depression, she begins to question her existence and the life she is leading. But when tragedy strikes, Lennox is forced to fight to overcome those issues from which she has suffered all of her life in search of the happily-ever-after she has always hoped for but never certain she would find.
I must admit throughout the first few chapters of this story, I struggled a bit to keep going. But as I read on, Ms. Hart brought me deeper into the mind of Lennox ultimately pulling me into her life giving insight into someone dealing with depression who makes the decision to continue on the life path she had chosen. She learns to continue to fight to overcome the tragedy and heartbreak that has befallen her. The author’s writing style here is interesting and creative as she takes us on a journey from the present back through the past as Lennox struggles to deal with her emotional state and current situations which pull her back to prior experiences which have made her the woman she has developed into today.
Dani Hart has written a story which was so overwhelmingly emotional for me to a point where I couldn’t even talk about it without breaking down into tears. At the conclusion of this book, I was glad that I continued to read it as had I not endured, I would have missed out on this beautiful and heart wrenching tale of a woman who possesses such an inner strength which allowed her mind to overcome what she felt she never could. As the adage goes, that which does not kill us makes us stronger, and A Firefighter’s Flame is an example of that kind of strength.
Thank you Ms. Hart for giving us this beautiful story. You’ve deeply touched my heart.
A Firefighter's Flame is a story about a few matters. Lennox is the wife of a firefighter (Dean). She suffers from depression and is bipolar. Add to that the mother of two children, love and loss. Suffering from depression and having a bipolar disorder is very hard for Lennox. Years after being married, Lennox starts to feel as if her marriage was a mistake and somewhere along that time she has become lost. This book had joyful moments, angst, heartbreak and SHOCKING MOMENTS that I was left stunned. I really loved that this read had past and present moments which helped me to relate with the characters. It gave me a better understanding of what Lennox what going through.
Dani Hart took me on an emotional journey. This book hard a dark side and it was heartbreaking reading Lennox thoughts. Lennox is at a junction in her life where she realizes that she has to get more focused and make a tough decision. This is in order to find peace for herself, her children and her husband. The author takes readers on a journey into Lennox’ past, present and even a glimpse into her future.
Lennox and Dean met in high School. Both made mistakes and Lennox has not been able to get over some of them. She has always had feelings for someone from her past and wonders what would have happened if she gave into them. This keeps her at a standstill. When Lennox is finally able to make sense of her world and is ready to talk to Dean, something happens that I did not see coming, and it blew me away.
I am an emotional reader so when I read Lennox’ story, I felt every ounce of pain, betrayal, and her loneliness. I found myself having to put down my Kindle at times to regroup and go back to reading it.
Dean is not home often because of his schedule. Lennox is able to hide her pain from her husband because of this. Lennox was so depressed and she was not happy. In fact, there was a time that she tried to commit suicide. There is so much that she should be happy for but because she was never able to deal with her past she could not find true happiness and peace.
This read is a hard one but it is also an eye opener. Everyone out there believes life is a HEA but real life is not that. Life is hard and it is filled with ups and downs, betrayal, heartbreaks and happiness. I feel that the author, Dani Hart, did an amazing job dealing with two major issues that plague many people…depression and bipolar disorder. This is what REAL people have to deal with…real issues. It is not girl meets boy and they live happily ever after. No this is about the REAL WORLD.
This book was wonderfully written. I could not put it down and it touched me. I will have Lennox with me forever!!!
I received a complimentary copy from the author/publisher in exchange for an honest review.
A Firefighter's Flame is the most heartbreaking, soul wrenching, beautiful, loving, broken, healing, and all around AMAZING STORY! I could go on and on forever! Every emotion flows effortlessly out of this book straight into your heart, leaving you forever attached to the story. It is relatable to so many people. It is one of those stories that touches your soul! Such a beautiful story!
Lennox is married to Dean and they have 2 beautiful children. She is a firefighter's wife and proud of it. She adores her family. But after years of battling depression and taking care of her family she has lost herself. Something is missing. . .
"I had to find redemption somewhere if I was going to ever live again."
Throughout the book we learn about Lennox's life. Her struggles as a teenager, fun times with her best friend Kylie, and falling in love with Dean. She has been dealing with depression for years and her parents tried medication and therapy, but sometimes life is just too much for her to handle.
