This was a unique story – something like literary fiction with thriller undertones, with queer characters and relationships a pivotal part of the story. The queer element was what drew me to this book in the first place, and I was happy to see that it was presented well, with meaningful and realistic explorations of modern queer relationships and culture. While that was a highlight, it wasn’t the only good thing about this book. The story and the character work were both really strong. I loved the suspense generated by Ash’s paranoia, and the questions raised as to whether he was correct about what he thought, or creating problems because of his infatuation with James. James and Raf were both fantastic characters, too, with multiple developments throughout the story making me question who they really were. My engagement in the story was strengthened a lot by the character work and the dynamic between Ash and James, but on its own, the plot stood out, too. There were some great twists in there, even if I was a little disappointed in the way things wrapped up. There was a big unanswered question in there, and it seems pretty obvious that the book is not getting a sequel, so the ending was left ambiguous. On some level, I get it, but it was also a pretty unsatisfying choice for my personal experience.
I enjoyed this book, but two big things immediately stopped it from being anything above good. Firstly, the stylistic writing choice to not have any speech marks for character dialogue annoyed the daylights out of me. If it made sense with the themes of the book, I could overlook it, but no, it just seemed to be the author’s choice. I absolutely detest this type of writing, and it was lucky that the story was good enough for me to get over it and move on. Removing the speech marks served no purpose. I know it doesn’t matter to most people, so I’m not saying that’s a reason not to read the book; I’m just saying it’s something that bothered me specifically. Secondly, there were some pretty disgusting sex scenes in there. There’s a lot of sex, which isn’t the problem, but there are some things that go a little bit too far towards the end of the book (one at page 206 in my edition, and one at the very end of the book). I guess you could argue that the characters are messed up people who do messed up things, but it was so over-the-top with its crudeness, and I honestly felt those two scenes in particular served no purpose in the book. Maybe that makes me a prude, but I couldn’t look past it.
Overall, though, this was a good read that I mostly enjoyed. I just beg the author to please, please, put speech marks for dialogue in his next book.