"You know he never stopped loving you, Len. That boy is obsessed with you. He worships the ground you walk on. You're bat shit crazy and he loves you for it not in spite of it." ~Kylie
We follow Lennox on her journey to discovering who she is. So many emotions are being thrown at her at once and she can't handle her own reality. Falling in love, falling out of love, and finally finding out who is her forever is not an easy journey. Lennox's strength is tested over and over. And sometimes fate intervenes right as you are finally figuring it out, and decides for you.
"It was ironic how I finally had a choice and fate took it from me again. We were fools to think that we had control of our lives. We didn't."
There are so many things I want you to know, but you truly must read this and experience it for yourself. I don't want to spoil anything for you. I was given the opportunity to beta read for Dani, and fell in love with the story from the beginning! This isn't your typical romance about a sexy firefighter, but it is SO much more! You will definitely need the tissues! (I can't believe she made me cry!!) Dani Hart's writing style is very romantic and emotional! There are so many special moments that were captured and brought to life throughout the story. You just have to read it and experience the story for yourself!
Wow! The story inside the pages of this book were not at all what I was expecting! This was an intensely emotional book full of regrets, sorrow, and pain. This book did a number on my heart... good and bad.
I wanted more, but didn't I have it all minus a white picket fence? From the outside, it looked like I had it all, but on the inside, I had very little. I was empty and unfulfilled. I wanted the epic love I read about. I wanted my dreams to come true like in the movies. I wanted what I had now, but I wanted to feel it.
This book immediately hooked me by the writing style alone as I was taken down a dark journey of reflection. I couldn't put it down and I have the blood shot eyes to prove it. We are introduced to a 32 year old, married, mother of two, named Lennox, who suffers from a lifetime of depression. She is lost and unhappy with her current life and appears to have feelings of remorse about her recent actions, which are not immediately clear. As the story unfolds, we are transported back and forth from past to present. We learn about Lennox's struggles, her pain, the loves of her life, and the path and decisions that led her to where she is.
"How could I love two boys so passionately, yet so differently? My heart belonged to one and my soul to another."
What I loved most about this book was the honesty and how real it felt. There wasn't a moment when I didn't feel like I wasn't a part of this story. The characters were well thought out and written. Although I felt a connection with all of them, the main character, Lennox, is a character that I will forever hold close to my heart. I was surprised how much I understood her and could relate to her, and I think anyone who reads this will be able to relate to her in some sense as she tells her story.
I also loved the originality of this book. There are many twists and turns and every time I thought I knew where this story was going... it took a completely different turn. This isn't one of those stories where the character has had a dark past full of abuse and just needs someone to save her. This is an honest depiction of depression and shows an individual's struggle with it from a young age as she tries to live her life as normally as possible.
I would recommend this book to everyone. It's a beautiful story and one of the gems of indie publishing.
***I was gifted a complimentary copy of this book by the author/publisher in exchange for an honest review.***
A Firefighter’s Flame has to be one of the most heartbreaking, beautiful books I have read this year! The story opens with Lennox, a firefighter’s wife, questioning one of the most important choices in her life…her marriage. She is married to her high school sweetheart, Dean, who is a firefighter. The life as a wife of a firefighter is hard and lonely. Days and nights go by without Lennox and her two children seeing Dean. When she goes away for a weekend for her friend’s bachelorette party, she meets up with an old flame that she still harbors strong feelings for. Will she give into temptation and throw her life away with a man who adores her and tear her children’s lives apart, or will she stay strong and committed to making her marriage work? Will she choose the man who owns her heart or the one who owns her soul? It turns out Lennox doesn’t have to make a decision, a cruel twist of fate makes the decision for her, life as she knows it will never be the same again.
This is not your typical contemporary romance; it’s so much more. As you will see, Lennox struggles with bipolar disorder. While there is romance, and you are given a given a history of Lennox and Dean and Lennox and Braedyn and all the emotions involved, you also see her struggles with her bipolar disorder. This is as much a love story is it is about a woman who is hanging on by a thread at times. Dani Hart is brutally honest and descriptive in Lennox’s struggle with depression and the days she struggles to even get out of bed. She does a great job of giving insight into a disorder that affects so many people and their loved ones.
OMG...the twist that occurs in this story is gut wrenching. Without spoiling for you, I will warn you that you will need a box of tissue. I cried my eyes out. But, I loved it! As I have written in other reviews, a writer who can make a reader feel those emotions is doing their job. This was a bittersweet story of love, loss, healing, and the importance of family. PLEASE DON’T LET THE FACT THAT THIS IS A TEARJERKER OF A BOOK DISCOURAGE YOU FROM READING IT!!! You will be missing out on a phenomenal read that changes the way you look at your life and the people whom you hold dear.
When I first signed up for this blog tour, I thought "Oooh sexy hot firemen!" But I have to say, this is not what A Firefighter's Flame is about, and I was pleasantly surprised by the journey I was taken on.
This is the story of Lennox, a sexy firefighter's wife, and we follow her from her teenage years to married with children status. The thing I liked about her the most is her imperfections. She suffers from bipolar disorder (and from the perspective of someone who has suffered depression for many years, I could totally relate to her in her depressed phases). Her marriage is not perfect, she struggles with the day to day.
Her husband Dean has always been her one. Or has he? I both loved and loathed him at times, but mostly loved him.
There is a bit of a love triangle that isn't really a love triangle (does that make sense) with Lennox, Dean and his friend Brayden, but I don't want to tell you much about that as I don't want to spoil things for you.
Lennox did frustrate me for a good deal of the book with the flip-flopping between her feelings for Brayden and the love for her husband. I wanted to shake her at times and tell her to snap out of it, and make up her mind (though in theory having two hotties after you isn't a bad thing, is it? lol)
A Firefighter's Flame is a bit of everything. While it is predominantly a book about Lennox and her fights to find herself and grow as a human being, it deals with mental illness, love and loss, lust and temptation, hope and faith, betrayal and regret.
It is written in 3 different times in Lennox's life (teen/college years, present, and the very near past), and this took me a little while to get into, but it was a great way to get into Lennox's mind set at those times of her life.
A Firefighter's Flame is a book with a great deal of heart and a great deal of heartbreak. There was also a twist in the tail of this story that had me thinking "ooooh wonder where this is going" but then it ended and we didn't get to find out the road it took :(
If you are not after a run of the mill fireman book, A Firefighter's Flame is the way to go for it.
I received a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.
Lennox is a firefighter’s wife. She also suffers from manic depression. She’s torn between a man that owns her heart and a man that owns her soul. We enter Lennox’s life when she’s experiencing an episode of extreme depression. She doesn’t know if she should continue in the life she’s built with her husband and children or leave it behind for something new.
Dean is Lennox’s husband. He’s a firefighter. He puts his life on the line daily. He’s in love with Lennox, all of her, the good and the bad. He’s made mistakes in the past and works more than he’s around, but he has Lennox’s heart.
Kylie is Lennox’s best friend. She’s wild, has been since she and Lennox grew apart when Dean entered the picture. They are just starting to really connect again.
Braedyn was a bandmate of Dean’s during their college years. Lennox felt an immediate attraction to him and they were the best of friends. He understood Lennox’s depression because he suffers from it also, but he hurt Lennox because of the ‘man code’.
I wasn’t sure what to expect when I started to read this story. I had read a little about it and wasn’t sure if it would be my kind of read. I was kind of leery because of the mental illness aspect. I’ve never had to deal with that on a personal level and just wasn’t sure what to expect. I was totally sucked in. This book captured my attention and kept it till the very end. I can’t say I read it in one sitting because I had to sleep, but it was on my mind when I went to bed and still on my mind when I woke up. I was surprised at how fast of a read it was. It seemed like I had just started to finish reading it, when all of a sudden I was done. This story was very well-written and easy-to-read. I will warn you, you will cry ugly tears. I sure did. I’m not sure if I liked the ending or not. It did not have a cliffhanger, but the ending was not really what I had expected or hoped for. Overall, I loved it and recommend it to anyone looking for a deep and meaningful story.
I was gifted this copy from the Author for an honest review. I gave this book 5 Stars.
Lennox is a wife, a mother, a best friend. A person who has got lost in her everyday life raising her kids and taking care of life. Her husband Dean is gone a lot because he is a firefighter and he is gone for days at a time. That leaves Lennox in charge of everything and that has had its toll on her life and her marriage. She does still love her husband, but she feels lost and defeated. She also suffers from depression, and all that combined is not a good thing. We go on a journey with her to her past her present and visit the places that bring her comfort and the places that bring her pain. What will her choice be when she is done going on this journey and when she realizes what she does want is it too late to get it?
The story had me captured from the beginning until the end. At times I stopped had to take a deep breath and wonder why am I reading this? But I wanted to know what was going to happen to everyone involved in this heart wrenching story. She talked about her life and how she gets lost in the everyday things and wants to do nothing but sleep and leave the house a mess. And I caught myself relating to her in a way that I have no really related to anyone in any other books. It felt like she was living my life. When your in a situation like that you feel defeated and helpless. This story tore out my freaking heart and left nothing in it's place. It felt real and I balled my eyes out. After all that happened the ending still surprised me and I found myself not happy about the things that were happening, but still reading it and not being able to put it down. Thank you Dani for your beautiful heart breaking story. I look forward to reading more from you. You are a very gifted writer. <3
I have some mixed feelings about this book. For the most part I really enjoyed it. There was a really good storyline that I think a lot of women can relate to. Lennox, or Len, suffers from manic depression. She has struggled with it her whole life and the reader follows along as she tries to navigate through life and relationships. While most women do not experience the highs and lows quite like Len, I think that she still represents a little of each of us.
When Len falls for Dean, she falls hard and fast. He does as well. I loved their relationship, at first. There is a gradual change in their relationship until finally she starts to break. The two are growing up and they have to figure out how to handle it together or it will tear them apart.
Fast forward to when she is a wife and mother. A lot of women get sucked in to the monotony of life. There are times of depression, but again, most women can dig their way out. Len has a harder time "shaking it off" due to her manic depression. We see motherhood and life through her eyes. I really did enjoy her journey and self-discovery.
This story is told in the present and also gives us flashbacks of the past. This is where I'm not quite sure how I feel about it. I DO enjoy stories like this. I feel it adds another layer to the plot and just gives me a better understanding of the characters. The author did it pretty well, but at times I felt that the story was a bit slow and repetitive. Lennox was down on herself quite a bit and it got a bit old, BUT that is a product of her illness, so I got it.
I think that this is a really good story. I became attached to the characters and am hoping that there is another book. There is NOT a cliffhanger. I just honestly enjoyed all the characters and would like to connect with them again. This book isn't about perfect characters that have perfect relationships. In all honesty, they are all flawed in some way. It is how they navigate through life despite all their flaws that makes a lovely story about love, forgiveness, and the possibilities that life can hold.
I was honored and lucky enough to read Beta read this incredible story for the author.
Lennox is a troubled woman who struggles with Manic Depression, heartache and years of confusion. Her husband, Dean, is a firefighter who stands by her side when she needs him the most. There are pieces of Lennox that I (along with many others) can relate to. Dani Hart brings us into Lennox’s life when she is at a major changing point. In an age where daring erotic romances are overpowering, this book was a nice change of pace. Not only is it romantically sexy; it has a great plot!
In this story, we get to know Lennox and all of the people in her life. I felt as is if I was experiencing her life with her, helping her make the right decision. Lennox guides us through the past, present and future of her relationships.We learn about her untamed best friend, Kylie, who tests Lennox's boundaries (and I want to smack her most of the time). We meet Dean, her boyfriend/husband, who knows just when Lennox needs him the most (and I want to hug him). Then we meet Braedyn, the tempting reminder from her past ( I want to smack him, hug him and then have dinner with him).
This is a genuinely raw story that will bring you to tears. It isn't very often we get to follow the journey of such a real character. One who struggles with love, loss, children, temptation, death and HONESTY. Painful, gut wrenching honesty!
Once again, Dani Hart impressed me with her words. She writes in such a descriptive fashion; you feel as if you can jump right into the story and live it. From the achingly powerful descriptions of grief to the sweet, seductive words she uses to draw you in, it is an excellent read. Grab your tissues and get prepared to be captured by the unexpected, scorchingly sweet story that is A Firefighter's Flame.
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Have you ever wondered if it was possible to find two "the ones"? Have you every wondered how it is possible to be in love with two totally different people?
If you chose one, would you spend your life wondering if you made the right choice?
This book is amazing. Beyond amazing. So many things make this one of my favorite books EVER.
Dani Hart wrote this in a way that made me feel like I was reading Lennox, the main characters, diary. Everything is shown through her eyes and spans over a wide time frame.
The book starts off in the present as we're introduced to a woman who doesn't know who she is anymore. She's a wife and a mother - but beyond that, she's lost herself. We then flashback to her teenage years where she means Dean, her now husband. We follow their relationship back and forth between the past, from high school to college to adulthood, and present.
Lennox is broken. She doesn't know who she is and she's struggled with depression and panic attacks her whole life. Her past haunts her, well a man from her past and memories of him haunts her on a daily basis. It is at her best friends bachelorette party that she is confronted with the pain of her past.
Her life with Dean is perfect, to someone who is outside looking in. He's a firefighter, a great dad, and a devoted husband. Then why does she feel that she's missing something? Why isn't she as happy as she once was?
Something happens that leaves Lennox at a crossroads. She finally knows what she wants but is it too late? Did she wait too long to finally put her energy into what will make her happy?
I identified with Lennox so much in this story. To the point where a few times, I could have been telling the same story.
This is easily one of my favorite books. And I mean by favorite books EVER. I've read a lot, A LOT, of books and this one...this one hit home. This one is one that will forever stick with me.
I have to say that this book was absolutely impeccable. I was instantly drawn in as soon as it began and never once wanted to put it down. It so raw and so real, it will absolutely take your breath away while reading it. You find yourself so entranced and related to so many aspects of the story. Lennox is an amazing woman. I couldn’t help but admire her throughout the whole book. She goes through so much heartbreak and turmoil but no matter what she finds a way back and keeps fighting. Be prepared to deal with some major issues in this book that will break your heart and have you bawling. I wanted so much for Lennox to finally find her happily ever after and be happy. Not only for her sake but for her husband’s and kids and no matter how it all turned out for her I just wanted everyone to be happy that she had finally pulled out of her darkness. Dean is without a doubt an amazing man. He will have you loving him every step of the way. Well almost throughout the whole book, there are a few times I felt as betrayed as Lennox did by him. But all in all he is an amazing, loving man who sacrifices so much to provide for his family and takes such astonishing care of those in his life. I loved this man. You will find out that Lennox has two loves in her life. One who owns her heart and one who owns her soul. I found myself so conflicted on who I wanted her to be with because both of these men are amazing and make her feel things that she deserves to feel. This book will take you on an amazing journey and have your emotions all over the place because you find yourself trying to deal with the same things as Lennox. The story is so beautifully written and will have your heart soaring, breaking, and mending all at the same time.
I have to say well done Dani Hart, I have a new favorite to add to my list and I can’t wait to read more from this wonderful author because she is so talented and I loved that she held nothing back.
Dani Hart’s A Firefighter’s Flame will have your chest so tight with emotions even the hardest of people will succumb.
When I first began the journey with Lennox, Kylie and Dean I had no idea what to expect. This was my first Dani Hart book, and it definitely will not be my last. A firefighter’s Flame stuck an arrow in my heart and found permanent residence there.
Lennox is troubled in every form of the word, even though she tries to hide it well. The darkness creeps in and sometimes, you can’t always find the light at the end of the tunnel.
Dean has been a firefighter for seven long years, he wouldn’t give it up for anything, it’s his passion saving people. But, the one person he wants to save is Lennox. But, he may just be her undoing.
A Firefighter’s Flame will make you feel every word that Dani wrote. The pain that Lennox feels will ooze into your pores, seeping into your soul until you can’t do anything except hurt with her. She feels guilt, anger, sadness and frustration. Those moments of happiness are fleeting; but when she feels them, they are her pot of gold. It would light up even the darkest of voids. A Firefighter’s Flame is most definitely an emotional book that will have you laughing, crying and cursing in anger. But, even though I still hurt after hours of reading it, it is a must read from me.
A Firefighter’s Flame is emotional and inspiring. Even in the darkest of times, through the most difficult situations, there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel.